THE LEGEND OF EDWARD
19. LONG NIGHT, HARUNA'S EXPRESSION OF FEELINGS

In the middle of a quiet night, I woke up listening to the sound of melodious music, whether I did not know the sound of what musical instrument was his name, or not, because it was the first time I heard it, though,

I woke up and looking for where the sound came from, I saw a handsome male figure who was playing a musical instrument under the moonlight decorated with thousands of stars in the sky, the cold night wind like not bothering him to continue to use the musical instrument,

I was silent in the music, the very touching words that came out of his mouth made me drift in my daydream,

I realized that someone who was sitting on a rock and playing a musical instrument was none other than Edward, the person I loved so much,

If I may be honest, this love I feel really torments me, I'm tormented not to have it, to love without being able to have it, to have it,

I can't lie to my feelings, I can't cover up my desire to have her,

It's okay if he doesn't love me, I'm happy enough that I can continue to be with him, even if it's just a friend,

I kept staring at her, imagining herself hugging and kissing me, reciprocating all my feelings to her, hahhh... Really it's all just my feelings and as long as it's just going to be my wishful thinking,

"Edward if you knew how much I love you"

I said in my deepest heart, wishing that I knew my heart, I survived not because I was strong, but I was sure I still had great expectations of myself,

Once thought in my heart, if Edward knew who I was, would he still want to meet me and be my lover or at least be my best friend,

I walked up to Edward, who was sitting on a rock,

"E...Edward... What are you doing..??" Saying a little nervous, I dared myself to say hello,

As soon as Edward saw me, he suddenly stopped playing his music, he turned to me and smiled, what a smile that always made my heart melt,

"Haruna.. You haven't slept..?"

His words questioned me, despite the question that was spele, yet it made me feel very happy, he said,

I've been blinded by love, though,

"Yes.. Edward, I just woke up"

My real words, it's true that I just woke up from my sleep, it's all because I heard a very melodious musical sound played by Edward, Edward said,

"Hmmm.I'm sorry I'm Haruna, because I'm noisy, you're waking up from your sleep"

Saying guilt to me, I can't help but forgive her, I don't have a problem waking up from hearing the music from Edward, I know, instead I feel very happy because I can enjoy a beautiful moment tonight with her,

"Ti. no. No..Edward I don't have a problem"

Said me who was nervous facing her,

"Haruna, don't you get tired of standing there, just sit by me,"

His words offered me to sit next to him, waiting for the moment I was waiting for, I walked closer to him I ventured to sit beside him, my heart beat so fast like a war drum, though,

"Sorry Edward. If you may know what instrument you're playing, right,?"

I said asking about the musical instrument that Edward was playing, well, because I knew very well that Edward would only be silent a thousand languages regardless of who I was next to him,

"Ohh... This, this is his name Guitar, indeed you have never seen this musical instrument..?"

In my mind...

She asked, a very clear question her answer, even her I asked her because I didn't know, but she innocently asked me that kind of thing, hmmm... Is that guy really insensitive, or something, hahhh... I don't know for sure, they thought, 'em,

I immediately replied with just a nod of my head,

"Ohh so you don't know this instrument, it's the name of the guitar, do you like music..?"

Her self asked me about my favorite, the truth is that you are nothing else, my hobby is looking at you even though you never look at me the least,

"Hmmm... I like it, but I can't make any musical instruments,"

I said honestly if there is, indeed I like music but I can not play a musical instrument, not a little bit,

"Ohhh, that's it, well,"

His speech was very short to make the atmosphere become quiet again, I actually hate this kind of situation, but want how else I should restart the conversation between me and her self, he said,

"Edward.. Can I ask..?"

I ventured to start the conversation, though,

"Well, you may ask,"

His words allowed me to ask him, he said,

"Edward.. Do you already have a lover..?"

Actually I was very nervous asking like that, but I really need an answer from her, she said,

"No. no. I don't have a lover yet,"

His words answered my question, really it was the answer that I will be very later, right,

I unconsciously smiled hearing her answer,

"Edward.. honestly... me..?"

