Talak on the First Night (Doubtful Sanctity)
13: Altruism

Aidan is still upset. The twenty-nine-year-old man could not sleep until he made the room next to his room and it was Azzam's sister's room, as a destination. More coincidentally, the room was not fully closed. In fact, in there, Azzam the younger brother was sitting in the work chair staring at the door, although his gaze was not so focused.

“Dek ..?” said mas Aidan heavy and even to the point of not being able to continue his words. In fact, he was also powerless to look at the face of Azzam, the figure who had introduced him to Didi. Because of Azzam, their relationship began. Azzam and Didi were good friends since both of them studied at the same university and it was in Yogjakarta.

“You don't match, Mas. The rant, .. You are too imposing for a soul mate. Because even though you love each other even love, .. uniting the relationship in a real marriage is not enough just capital it.” Azzam who was still holding his arms, said full of calm. He stared at the shade of the brother he was fighting was almost crying.

“The strength of your affection, your differences are also not less strong.” Azzam was sorry. “This I'm talking about based on facts, yeah, Mas. I'm trying to be neutral. Want Didi my best friend, want Mas my brother and Mas one of my best mecca.”

“Didi is used to being pampered and whatever the minimum level he is obliged to premium. Whatever Didi was, she was used to being treated like a Princess. He always wants to be number one especially when it comes to his partner. This is normal, but normally Didi will not be fulfilled by Mas who everyone knows. Family number one, small people let alone those who have strange problems, this is much more important for Mas.”

“For Mas, there is nothing more important than all that because Mas realized, if not Mas who already has the provision to take care of it at once settle it all, who else helps them?”

Hearing the advice of the younger brother who was only a year younger than him, Mas Aidan looked down even deeper. The clear details that escaped from both eyes, fell down on the floor in front of both feet on their feet.

“Didi it takes, couples who will indeed be there to make at least eighty percent of their busyness. Although Mas? Mas just came home, Mas will only stop if the affairs of others who helped, sorted.”

“Only an extraordinarily patient woman can perfect the soul of altruism Mas. Mas was not only a good person, but Mas was also classified as an altruist because Mas has devoted his life to people who need a helping hand Mas. Until now, love and partner have not been important to me. Most later if it has happened that Mas lost a couple sort of breaking up and or more. This was just starting and could stop on the road because once again, Mas was classified as altruist. Half angel man is so good, but to the couple instead .. failed anyway yes honest language.”

“Mas want to go first, Dek.” Mas Aidan wiped his tears quickly using both hands. Until now, things that concern Didi the lover is still very sensitive for him. His heart is easily fragile, but if he is faced with the difficulties of others let alone small people exactly as Azzam described, he will choose them and sacrifice Didi just because he is sure, he will choose them, Didi can still be without him.

“Deliver all this to Didi. But yes mendoknya, nambek, better, tambak, better, promise, misuh-misuh again. The problem is when?”

“You want to know when you are like this? You're both grown up and Didi's a kid. Don't play with people's children because we have parents, we have a family that will certainly make us angry if someone dares to ngusik let alone hurt!”

Mas Aidan nodded. “Iya, Deck. It's still waiting for Didi's reply. Mas still a business.”

“ Dealing with women is all wrong, well, Mas. Chased wrong, not even more wrong again.”

“Iya, Deck.”

“But it looks like if you are a mate, just immune, Mas. Including that, Mas can indeed mate with Didi, thickened so. However, in addition to Didi who must have thought for a long time, why did he end his life just to survive patience, but Mas who fought for it still? While Mas will later realize the gini version, Mas feels very guilty for making Didi have to sacrifice. But Mas want to escape, Mas already dear, not to be off Mas will hurt Didi more deeply. Especially on the other hand, although apart from Mas Didi would be happy with the right man, Mas is also heavy, and this is what his name .. selfish.”.

“The question, ... who wants to give up?” This time, Azzam deliberately kept silent, waiting for his brother to make a decision. “Nothing. Even if there is, you will still return to the original habitat!”

“Kelak, whoever Mas's soul mate, I'll be sungkem deh to him because he must be he's amazing!” continued Azzam.

Mas Aidan looked at Azzam full of seriousness.

As if understanding what his brother will say, Azzam deliberately said, “Serius, Mas. Mas might not be able to force Didi to change as Mas wants because Mas alone is not possible to change everything that already exists in Mas. Change happens and it starts with ourselves, right?”

“We can indeed change someone, but it will not last long let alone become a permanent change, Mas. Mas know that. For let alone others, ..we are still changing. Like me now, I can very easily say gini, nasihatin Mas, but my life is also not really very!” Azzam ended his words with an innocent smile. “I'm the type who is too thinker, so think so failed all.” He held back his laughter. “Later there, mbak Azzura came and my head was immediately clicked(hit) the same he.” This time, he deliberately became a figure who thirsted for attention also to the brother. Sure enough, Aidan walked up to him and gave him a hug. A hug that will usually dampen all the turmoil. Because even though the effect is not forever, at least after that, he will be able to calm down again until he can continue things better.

Now, in silence, Aidan is really thinking about the future of his relationship with Didi. Because if the situation continues as it is now, continue to ignore, their relationship is not likely to be healthy.

“Weight at the beginning, ... happy for after even, ... forever,” Inner Mas Aidan still hugged Azzam even though the sister did not return his embrace.