The God Of Law And Nothingness.
9.

Filia Jaene D'arc's.

The figure of the short white haired woman and the bright sea blue eyes were beautiful crystals. A 28-year-old body with an unnatural beauty according to Reza.

Philia is the same person as Reza. He used to be a puppet figure understanding feelings. That was.

He is the doer of the God killer, the end of the world, the terrible terror of all kinds of worlds everywhere, and the most hunted figure by everyone because of his cruel deeds in murder.

A figure who crosses the other universe to satisfy the desire to kill nasfu unceasingly he feels satisfaction.

Philia never really felt the meaning of her feelings. Although he understands feelings as well as ordinary people. However, his life never felt what life really meant.

Years change, centuries change, millennials change millennials. Murder and all manner of slaughter continued to pass by Philia.

Never once did he stop doing such a heinous thing.

What was never expected happened to Philia. He who felt he did not understand the feeling, it turns out the figure of someone he never considered valuable. It turned out that in his deepest heart, he had long since considered his figure to be precious.

The one who had a grudge against Philia. Finally, he paid back what Philia had done to them.

The figure that Philia considered the deepest in her heart was precious. Finally, he became a victim of the evil deeds of Philia.

Torture, indecent treatment, and cruelty. Wounded against the figure of the woman whom Philia considered valuable.

Regret came in his little heart that began to be fragile after living in the deep darkness without being able to get out.

Philia began to disappear from the outside world and hide along with redeeming... No, it says redeeming may be less precise.

Philia will help all those who are in trouble by judging whether they deserve to be saved or not. Tired of sweat, Filia doesn't care. He just wants to help and continue to help those who are in distress and deserve help.

However, all this is not enough to compensate for the sins he committed. A soul that drifts into the afterlife thanks to its own actions. It's been countless.

The figure that is declared as a disaster of the universe, is not a figment of the thumb. The universe, lo!.

His death was not worthy to compensate for his sins.

Therefore, during his life who became the bearer of distress. He will be a fox to help those who are in trouble and deserve selfless help.

****

''Teacher, why are you so sad for Reza?.'' Qin Shui was astonished by his teacher's attitude towards Reza.

Staring at the blue sky behind his blindfold, this teacher was a little sad to remember the way his life used to be.

''Shui, what will you feel when you live thousands of years in darkness without being able to feel the true meaning of feelings?.'' Detracting the answer he received from his teacher, Qin Shui replied.

''Maybe I'd rather die than live, teacher. Basically, living things are created with a purpose in life and feelings.

Without those two things, it was tantamount to a puppet possessing life.'' Seen, Qin Shui was horrified to imagine himself as in this question of his teacher.

Both are silent in each other's minds. Then the teacher started talking.

''Before, I had experienced that. Living in darkness without being able to see and feel life clearly. However, I never felt what the feeling itself meant.

As told by you. A doll that has life. I used to be just an emptiness without being able to feel the meaning of feelings even though I understood the meaning of those feelings.

Killing, cruelty, torture, joy, pleasure, happiness, pain, love, and all sorts of feelings. I did, but never felt it.

My heart is like a puppet, understanding but not feeling. Gathering this much power, I used it only to kill or do vile things, because I think. It was fun, even though I didn't feel it.

Thousands of years later, unknowingly. There is a woman who became a special figure in my deepest heart. But at that time, I thought it was just nonsense.

And when a karma comes, a precious figure to my innermost heart. I have to bear the burden of my actions.

Regrets are always at the end. It hurts so much to see that the most precious person has to take responsibility for my own actions.

I wanted to kill myself, but. Will it all be finished with that?. Sure, it's not that easy.

With my body that can neither age nor die, in other words it is eternal. From that time on, I hid my identity and made a new life.

I will help everyone who deserves help. Not looking at physical or status or anything else. As long as they are in trouble even if it is a small thing, I will help them.

I don't care if lives are lost to help people, no matter how much pain I feel. As long as they are helped, then at least I will feel a little grateful...''

He did not expect, that his teacher had a very unusual life. Indeed, from the beginning he never knew how and what his teacher was like. His teacher was too mysterious, and what only he knew. His teacher was the strongest of the strongest.

''Teacher Filia...'' Slowly, Qin Shui called out the name of his teacher named Filia in a sad tone.

Filia then resumed her conversation.

''Reza's question, he looks like me. However, he was more miserable compared to me. Luckily, he chose to have the personality of a normal and cheerful human being.

However, fast arau slow. He'll be like me. Interested in murder and abomination. His heart was already slightly stained as he became a psychopath eating the heart and raw flesh of living beings.

In fact, he was only 10 years old. It has killed and eaten the hearts of young children who often work on it. Later, after his strength is high or large.

Likely, he would become a craze and more life-living in murder and madness. The crazier, the more interesting. That's what he'll feel.

However, too, sooner or later. The child will find a figure that he considers valuable. And when the destiny of recompense comes, regret will also envelop him.

I don't want the kid to experience something like this. What's more, what Reza is feeling right now is worse than me.

What he feels. For a second, for him thousands of years have passed living in darkness without being able to get out and can not feel the meaning of feelings.

I can't stand to see him suffer like that. Also, I thank you, Shui. Because he brought her here. Otherwise, perhaps he would be a calamity more dangerous compared to the Fallen Angel King.''

Smiling gratefully, Filia looked at Qin Shui with gratitude.

And Qin Shui. He's so complicated and doesn't know what to do right now. Indeed he brought Reza here, but on the grounds that he brought him because of Reza's talent, without thinking about Reza's feelings.

It's just, it turns out Reza has a heavier and more miserable life compared to what he thought.

*****

In a basement room of the mansion belonging to Filia and Qin Shui were.

There is a detention room or prison occupied by 18-year-old teenagers. He looked so pitiful and looked like a broken doll that repeated the words he said.

''What do you mean?. I don't understand?.''

''What do you mean?. I don't understand?.''

''What do you mean?. I don't understand?.''

Keep saying that word repeated with the gaze of his eyes that had dimmed as if he was already dead.

He is Reza who starts to break down because he can't stand his life.

I want to feel, to feel the meaning of feeling. It is very desirable for him to have a friend joking and happy. I really want to understand the real meaning of life.

In Reza's subconscious.

It looks like his figure is curled up with blank eyes.

''I'm lonely, but I don't know what loneliness is?. I'm sad, but I don't know what sadness is?.

Somebody, help me!. However, why should I ask for help?...''

Reza muttered, really making himself confused. He knows the meaning of loneliness, is when a person does not have a companion of his life, his life friend, brings joy to him. Why did he not feel that loneliness.

It was sad, painful because of something. Not physically, but our hearts that hurt because of something that makes us feel pain. Why did he not feel that sadness.

Want to ask for help, but why did he ask for help?. He doesn't know.

In Reza's subconscious, there are various kinds of magic formations either large or small illuminating the darkness of the subconscious.

Reza curled up with a heart that felt empty without being able to feel anything.

And a miracle happened in Reza's subconscious. A humanoid light or resembling a human form was created.

The light approached and touched Reza's body.

A feeling, Reza finally felt. The warmth in his heart was felt when the light touched him. With a feeling of hope, Reza began to turn her gaze toward the light.

''Dear, be aware and I will wait for you in the heavenly realms.''