
the world is different, very different.but this curse does not change still exist and hurt me every night.I always feel the heat of the burning fire.Mom can only calm me though it does not reduce my pain. I don't fall in love easily because I can only drop my heart on seven men in my life,it is not imagined if there is no limit to me falling in love all men on earth will become extinct.color if we love each other but he is not my true love, he said,then he will die and if until the seventh man I have not found true love I will fail and I will live forever with this curse until the end comes.
I have to be really selective so I don't choose wrongly.
In the corner of the room I lamented my destiny.I never blamed anyone in my life, but I just thought how I could break away from this curse and be able to live a normal life like any other young person.
That afternoon the sky looks unfriendly. looks cloudy will fall rain. Like the sky my heart was shaken.this is my 6th love.but I still feel the loss. and I still haven't found my true love.
"again wi ? mom warned you. You don't want to listen to mom. she's not your true love" she said as if mocked.
"my mother is in mourning.please understand and understand".I said as I wiped the tears on my cheek.
"oh your goddess who from the beginning was wrong, mother not only warned you once but many times but you do not believe instead of arguing that your love is sacred. you're just throwing away that helpless human life, so you better wipe away your tears".mom's orders
"the mother goddess does not feel the pain that you suffer, but the heart of the mother is also slashed to see your pain.mother also wants you to be able to live a normal life and get your happiness. mom warns you because mom loves you son.all is wrong mom.it's wrong mom" said mom crying as if she abused herself for everything that happened to me. I feel more guilty for blowing my heart out of place and in the wrong tone that hurts my feelings.
"mom forgive me, I don't have a crush on your heart, I never blame mom or anyone for what happened to me mom. It's all like this.I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry, I'm just confused.my eyes are getting messed up because of the hundreds of millions of people on this earth there is only one soul mate and I have to find it and must not mistake mother.
"sudalah ma'am., don't cry anymore.cooking has become a ghost is still a crybaby" I told my mother and managed to make mother laugh.
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Today I will move to Jakarta, every twenty years I have to move and change my identity so that no one suspects me because my face has not changed at all.
my face is not beautiful about my appearance is not attractive enough but I have a lot of work experience so all companies always accept me wherever I apply for work.