
Ms. Rosidah smiled, "What exactly does Ms. Thalia want to say?"
Thalia inhaled air to fill her lungs first before speaking, "Eighteen years ago, I made a fatal mistake. The biggest and dumbest mistake I've ever made in my entire life."
Ms. Rosidah nodded without interrupting.
"Maybe it's too late, but at least .. I still have a chance to see Julian. He's my son. I apologize if for eighteen years of being a useless mother to Julian, I've been troubling you in her golden years." Thalia stopped talking again because she couldn't help but cry and feel guilty.
"Me and Julian's father, El Sandi, did not get the blessing of both parents when they were in a love relationship. I was pregnant with Julian."
Thalia wiped her tears before continuing to speak, "I was confused, confused and angry at that moment. Plus Julian's father left me after not getting my blessing. My new career in the world of entertainment really can not think. At that time, my manager suggested that I drop the content. But I did not dare and did not want to pile up sins with other sins. So, I decided to keep Julian's baby in the womb. On the grounds of taking a break from filming, I hid in the apartment until Julian was born."
Silent moment. Ms. Rosidah is still waiting for the confession of a beautiful woman whose face has been soaked by tears.
"Honestly I was heartless and very sad when I let Julian go, but my ego. I asked Mbok Inah to leave Julian at the orphanage. Something I regretted in the end."
"Then why did you come here now, after eighteen years without any news?" mam Rosidah asked gently, trying to understand Thalia's position at that time.
"I'm married to a businessman, Mom! My husband knows I'm still a girl. So ... I didn't tell you that I have Julian! I try to forget the past by starting a new life with my husband. I met Julian at my own home in Jakarta. Without purpose. I had no idea Julian was coming to find his mother."
Thalia's tears flowed back, she stopped talking to catch her breath. "I was shocked when my old photo was shown Julian. I never thought Julian would miss his mother. I feel very guilty. I know, when Julian showed me the picture, I wanted to feel like I was hugging him. But I can't afford it, I just throw it away."
"Why could that be? The reason why you don't want to admit that photo is mom?"
"I. .. don't want my husband to know that I have children before marriage with him. I was afraid he would leave me and Laila. Although in the end ... My husband is gone for good."
Ms. Rosidah took a deep breath, "I am grieving for my mother's husband!"
Mbok Inah strengthened Thalia by rubbing her shoulders, while Bu Rosidah looked at Thalia with condense eyes. He was happy because in the end Julian's hope was fulfilled. A woman has come and acknowledged the whereabouts of her son, Julian.
"Can Julian accept me as his mother, Mom? I ... have been unfair to Julian! I want to make up for all that mistake now."
Ms. Rosidah spoke softly, "I can't answer, Mom! I tried to understand the condition of my mother and Julian. Destiny is strange, sometimes it goes against will. But I am convinced that what has happened in the past is the best story God has chosen for both mother and Julian. I'll call Julian. You can talk to him directly."
Ms. Rosidah walked to the door connecting the living room and the other room, but she was surprised to find Julian standing there. "Julian? You're here, since when?"
Julian smiled at Ms. Rosidah, "Told enough to hear everything, Mother."
Thalia stood up and strengthened her heart, she had to prepare if Julian refused her. It's not impossible that Julian would scold and insult her for abandoning an innocent baby in a small orphanage far from fancy.
Is this the end of my actions, Lord? I had thrown away my son, and ignored him for eighteen years. I hurt Julian by not acknowledging him as a child. I expelled. I hurt her heart. If Julian doesn't accept me as his mother, I can only give up….
"Julian, Laila's mother wants to see you!" said Ms. Rosidah awkwardly.
Julian approached his mother with a faint smile. "Mother Thalia?"
"Julian, mother .. lamented," said Thalia, her face wet again due to the flood of tears.
Julian did not reply, he immediately hugged his biological mother with full of hariu. Putting aside all the disappointment in his heart. Finally after eighteen years, he was able to shed the yearning on his biological mother.
"I'm sorry, Julian!" Thalia clenched Julian tightly, kissing him many times with tears in her eyes.
"I've forgiven you, ever since you admitted your mistakes. Sorry if I eavesdrop on the conversation!"
Thalia did not expect Julian would accept her as a mother so easily, unlike she had imagined. "You must be going through a tough time, Julian. Once again forgive your cruel mother!"
Julian shook his head, he grabbed Thalia's hand and kissed her as a child. "We're both going through a tough time, Mom! I'm sure for eighteen years you've also been haunted by guilt."
Thalia hugged her son full of haru. The two of them had just released a hug as Laila's voice was heard greeting. "So Julian's sister is Laila who says mom's missing?"
"Laila," call Thalia down.
Laila cried and hugged her mother, "Why is Julian's sister Laila, Ma?"
Laila's cry made Julian laugh. "Why am I your brother? You've got a handsome brother like this?"
"It's not like that, brother!" laila replied grimly.
"So why are you crying?"
"I almost like my sister" replied Laila wiping tears. "Thankfully, my mom forbade it. Mama said I'm more suited to be her sister's sister!"
"Unfortunately, you are my sister!" Julian chuckled while embracing Laila. From the beginning he did not put any feelings on Laila. The young girl was indeed beautiful and welcome to him, but Julian's instincts said that he and Laila had an unknown relationship at that time.
And it turns out that the assumption is right, Laila's face that looks like an old photo of hers has explained everything now. They are one mother's sisters.
"Furniture, uh!" laila said grumbling. The reason his mother disagreed with Julian was not because he was just a poor cafe singer. But because Julian is his brother.
Sadness is soon replaced with happiness. The family chatted in the living room with laughter accompanied by Ms. Rosidah and domestic assistant Thalia.
Julian is well aware that what happened in his life lately can not be separated from the system that is fused in his body. In his heart he thanked Mbah Jambrong and all the wealth given to him. Because he planned to buy a luxury house to be occupied with his mother and sister.
"Ma, can I see papa?" julian asked his mother. Awkward because the artist forced her to call mom, like Laila.
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