The Temptation of the Desire of the Stepchild
42: RAGE OF RAMA

Nita was awake at night because of the laughter of Moses in the distance. There was something strange, the voice of Moses should have been on the side. He searched where the voice came from and saw Rama sitting leaning against the window while singing quietly. While Moses stood up and jiggled, swinging the doll that had the lamp.

Every time Rama finished the song - the big brother, every time Moses touched Rama's lips, then Rama sang again. Nita closed with a smile. Why does his son wake up at night and play, like no other day.

Rama did not leave. Nita's neck stiffened after lasting for a long time in the same position. Moses' voice was no longer heard. Nita was still in a slanted sleeping position and did not dare to open her eyes, as she felt the movement in front of her.

Nita's whole body was goosebumps, she felt movement behind, it seemed like Rama was lying down. Nita opened her eyes and found Moses sleeping on his back covered in a thin cloth. The child immediately changed position, as if removing the blanket and now tilted to face it. Moses could not sleep in a blanket, even though this room was cold as in a chiler.

Nita felt a warmth that rubbed her back hair, like a facial cross-section. He tried not to tremble, and tried to get rid of his fear because the man's body was not attached, he had to endure.

“I know when you've read my letter. I really want to hear your voice. It's been 39 hours from the last time you spoke to me. Come on, Nita, let out your voice, you broke my heart. I'm not comfortable if you keep ignoring me. Now, no one is going to judge us. Please speak .. "Rama's voice demands, he inhales the strawberry scent of Nita's hair.

Nita held back feeling a warm hand grip on her waist. "Nita is sleeping."

"You've been secretly looking at me. I'm happy." Rama gave a small laugh and immediately peeked at Nita's nape impatiently. "Let's make another sound, or I'll bite you."

Rama propagated further, slipping into the slit of the satin pajamas and groping the stomach with a scratch like a stitch, which Nita immediately held in her hand. Rama felt a squeeze of Nita's hand, she pulled Nita's stomach towards him until they stuck together. "Come, Nita, make a sound."

Nita reflex distanced the neck due to a hot breath that hit the nape of the neck. "You changed Moses' diaper, yesterday?”

Rama formed a strange pattern on Nita's navel with her left hand fingers, feeling the softness of the skin as smooth as velvet. ”Iya yesterday I changed her diaper. Moses woke up yesterday when I wrote the letter, why does the boy always wake up when I'm writing?"

“You know how to change his diaper?”

“I google.” Rama laughed softly near Nita's ears and hid the shame.

Nita laughed lightly while shifting her head to keep her ears away from the mouth of Rama. Rama blows it again and Nita covers the ears. "Moses, rarely awake at night. He's been looking for you all day, maybe he sensed you were coming. You know what he calls you try? ... Papa Rama."

"Ehm ... Papa Rama?" Rama repeated Nita's words, laughing deeply, it felt funny and pleasant to be called papah by Moses. The back of Nita's ear and her heart pounded. "He called me Papa .. and he's been looking for me all day, is that why he woke up when I came?"

"Maybe .... " Nita held Rama's hand on the stomach so as not to venture everywhere. “It seems, I am now dreaming .... "

“Dreams?” rama did not understand. He raised his head and Nita's head was lying on the bed. Rama rested on the elbow, his head above Nita and staring at the golden eyes below.

The atmosphere was silent for five minutes and Rama felt Nita's nails piercing his arm. “If, this is a dream. Do you think this dream is beautiful or a bad dream?”

“What do you want to know, Rama?” Nita smiled lightly.

“If, I find a machine that can scan human feelings, then I try first on you. I want to know the details of how you feel about me and how you feel about the men around you."

Nita smiled defiantly. "Then, what did you do afterwards? Can you also fight against destiny?”

“Destiny can be worked on. What are your plans and papa I don't know?”

The mood was silent again. Rama grabbed Nita's right hand and placed the palm on her right chest. His chest slightly touched Nita's chest, while the other part of the body was prone next to Nita's supine body.

Nita blinked slowly and felt Rama's heartbeat in her hand. “Let me tell you this, my dream is too beautiful to be with you, Rama.”

“Do you want to say something before I go home ?” Rama rubbed his cold cheeks, with anxiety. He pursed his lips and reduced the distance.

“Why?” asked Rama wonder. He kissed Nita's palm blocking the tiny lips from hers.

“Your father will marry me officially.”

“And you rejected it, right?” Rama confidently put away the hand that was blocking them. He came forward and Nita threw her face away, until her lips landed on the woman's right temple.

“You rejected papa, right?” rama asked with a hot throat. His heart is pounding fast. “I don't want you to marry any man, let alone papa. You won't get that hard on me either, Tha?” Rama felt a strong grip on his waist. “YOU REJECTED IT?”

It is more difficult for Nita to tell that harsh reality in front of Rama, because she is afraid of making Rama disappointed and hurt. He has no responsibility to keep Rama feeling, why it is Rama's feelings that he cares about.

A picture of Rama and Sergey, their relationship between son and father. His own love and sacrifice to get Papah back …. It all swirled into one in Nita's mind and made her nauseous.

“I have no other choice.” Nita looked back at Rama. The man sat down and looked down, as if he were thinking.

