The Heart of Bad Boy
Chapter 6: Between the Heart and Mind of El
The clock is at 12:00 EST. All students/i at Harvard University as usual will take a lunch break until 13:00 EST. But today El's class had no courses after the afternoon break. El is now at his favorite place on campus. He was leaning under a tree while closing his eyes with earphones attached to his ears. She also enjoyed her favorite song, Fight Song by Rachel Platten. The song really describes his life, how he currently feels alone and lost a lot of things in his past and this becomes a song to encourage his life even in bad circumstances.
"Prove I'm alright song." muttered El with his eyes still closed.
(Song of proof that I'm okay.).
Until the song ended, El opened his eyes looking straight ahead. He removed the earphones from his ears and immediately headed to class to pick up the bag. Upon arrival in class, El's eyes circulate to the rest of his classroom. There was only one student who was still sitting in his chair while reading a book. So focused he was not aware of El's presence there.
"Oh no! can't the MC guy die that fast?" mora said a little strongly with her wide eyes staring at the book she was reading.
El who heard it scrunched his forehead.
"What did he read until his expression was so?" inner El.
El approached him. "Love Scenario" said El read the title on the cover of the girl's book.
"Ehh?" the girl was surprised at El's presence there.
"Gue just wants to grab a bag. Sorry to bother you." said El coldly.
"Oh, it's okay not to bother either" said the girl.
After grabbing the bag, El immediately headed out of the classroom.
"Eh, briefly. Thanks for the drink." said the girl and smiled sweetly.
El who saw that smile instantly turned his face away. For some reason the girl's smile was so sweet and made her blush.
"Yes, equally...Moras. I'm going first." El said a little softly then rushed to leave the classroom.
"It turns out he can also talk softly so even though it is still a bit cold anyway." Mora chuckled inwardly.
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El has arrived at his house. Just a few steps he entered, suddenly his phone rang.
"Hmm, what's wrong?" said El coldly.
"You home yet?" the voice of a man across the phone.
"It's none of your business." said El.
That man is Brayn El's best friend.
"Then what should it be?" ask El coldly.
"Don't be cold like that" said Brayn.
"I've been this way for a long time" said El.
"Where is! You used to be a little warmer El." - Sergeant Brayn.
"Don't talk about the past!" el said it was getting colder and he unconsciously clenched his hand. Then El immediately disconnected his call.
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El standing under the shower. Cooled his head that was starting to heat up earlier because of his best friend. El's past memories were twisted back in his mind. Along with the shower that soaked his face, El shed tears. It has been approximately four years he lived his life which began from wounds that never recovered.
After shedding her grief, El changed into clothes and then walked to the balcony of her room. He took a cigarette and a match. In the sip of the cigarette then exhaled the smoke. He is currently trying to calm himself. On the sidelines of his mind that recalled the past events tucked the shadow of the face of the beautiful girl who some days El feels comfortable being near the girl. However, the pain caused her to be traumatized to start a relationship with any girl. But after all this time El never felt his heart beating when he was with women and when Mora was present somehow his heart rippled.
"I haven't felt this feeling in a long time. Should I start opening my heart?" inner El. "But I hate that it makes me no longer believe in love! I don't want that to happen again!!!" el shouted in his heart.
"I can't get carried away in the feelings of my heart. The heart is the biggest enemy within. He could have given me happiness but he could have been a traitor who gave me love and made me feel disappointed and hurt" El said with teary eyes.
"Come El. Bury the taste of your tribe, do not let you repeat your old mistakes. Believing in your own heart is not good either. Sometimes we have to keep using logic. But in fact the heart has great power to master this self." Inner El.
The struggle between El and his heart which now felt something different to Mora. Is that a feeling of love? If so, somehow at this time El is not ready to accept his own feelings. He admits that he is now interested in Mora. However, can his feelings for Mora end happily? or even worse than the dark events in his past?
Everything El thought made him not know what to do. Honestly, his heart could not if it had to repeat the same pain or even more pain than he had ever felt.
"Eld wounds have not recovered, what would he be if he had to accept the pain again." thought El.
El went back into his room and he laid his body on the bed. Started closing my eyes. Still raging with his heart and mind, until he fell asleep.
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