The Fruit of My Heart
Trapped in Bonds Without Love

After Luna was two months old, Felisha started college. He deliberately took employee classes so that all day he could still watch his three children.

Mia's mother was quite reliable looking after Luna at the time of Felisha's evening college.

The limited time met, making Bagas not knowing if Felisha began to continue his education in college.

Even met the twins only at breakfast. Saturday and Sunday even more Bagas spent by confining themselves in the room.

Sunday morning.. Felisha will take Luna for a walk to the park with Nakula and Sadewa. Felisha puts Luna in her baby stroller.

At the same time Bagas also came out of his room already wearing full sports clothes.Finally they also went together to the park.

Felisha and the twins sit on a park bench while watching Luna who begins to be unable to stay in her baby stroller. His hands and feet did not stop moving like he was pedaling a bicycle.

After running around the park for two rounds, Bagas approached Felisha and the children who were sitting on a wooden bench.

Bagas ducking staring petite body in baby stroller. He was stunned.The last time he held Luna at the Aqiqah event, he did not expect that now Luna was this big.

"It's big. How many months now? " ask Bagas

"Seven months" replied Felisha

Bagas could not be separated looking at Luna.It was like seeing the manifestation of Good at the time of the baby in the baby.Luna moved both hands and feet agile when the fingertips Bagas touch his round cheeks. Bagas laughed as Luna raised both her hands to be held.

"Want to be carried? .. Here's the fat guy! " Bagas also carried Luna

Suddenly Felisha's heart ached when Bagas called himself om. It turns out that Bagas only considers Luna as his niece instead of his daughter, then why he pinned her name behind Luna's name if he only considers Luna as his nephew. Felisha threw away the face hiding her suddenly dewy eyes.

Bagas again dropped Luna in his baby stroller. They also went home together. Along the way Nakula and Sadewa took turns pushing the baby stroller. This was the first time Felisha walked along with Bagas and the children during their marriage.

Time passed.not felt now the age of Luna has stepped on 3 years. Felisha will soon finish college.For almost 4 years undergoing marriage with Bagas apparently does not make them a real husband and wife.

Felisha lived the fate of marriage with iklas.Ia did not dare to dream of becoming the real wife of Bagas especially after Bagas called himself om to Luna instead of daddy.

Tonight Felisha was made to panic because Luna had a fever, even though she had been given heat-lowering drugs but her body temperature was still high.

Finally that night also Felisha and Mia mbak took Luna to the hospital.After blood tests turned out Luna was exposed to Dbd. Luna was eventually hospitalized.

"Mommy.sakiit "Luna cried when the syringe that connected with the infusion hose stuck in her hand.

Felisha held Luna in her arms trying to ease the cry of her little daughter. Almost all night Felisha did not sleep even though Mia told him to sleep.

"Yes "That's just Bagas' answer.

The next day Bagas, who was originally going to visit Luna in the hospital, was forced to cancel his plans because he got word that his mother-in-law was critical. That day Bagas took Nakula and Sadewa to Semarang.

Bagas' mother-in-law eventually died after a chance meeting with his favorite grandson. During Bagas and the twins in Semarang, he several times contacted Felisha to ask Luna for news but Felisha was reluctant to receive calls from Bagas. Felisha was really disappointed in Bagas who did not care about his daughter at all.

After three days in Semarang, Bagas finally came to visit Luna at the hospital.

"Sorry yesterday I had to go to Semarang because my mother-in-law died" Bagas said

"It's okay. Luna's condition is also getting better, said the doctor this afternoon also can go home " replied Felisha.

Although Felisha said it was okay, Bagas clearly caught the disappointment in Felisha's pretty face.

Although Felisha's face looked unfriendly, Bagas waited until Luna came home. After paying for all the care for Luna, Bagas took them home.

"Luna wants something? let me buy " Bagas try to offer something to the little girl, but Luna shook her head.

At the age of three years Luna is not too close to Bagas. Besides because they rarely communicate, it seems that the little girl's heart is quite sensitive and can feel if Bagas does not love her like Bagas loves his two brothers.

Bagas mutely gets a rejection from Luna. He glanced at Felisha who was also more silent.

"We're looking for food first "Bagas tried to open communication with Felisha

"If Bagas wants to eat please, I wait in the car only "again a rejection Bagas get. Finally Bagas also undoes his intention to invite Felisha to eat.

Arriving at home, Felisha immediately went down while carrying Luna as soon as Bagas' car stopped perfectly in the courtyard of his magnificent house. While Mia dropped off all of Luna's belongings while in the hospital and took her to Felisha's room.

Bagas stared at the back of Felisha who disappeared behind the door of his room.Bagas did not blame if the two women refused him. Even getting the anger Felisha was worth it, because he preferred to go to Semarang rather than waiting for Luna in the hospital.

Bagas was fully aware of what was going on with their marriage. It turned out that three years was not enough to make them open their hearts to each other.

Bagas remained in Kinara's shadow, as did Felisha, believing that he could never erase Good's shadow from Felisha's life.

Bagas did not know what his decision to marry Felisha was right or vice versa.At that time all he had in mind was to give a clear status and guarantee a decent life for his nephew. That was all he could give no more.

Bagas is not aware that his decision actually makes them trapped in a loveless marriage.

And Bagas did not know until when they would be able to survive or they would give up and let go of each other.