The Step Of Destiny From Mother
Episode 11 Dream or Reality ?

PVO Lingling

I don't know what happened because as I remember I fell into a dream but what I saw in front of me was not a dream, strange but real that no one could answer, this raging feeling in my heart made my heart even more thump in fear of the darkness in the endless and enormous space, only I was floating in this vast and endless space.

It's really weird and complicated for the logic in my little brain.

Because there's no one in this dark and spacious room, I panicked and was afraid to start covering me it was clear that I felt from my heart beating very fast than usual - usually from what happened in the past.

Fathering...

Mothers....

the Twins...

uncle..

auntie. ana.

where are you guys ?i'm afraid.

Allah

God, my Lord

Nabiku, my beloved Prophet Muhammad Saw

My mind is raging in this confused and narrow mind no more very complicated things before my eyes now , what is it ??? the big question mark in front of my eyes was clear and the more my curiosity would be my curiosity but the more fear and panic dominated me until the tip of my foot that was floating in the open sea was undulating, calm but washed away until it makes people afraid that will not disappear to the base of the pulse.

Allah, Allah,

Do you not love me ? Increasing to my panic, what if God doesn't love me anymore? will I perish from my world? my mind is confused about my own mind which can kill me the feeling of panic and despair that is running on me now.

Oh God I am afraid... My Lord

Allah

Allah

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....God knows how many times I have spoken the name of my Supreme Lord, I am on the edge for all the feelings I feel right now, making myself curl up in fear of this endless incongruity seemed frightening in my soul that was beginning to sink in because of all kinds of feelings in my heart, for anyone who saw it only once, yes at a glance.

I was terrified this was the first time I felt so deeply left behind that I was locked between life and death.

the fear in me grew bigger and bigger because in this room there was no one in it but me, I don't know how long I've been in it, I don't know and don't understand, the worry inside me grew - so , the constant fear and panic ensued against me not that I didn't know but that I denied it to myself and that there was no one around me, my fear became more and more, and the more I become the one I speak in my heart, the name of my Supreme Lord, Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala, but does Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala not love me? don't love me ? don't like me? missing me? left alone? and there was no one to accompany me, I was afraid, agitated, tense and broken in my feelings - there was nothing in my body that did not panic and tremble, What day is promised ahead ? Is this the Apocalypse? why just me? where are the others? Am I the only one thrown into an uninhabited world? but I was asleep? this dream? quickly awake! Wake up! Waking up from this nightmare I told you, Oh God, but why so long? I was terrified and kept terrified not daring to look! when my eyes want me to close, right now my heart will break and I am almost desperate because of fear and my body will tremble in panic, worry, sadness and all feelings of abandonment become one, she said, when the miracle came to me, I saw the light that shone in the darkness of the room, the speck that had long been the greatest and the most beautiful and great light that he had ever seen in his life.

And at that moment the feelings disappeared and were not left in my body and my heart was about to break, when I had almost lost my mind the only one almost left my rationale I was given the most beautiful view of what was worldly, what was worldly, I watched and saw everything in front of me so clearly that I didn't realize that the light in front of me was stealing all my attention and my body and heart were starting to warm up to the core of my bones and my blood was boiling quickly rather than the lightning that was in the sky when it was going to rain, but I didn't realize that feeling was raging inside me and my body and heart were warming up, an unprecedented feeling for me and the first feeling I felt made me more comfortable than my family and relatives when I was around them.

The light started to enlarge and continued to illuminate the endless vast space around him, the dark space of the octopus is now bright and shining because of its beautiful and dazzling light no one knows, but inside me, she said, lingling was so excited and full of love looking forward where the place became like he was watching a movie that no one in life had ever seen.

The light that was so great and beautiful and beautiful was so marvelous and mighty after that there was a sound that came from that beautiful light, Is He my god? I asked in my deepest little heart.

"Aulia, did you see it?". suddenly a voice I had never heard in the world sounded.

"Huh, Si...who?". instead of answering I asked back to the owner of the voice that I thought was the most beautiful and warm in my heart. But who is Aulia calling??? there is no one here but me! so who is being called?? but I'm not stupid, am I, right?

" Please look at everything that's going to happen in front of you, and then you'll know who I am". The voice did not answer him but ordered him to look back at what he had seen. Though I was still confused by who and why I was called by the name Aulia?

"Alright". without a doubt I answered him with my consent, maybe you'll think me stupid but that doesn't mean anything to me.

I strengthen my heart I will get the answer after this for sure, starting his determination he again saw what happened in front of him, he said, that white light was still spreading throughout all corners of this endless space, this enormous, dark one started to look bright as the light from that center spread its light throughout the space perhaps to an end invisible to me.

After speaking in that voice now I just focus one more time forward to know what will happen next and then I was very surprised at him. could it be that only I would be surprised to see such a miraculous thing in front of me right now? it's a dream or real I can't explain it but I believe if this isn't a lie made by the devil or my subconscious, I believe it was made by Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala!!! now my rationale is starting to grow and go right.

I began to look forward to what was going to happen in front of me, the feeling that I had just disappeared was now just a feeling of curiosity and curiosity about what was happening in front of me, it was like seeing a movie with a very high quality image that I had not seen in the human world on earth.

The beautiful and amazing picture began to slowly be drawn in front of me slowly and beautifully I understood and with a clear voice I understood like my language.

The light grew larger and spread out at exactly the first moment he appeared and began to see another image on his right.