The Girl Who Lost Direction
P R O L O G

The rain outside was very heavy, wetting some of the clothes that were being dried outside, making people who passed by so shelter, feeling the sadness that this little girl experienced.

"just go there!dad doesn't have a useless daughter like you!", he threw the fork he was holding, he was fed up.

He ran up the stairs and went into the bathroom, turned on the tap water and cried, he was tired, he was not strong anymore.

Cia covered her mouth so as not to cause any noise and result in her father feeling satisfied, she would not let it, some expletive swearing out of her thin lips.

"can I go?"inwardly, he ruffled his coarse hair and grabbed it, his appearance was truly apprehensive.

There was a loud noise below, she had understood it, she could be sure both her parents were fighting, she had memorized it.

Cia crouched down and dunked her face into the bathtub, she closed her eyes, "god help me..", she hoped that God would take her life this time, but if god didn't want to, what could we do?.

He raised his head,"hosh!yosh!hosh!", his breathing was hunting, he almost lost his life earlier, he felt suffocated, and he did not like that, is there any other way for himself to go?.

Cia turned her head here and there, and her gaze fell on.Carter who was in the soap place, Cia smiled, slowly her hands took the charter.

"is this the time?", muttered cia, she cradled whether her life would end here or not, and what she did...

"AKHHHHH!!!!", yelling cia, she managed to scratch her skin, blood poured out of her hands, she fell down, no, this is not what she expected, she wanted to leave without feeling any pain, but why?

Cia slipped the hand that he had scratched earlier into the water, it spread all over his body, he panicked.He took a towel and tied it to his scratched hand, this way his blood would stop flowing.

With a blank look, she looked at the hall outside the window, it was getting late and until now she still felt the pain, She saw a group of birds flying freely without any burden, she wanted it, she said,he wants to be free of all this burden.

He let out a rough sigh, always like this, how many times has Cia tried to commit suicide, but there is no result, all remains the same, she will survive.

Cia wondered, why did God not give her the slightest happiness, and why did he not let her return to Him?wh why?cia's gone awry, now, what's he supposed to do?

"sister?", she turned her head after her name was called, she found her sister was carrying a cell phone, "mabar yuk", she said.

cia shook her head, she was dizzy, did her sister really not know the situation?, there was no sound from the stairs.

"cia!clean up the trash!your beloved cat dropped her!!", yelled her mother, she sighed again, she hated this, she hated it.

As soon as she got down and cleaned up the mess her cat was doing, her mother saw a towel that covered her arms, and then she growled furiously.

"what are you doing?do you want to wash it later?!", yelled mother while pulling a towel that covered cia's hands.

And look all, the wounds of the cia scratches are quite long and deep, evidenced by the blood flowing continuously, the mother of shock, while she still cleaned the trash can without caring for her hands.

it hurt, it hurt so much when the towel touched his skin, he tried to die to not cause any expression, he tried.

Mother was silent, she did not want to be blamed for this, the mother was selfish, she admitted that, casually she left cia with a wound in her hand, she approached the sister and invited her to eat.

seeing that, unknowingly the tears of cia fell slowly, her hands clenched violently until her fingernails turned white, she hated.

Dad was behind, after that great debate, he didn't feel guilty, didn't want to apologize, and didn't want to be blamed.They were all selfish right?

Cia let out a long sigh, before she finally walked up to her beloved cat and carried her, "hap!wanna eat?yeah?", asked cia to her cat

she led her cat out, she had a sack, she bought sausage, she was grateful she could still feed her cat even if it was just a piece of sausage.

Cia Charisma, daughter of Ridwan Samit and Rozze Supriyanti, the second of three children, her brother was named Avkan Fadhil and her sister was named Sakha Abina.

Cia one son of his daughter, making all the work must be done by him, he must obey all the commands of his parents, but his reply was very inhumane.

His father was a drunk and had an affair with his wife's best friend, which made his emotions not as stable, he could be said to be tempramental and could go berserk just because of trivial problems.

His mother always compared him to other children, he always thought that the child was useless and only a burden on the family.

Cia was desperate, very frustrated, whatever he did must be wrong in the eyes of his parents, he was not expected to be born in this world.

[little info about Cia]

Full name: Cia Charisma

Age: 16 years old

education: GARUDA PERSADA HIGH SCHOOL

hobbies: writing, reading, making up, cooking,dance, singing

the mind: unknown

gender : female

[okay continued]

Cia is bored, she wants her life to change, she wants to feel life like other girls, why does it feel so impossible?does he not deserve to be happy?

"what's Cia doing?", asked someone from behind, oh yes it's her friend, Maca.

"feed wibay(his cat name)" replied the cia without turning her head.She was sometimes upset by questions caca that she thought was unreasonable.

"your hand.", cia slightly glanced at her wounded hand, stared wryly at her wound, sob, she felt it again.

"if not treated will be an infection", said Caca with a flat gaze from the cia, "it's okay, it will also dry itself", replied the cia and then left the caca.

He's badmood, you know?every day cia badmood, like no spirit of life, she lived her day with a flat gaze, she was known as a cold girl, if she laughed, then she was covering up her suffering.

"cia!don't bring your pet in!she's disgusting!"snapped mother, Cia just replied to him with a flat gaze, she then gulped her saliva, seeing her sister was eating meatballs.Cia had not eaten this morning at all, she was too busy with the burden of her mind.

Hungry, that's how he felt, he walked past his mother, accidentally his stomach rang and was heard by his mother."are you hungry?wanna eat?wash the dishes first!",mom's maid.

Cia complied, she washed the dishes with a rumbling stomach, once she stroked her stomach hungry, she grimaced in pain when the wound came back sore.

Cia looked up at the sky, she asked in her heart, is there someone who can save her from this suffering, she is not strong, she is not a robot, she is a human, a human who can make her tired.

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WHO WILL SAVE THE CIA?SOMEONE FROM THE FUTURE?OR SOMEONE FROM THE PAST?THE ANSWER IS IN THE NEXT EPISODE!

...**This is how I used to be for prolog.I tried to rewrite it after the pandemic, for my novel that I used to be maybe I would continue it, but I was traumatized no one ngevote, but I was traumatized,many readers but lonely who ngevote, about why yes?...

...see u bye bye!!...

...Friday/03/12/2021...

...Bekasi,West Java...

...At 02:06 WIB**...