I tried to make up my mind, and tried to encourage myself to say all my feelings,

"Well.is there something Haruna..? Are you sleepy..?"

His words interrupted my conversation,

"No, it's not that..!!"

I deny his words, though,

"Then..?"

Said her who was curious about the words I was about to say, I was actually very nervous and embarrassed to express my feelings to her, she said, but really I am very tormented if I do not express all my feelings to him,

"I love you Edward.."

Suddenly the atmosphere became silent as I spoke to express all my feelings to her, the silence between me and her was long enough, plus the silence tonight made me feel a little sad, the night wind blows at me, and, I bowed my head with no power to hold back the sadness because I thought maybe my love was just clapping one hand and maybe I would never be someone special in her heart,

Unknowingly the tears dripping down my cheeks, I tried to stay firm even though my hopes would be futile, though,

I turned my body around and stepped in to leave her alone,

I step my feet despite the weight but for what I remain near him, I am no one for him, I am not someone who fills his heart, he said,

For now I really hope the night wind will hit my body and throw all my feelings to her, and I really hope it rains tonight so that my tears will flow along with the rain that falls wash away all my sorrow, I don't care what I'm going to be like, because my hopes have been wasted,

I can't offend anyone, nor do I know why I love her so much, perhaps because of her nature or maybe because of her looks, what is clear is that I love what it is, I do not violate my feelings, because love is present without realizing it,

If I could throw all my feelings at him, would I live without a smile would be easier for me, as if I could forget everything about him, is life always in tears will be easier for me to live,

I stepped my legs all the way and away from the figure of someone I couldn't possibly get,

As this heart was broken by the hope that would never come true, as this self fell on the verge of despair, I was jolted as this hand was pulled into disrepair by a hand that belonged to no one, no matter who it belonged to, as soon as my body turned back, I could not see who was pulling on me, because it was so fast, I could only fall into his arms,

"Harone... I'm sorry, am I.? I know I've been wrong and made your heart hurt, because of my nature, I'm silent not because I don't love you, I just can't yet..?"

As she hugged me, I knew now who had pulled my arm and made me helplessly fall into her arms,

Tears that had stopped for a moment, now back to drip, as many tears were spilled, as well as a pain in my chest, because the last words he said right,

("I just can't.?)

Thousands of questions came to my mind, I tried to find answers to his words, but still I could not think of him,

I at the end of her asked her, and wanted to know what explanation she would give me,

"Because what..? Hix.. Hix.. Explain to me Edward.. Hix.. Hicks.."

I tried to ask for her explanation even though with sobs and tears that had wet my cheeks, I tried to escape from her embrace,

I stared at his face looking for answers and explanations from his, I couldn't bear to see his handsome face that sadly felt guilty to me,

She held my cheeks with her soft hands, though she was a man, but her hands were smooth, and with them she wiped away the tears that had soaked my cheeks,

"Haruna.I'm sorry I made you cry, to be honest I already know who you are and what family you come from, I know.. and I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth from the start, I just didn't feel like I was worthy of being your lover,"

I, hearing that remark from her, was anxious to hold back my anger, yet I could not, I vented all my vexation to her, smacked her chest a few times while crying and saying, I could not,

"Hiks..Hix..Hix.. Edward I love you so much, Hiks. I don't care about my family status, are you stupid or do you pretend to forget your words that you once said to me..? You once said, you don't discriminate caste, but why. kenpa Edward. if you love me, why don't you want to be my lover.. Hix.. Hix.. Hikss...!!!?"

"Haruna.. forgive me..? Not that I do not love you and do not want to be your lover.Honestly I also love you very much, but not yet his time for us together..? Wait for me, wait for me until I deserve to be with you..?"

He said with confidence I felt a little calm, but I also felt a little depressed, somehow I had to wait, how long I had to wait, all I know is that only time can answer all the turmoil in my heart,

"Edwards... Can you promise..?"

