
after a long wait, from a distance came someone approaching joni,
how surprised Joni when he found out that came not his father or mother, but Andre who came with a face that holds sadness that can not be described with words.
''let's go home Jon.'' Andre said with a trembling voice
''sister already let you come with sister this afternoon...''
andre said while turning his face away.
seeing this Joni fell silent in silence following Andre's steps.
in his mind popped up a thousand questions but was unable to ask his brother anything.
because never once seen by Joni, the brother who was so strong in his eyes looks fragile and almost broken, as it is today.
what really happened.....
why do you and your mother not come to visit me.
why a brother as strong as steel could be this fragile
what is going on is actually, a lot of questions that have sprung up in Joni's mind but he is unable to say.
''don't ask first, just follow it to the destination.'' said Andre still with a trembling voice as he endured the overwhelming sadness.
a motorcycle that was purchased from a salary for 10 months. Andre and Joni left for the village of Soko which is 57 km from the city of lori. and can reach the village in the next 4 hours because the road passed is still not adequate.
(the economic development of the community is still very minimal, so that the development of technology is also still all traditional, the development in the last 5 years in the village of Soko is that some villagers already have a motor as a tool, as well as the, and it is seen that there began to be colored wall buildings in the village of Soko even for six years this electricity has not been accessed.)
along the way there were no words and jokes of laughter, they both seemed to be pecking in erratic thoughts.
''forgive me deck..By the moment you can not tell the truth.Sister is afraid your longing turned into something unimaginable, strong is my sister. brother knows you are the most powerful and care for everything.Strong my sister you are the medicine of us who are always by your side.strong my sister.be proud of my father...'' andre's words and expectations were in his mind.
while Joni laughed guessing what really happened, that's all Joni always thought...... ah (Joni always tried to brush off the negative thoughts that occasionally appear in his head).
three and a half hours passed on the wheels without sound and words.and did not feel the time was almost Maghrib, from a distance looks Joni village located across the stretch of agricultural land. adzan Maghrib echoed in the corner of the settlement, the,
the day was getting darker and finally Joni reached home, seen some people walk up to and seen the father sitting down his face.
Joni trembled watching what she was seeing right now and the possibility of what was going on. The heavier her footsteps became....
without realizing Joni Andre walked ahead and greeted the father and embraced him while crying and Andre walked in.....
Joni is still very heavy to step foot into his house even though some people propped up and broke it but Joni did not care at all, he was just afraid of what was feared to happen.
''mother.... u.u..u....'' sounding Andre's cry from inside the house.
Joni flinched and almost fainted hearing her brother's scream.
Joni walked up to her father and endured her tears without knowing why she was crying, even she did not know what was really going on. Joni got up from the arms of the father and walked while accompanied by the father to a crowded living room.
when he arrived Joni looked around the room there was someone lying in the middle of the room while in the hug of her brother. Joni approaches and tries to accept the fact that it is her mother. he is gone and will never return
Joni sat without a sound but tears continued to flow and immediately Joni turned back and stood up. she wanted to take water and teach me with a trembling voice beside her mother's body followed by Andre her brother. which also brings tears.
while continuing to shed tears Joni continued to teach until it did not feel late at night and it was time to go to earth right in TPU Soko village.
Joni and Andri never miss in every funeral procession until it is finished....
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the funeral procession was completed and all residents began to leave the cemetery area.Lagged Andre and Joni and his father who still pray for his mother.
after a while, they returned home..
tonight there was not a word that said from Joni's mouth. From yesterday he just fell silent without a sound.
from yesterday, pak pendi noticed Joni, his youngest child who was so cheerful and strong but now seemed very fragile.
''son, forgive me for not being able to take good care of your mother, '' said pendi to Joni while holding her shoulder.
''son, cry, overflow what you feel right now.don't hold it alone.'' said pak pendi again.
''before your mother dies she leaves an apology for you and leaves this letter for you and for your brother'' said pak pendi while handing over a piece of paper that was just folded.
''you must be strong through all this, I am sure you are able to be what your mother wants you to be.
son no longer grieve all has been suratan destiny, so Joni must be strong yes.''
said pak pendi while hugging and rubbing Joni's back that was spilling everything she felt.
it looked as though Andre was getting calmer and stoic, who was also sitting with them.
after the father went to rest Joni and Andre unfolded the folds of paper that the father gave them. Joni asked Andre to open it.
looks scribbled letters are less neat but still read well, it is the handwriting of their mother.
they read each other, no sound no words came out of the two but their tears poured down to drip on the paper they read.
hufs............................ Andre took a deep breath and threw it away slowly, trying to calm himself down.
''dad... let's rest.'' said Andre as he folded the letter in his hand.
they fell asleep, still leaving a few tears in the corner of his eyes.
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days passed and it seemed that Joni was also getting calmer that night they gathered in the family room, but with a different atmosphere from the day before.
it appears that the father is chatting with Joni and Andre while occasionally asking his son's future plans.
Andre is very enthusiastic and eager to explain future plans to his father, but in contrast to Joni who is still not clear what his goals are now.
after passing his mother Joni felt lost the spirit and mind that had been dreamed of
Joni knew she had to recover quickly from the current slump, but now she preferred to drown in her grief.
the next day the pound arrived, the time for Andre and Joni to return to the city of the truck where his brother and he studied.
seen pendi drove them to the porch of the house while looking with sadness, despite trying to smile.
they say goodbye while kissing his hands and asking his father for prayers.