The Singers
029. Finishing point.

Warning: Suicide//Depression.

Flashback.

The house is noisy because of the cry of a baby. Astrid's mother was crying there while she stayed in her room, shutting herself up. What was destroyed was not only Amira, but her entire family.

Amira approached her sister-in-law who was crying under the bed while her son whined in the bed asking for something. Amira was confused, her Mbak's room was strewn with clothes.

"Mr? Why mom?" Amira approached her Mbak who was bowing his head with a cry.

"Mas Andra, Mi. Andra is gone."

Amira was confused by the answer, "Where to go? Go to the lease, right?"

They have a motorcycle rental that is taken care of by her brother all this time.

His mama shook her head with a hiccup of tears, "For this time motorcycles have been sold, Mi. And the money was taken away with Mas Andra." He said then he came back crying.

Amira was silent, either had to answer let alone. What other trials will he face next? What other painful things would he see?

He must strengthen himself and help his mother calm her son who continues to whine on the crib there.

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That afternoon the house was deserted again because Mother Astrid went home to her parents. Here in this big house. She lives alone with her mother who never left her room. The maids were dismissed when she got the news because she was confused about what to pay for her while she was not yet working.

Amira only holds money from her savings that is nothing to eat. Amira brought a tray of food and a glass of water to take to her mother's room.

The breath to start strong should he face, he began to knock slowly on the door of the room. "Mother? It's Ami. May enter? Ami brought the food in front of the compound."

There was no word from the inside, usually he heard the soft shrill voice of his mother allowing him into the room.

"Mom? Mom's inside, right? Ami just went in, right?" He decided to open the door.

The dark was to describe his mother's room, stuff strewn across the floor because sometimes his mother screamed herself. Her mother was not in the bed or the chair in front of the mirror. Even the mirror has been destroyed.

"Mom?" Call Ami back.

"Here, Ami." The sound came from the balcony of this room.

Amira kept the food in bed and approached the balcony to see what her mother was doing. He widened his eyes even to the point of swallowing his own saliva so surprised and did not know what to say.

His mother was sitting on the balcony. If he falls, he will hit the glass down there because the house has a glass shade on top, in front of the main door.

"Mother? Why's mom? Later jatoh. Come down." Ami was afraid to come closer.

"Ami, I'm not strong. Can you please go? Or come with Mom?" His voice was heavy and weak.

Amira started crying when she promised two days ago she would never cry again. His promise was broken for witnessing his remaining trials.

"Mother, don't go... Ayok. I don't stay with Ami."

"If you come with me." He said without looking back.

"Mother, yes, Ami?"

That instant was also the sound of a blow down there on the cracked glass. Amira's cries screamed again. He cried with a roar to call his mother because he saw the state of his ill-fated mother drenched in blood below.

Is this the last one? If yes, please make it the last one. Ami now has no one. This time all that was left was her mother.

Please God, if this is all a payment for his previous life. Forgive all the sins he has committed. Please don't torture him back with a thousand knives.

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The room was dark, as usual, he turned it off. There's no schedule tonight. There was only him and his room. Waking up in the early hours with irregular breathing, like running a marathon.

His bad dreams come back. Amira immediately sat down and wrapped her head with both hands, frightened. His darkness made him even more afraid, with the rush he turned on the lights. Empty, there was no room. Only her and loneliness always followed her.

The shadow of his mother who committed suicide with the cry of his depression still lingered in his mind, his father's arrest was recorded back in his mind as watching television. The point where the destruction is.

Amira took a glass of water to drink the water on the nightstand, she got out of her bed and sat on the carpet beside her bed. Gendering on her mattress and staring at the glass balcony door, she still remembers where her mother killed herself, there. On a different balcony that makes Amira always feel pain when looking at the balcony, but he still maintains the balcony in the room. To remember his mother.

He opened the drawer that contained the last letter from his father.

Her tears flowed along with the mist in her mind swirling around. He missed his old life. He misses his mother and father. Open it with trembling hands. The paper that contained water spots that had been confirmed was his tears. As he read it he would continue to cry, lamenting its destruction.

2013, Bandung.

Amira, it's Dad. I'm sorry for everything, I did all this because I wanted to make our family happy. You take good care of yourself, Daddy love you. Titip Mom. This is my last letter, once again I'm sorry.

Warm hug Dad.

After that, it was truly the last letter. Because when the letter reached Amira got the news that his father died.

That little set of words could make him claustrophobic in his chest and shatter instantly. Amira could hear his father's voice as he read the letter, his father's quiet voice which usually called out to him when he gave advice, his father's voice when he was scolding him. He misses his father.

There was no trace of anything from his mother. Only a relic of the sound of her crying screams was stored in her mind as well as a picture of her mother dying in front of her.

The sound of the phone ringing broke that painful daydream. Amira immediately took the phone that was on the edge of it.

Alkan called him, this guy is never okay huh? Why does he always bother Ami.

Although disturbed, in fact the finger was not swipe the red button but he immediately pressed the green button which means picking up the phone.

"Hallo?" When the phone was picked up, Amira could hear the sound of the highway indicating this man was outside.

"You want a late night drive? I'm in the area near your house. Who knows you need fresh air." It's like he has a feeling or a 6th sense.

Or is this guy very sensitive? He could tell that Amira really needed air to clear all the unrest in her mind.

"Now. Pick me up."

"Okay, in 3 minutes I'm here. Wait, yeah." He said then the phone was cut off.