Say to convince the words spoken by him, he said,

With great confidence she answered my questions and made a promise that I will always remember for as long as she,

"Give me 3 minutes to know... I promise I'll be the one who deserves to be with you,"

"Well, I'll wait for your promise, Edward,"

Said me who felt a little calm after hearing his promise,

Edward hugged me very tightly, the cold of the night wind was no longer felt, only the heat of his embrace was what I now felt, I could feel his sincerity to love me, he said, I'm glad that Edward has the same feelings for me,

I tried to look up my head just to see her face, but somehow when I saw her thin lips made me a little tempted to kiss her, I was stunned when he returned my gaze, our eyes met each other, there was a vibration that I could feel whether it was the vibration of love or just the desire that seduced the soul, but the feeling was very comfortable, comfortable in his embrace,

Not feeling our faces as close as possible, I realized it was very embarrassed, but my heart said behind it, yahh, just to just let go of all my love, which has been locked so deeply into her, not because I'm a cheap woman or anything like that, I just want to, like, be, her self knows how deep her love I have for her,

My eyes were closed, when only a few centimetres away my lips met his, but something very unexpected happened,

"Wait.there's something in your eyes,"

His words made me feel surprised, the moment that I hoped would be the most beautiful moment in my life, was destroyed instantly by his words, he said,

One of the fingers of his arm rubbed one corner of my eye, I was treated like that quite a bit disappointed, I felt a little disappointed,

"Bright... It's clean,"

Say it after cleaning the dirt that is on the edge of my eyes,

I was really disappointed in his attitude,

"Hhhmmmpp...!! Edward bod's.."

I haven't had time to finish my words, my lips are exhausted in lu*at by her, at the beginning I was a little jolted when her lips touched mine, but gradually I was overwhelmed and swept away into a desire that would never be imagined by me, he said,

"Harone... I love you so much.."

Those words are what I've been waiting for, never imagined and never thought of by me, the love I've been waiting for will be reciprocated tonight,

I'm always washed in his arms my lips can't stop to keep on smelling*at his lips,

"Hey...!! Haruna.. as good as we go to sleep, because the night is late.."

His words made me stop the actions I did, I really feel very ashamed of my behavior tonight, but I also could not resist the desire of my hidden desires, he said,

"Edward can I sleep with you tonight..?"

I said hesitantly and ashamed of him,

"Haruna.I'm sorry I can't, it's not that I don't want to, I just don't want our relationship to be started by a great sin,"

His words made me realize, what I wanted to do with it was the biggest mistake of my life,

Because of my stupid desire, it makes me have to be silent a thousand languages bowed shy in front of him, well... I've ruined my reputation as a girl in front of the people I love so much,

"Hey.it's okay Haruna, don't be sad like that. Smile, it's not all your fault, honestly. I also want to sleep with you tonight, too, but we can't do that, as long as we haven't been united by marriage, Haruna... Don't let lust rule your heart,"

I who heard his words of advice nodded my head, I am sure I did not choose a man as my future companion,

Edward hugged my body again whatever he wanted I could only surrender in his arms, his self kissed me back but not on my lips, he kissed me right on my forehead, and showed me something,

"Harone... Wear this,"

He said, after he pulled my hand and pinned a ring to my ring finger, waiting for a very happy moment for me,

Tonight is a very happy night for me, a very beautiful moment that I will never forget in my entire life,

"E..Edward, did you propose to me,"

I said a little shyly, though,

"Hehehe.. Haruna, always wear this ring, as a sign that you belong to me for long,"

My heart was beating so hard, my tears were pouring down my cheeks, I was crying not because I was sad, but I was crying for happiness that I could never shatter, when I heard the words from his mouth,

"Dward.."

I couldn't say anything more, because the happiness I was feeling right now really blew me away, stunned, stunned, silent and only able to pronounce her name, my body reflexively hugged Edward tightly, too,

"Harone... Don't cry anymore, let me take you to your tent to sleep, oh. yeah, I forgot to tell you, the ring can be a teleportation device, too, but it can only be used once by me, therefore, use if your situation is in a very desperate condition, how to use it is enough to drain your energy, so, and my shadow is on your side,"

He said after giving me a very useful ring, and telling me how to use it,

"Edward. thanks.."

As I thanked him with all my heart, Edward just nodded his head in reply to all my words,

After her, Edward brought me back to my tent to rest.

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Continues....