“No Rama.” Nita sat down next to Rama. “Your father didn't force me. I myself received it.”

Nita's chest ached at every word that came out of her mouth. He looked up as Rama walked towards the dresser and wore a jacket with a hateful look even Rama would not look at him. Nita approached hesitantly when Rama had just finished lifting the jacket zipper.

“You have no feelings for papa. I don't want to hear your bullshit.” Rama slams Nita's shoulders into her chest, and she bows down, splitting Nita's lips with her lips in a swift motion. Sipping the sweet saliva that made Rama even more crazy, his hands held Nita's head and shoulders.

“Have you ever kissed papah?” rama asked hoarsely at the side of their pagutan. Rama let Nita take a breath and the woman shook her head. “You never did ‘more away from hand-in-hand’? Rama found the trousers and innocent look of Nita, he heaved a sigh of relief if Nita had not arrived bercin*ta with her papa. “Then, I'll ask for help grandpa.”

“Do.” Nita took a long breath. He does not want to attract more people into the strange affairs of his family. She just needs to marry Sergey.

“You believe me? Say?”

Nita looked at Rama's eyes as if filled with confidence can fight all the barrier stones. Indeed a man of Rama's age, it is believed Nita, will not know fear because he has never faced something that has a fatal impact, even though life is a bet.

Unlike Sergey, who had to think carefully before acting. Sergey also knows first, the good-bad impact of every decision he makes. Nita does not want to bring others into danger, including Rama.

”Abimasa Rama…. You are very handsome and kind. I believe you will get a beautiful and kind woman. Not like me."

Nita tried to calm down. He smiled bitterly at Rama's nano gaze. ”You should forget about me, then open your eyes to the girl around you. Didn't you hate me at first. Try to remember ... when I damage your favorite bike ... stay that way - you must still hate me.”

“You were wrong, not from there. Furthermore, when I saw you in Starlight's parking lot and you've been distracting me ever since.” Rama kisses her tiny lips and bites hard on Nita's lower lip until she complains. “I won't give up You can only tie that sacred promise with me. Also, you can only kiss me. Don't hold papah's hand anymore, because you'll be mine.”

"Rome .... " Nita clenched her fists in anger. Do I have a choice? No. gabe. I can't lose papah.

However, it seems like how much Nita explained, then Rama still does not know the root of the problem that is facing Nita. "That's impossible, our marriage will continue."

"Now I ask you, do you choose me or papah?"

Rama's question made Nita's heart shake. He must accept the harsh reality. He remembered having strayed far from the plan that had been planned since 5 years ago with his father. Dream of advancing NASA production house company, becoming a larger company, and when the capital is enough, then they will buy the media company that was founded by the grandfather.

The reality is that right now, papah is not with him. At the very least, he wanted to realize his father's dream and make sure his father regrouped, unharmed. He did not want Rama to be a barrier to his family's dreams. Nita gulped down the salivary violently, as if she had inserted a large stone into her throat. "Who do I choose?

CLEAR .... Mas Sergey ...."

Rama pressed his hardened jaw, his hands clenched. "Say it again? Why?"

"Obviously, you see yourself. You're just a drunk, a troublemaker, you like to play women, you like to bet, you don't love your life with racing, moreover, you just make people around you so hard? Ah, all that money from your labor, right?

Yeah, your job's just having fun. Of course, I chose Mas Sergey who was polite and worked hard for his family."

Nita tilted her head and looked at Rama with a smile. However, in his heart he cried, why should his words be that evil to Rama. If that's the only way Rama hates him, then he should do it anyway, right?

"Wr*it! Damit it! It's bullshit." Rama aligned his height and looked deeply into the golden eyes. "You say that, but you yourself don't reject my embrace and don't mind my kiss? While when my papah holds you, you often look uncomfortable."

Nita's aghast. He laughed bitterly. His body suddenly limp because it only realized that Rama had been watching him while he was with Sergey.

"You're too baper, Rama? What if, you're just my entertainment, just like what you did to them. The girls .... who, Shelina ...."

Nita with hot throat. He can't even control what comes out of his mouth. His head was already boiling and angry at himself.

"Why talk about them? You're not jealous, are you? That's your way of taking my mind off our main topic, Nita!"

Rama can't take it anymore, accusations let alone that. She was last like that, two years ago with a woman, and even then only made a vow with Veronica twice, then with Shelina just warming up. Why was it as if he had courted a thousand girls!

Rama took a deep breath, still he exploded and did not accept. "You disappointed me. Liar, I can't let you hurt my papah's feelings, because it's for me, not for papah!"

Rama's loud cry shocked Moses. The innocent child began to cry. Rama bit his lower lip so upset that the shrill cry of Moses made his head want to break. However, she was still here, waiting for Nita to answer, but Nita ignored her with a cold face.

The man left the room with a wounded heart, also filled with grudges. It did not last long, after he went down the stairs, the bull-like gaze instantly dimmed. He became helpless and unable to get angry, so remembered Nita who was carrying Moses with a chaotic and confused face.

Rama wants to get angry why Nita doesn't count on him. Why did the woman choose to bother herself. He feels that Nita is hiding something from him, but does not know what. It's sad, he feels like a useless man. Or maybe Papah has threatened Nita.