The War In Solitude
Chapters 13. I'll Go too

Seoul, March 18, 2020

One by one Lucas delivered Yuki Dana Seli, After finishing delivering them both Lucas immediately brought Aoki home, Arriving at the house Lucas told Aoki to rest for a while in his room

Lucas also made a warm tea to calm Aoki who had just lost his daughter

"Here pack his warm tea in a drink first" Lucas immediately helps Aoki get up from the bed and tells him to sit down

"Thank you for the tea"

After drinking the tea, Aoki asks Lucas what family means to him

"I want to ask you something"

"What does family mean to you?" Continue Aoki while asking questions related to family

Lucas was surprised by the question Aoki asked himself, He also had confusion but quickly Lucas could answer it

"Hmm for me family is where we put our heart to someone we love, that is to say we should be able to determine who our heart is to who it is,nor is he one blood but when we love him he is our family, as I already consider the father to be my family" Lucas replied

"I just can't accept all this, When I lost my wife, I just thought about my wife without knowing how the condition of the Princess at school, how, I'm a useless old man and I don't care for my family" Aoki once again feels guilty for his family and he can't forgive that mistake

"Everyone must have made a mistake even if it was small or big, I understand the feelings of the father but please stop blaming yourself, sir, you can go through this all"

Lucas held Aoki's calf and was quick to make food in the kitchen

"I went to the kitchen and I wanted to make breakfast"

"Yes please"

On the way to the kitchen Lucas saw a photo of Aoki, Seren, and the Princess fitting Princess still in SD, Lucas was very proud of Aoki being able to raise the Princess well, One day Lucas will be like Aoki who always looks after his family from near and far

As Lucas cooks, he listens to an ambulance coming to his house, and Lucas makes sure it's the ambulance carrying the Princess' body

"That's like an ambulance sound yeah, try ah I'm out to make sure it's really an ambulance from the Princess hospital in the hospital not"

It turns out that it was an ambulance carrying the Princess' body, Soon Lucas helped to bring the Princess' body into the house, Until inside Aoki out of the room

Seeing the body of the Princess had reached Aoki immediately ran and hugged the body of his child again while not believing if this all happened, the nurses who brought the Princess to return to the hospital

The Princess' burial plan was exhausted ashar and when their dzuhur invited guests to pray for the Princess only because here the Korean state mostly embraced Christianity and Catholicism not many Muslims, not many Muslims, So few people sholled the bodies

After Lucas made breakfast, Aoki and Lucas ate and soon they will have many guests, automatically Aoki should not be seen limp in front of the people who will pray for the Princess

The clock has shown at 11:45, One by one People come and encourage Aoki to continue to live life strongly

No time has shown at 14:30 Aoki and Lucas will perform Ashar prayers and then go to the cemetery to bury the body of the child

In the midst of the busyness of Aoki, he receives a guest friend of the Princess to come again to accompany the Princess at the last moment, Yuki and Seli want to accompany the Princess when later on in the grave

"Sir we meet again, I'm the same Yuki wants to accompany the father to bring the Princess to the final rest" said Seli to Aoki, Yuki was only speechless and unable to speak while looking at the corpse of the Princess who was covered in a shroud

"Thank you for helping me, I also thank you for protecting and loving my son"

"We are just ordinary people who need other people to love ourselves"

Aoki sees the two girls are very limp and very exhausted while helping him in the hospital overnight, Aoki tells them to go to the kitchen to eat

"You guys are so lemes, haven't eaten yet?" Ask Aoki

"Yes, we were at home just left the money with the parents" Seli replied

"How are you, Yuki?" Ask Aoki again to Yuki and just daydream while bowing his face

"Sama" That's all that came out of Yuki's mouth

"Yes, you've gone in and into the kitchen there is Lucas"

"Thank you sir, we're sorry it's been a hassle"

"Whoever you kayak to" When the Princess is no Aoki never smiles, But this time he smiles for the first time again

Aoki and Lucas immediately prepared for Ashar prayers and performed the funeral prayer for the Princess

Yuki who saw the worship was very moved and made him cry to see the Princess who will soon be in the grave

Finished sholling the Princess, Aoki and Lucas rushed the Princess to the funeral, On the way Aoki just daydreamed while carrying the child's coffin, and the child's, Arriving at the funeral they all attended the funeral of the Princess and when it was finished in the tomb of Aoki and the whole people sprinkled the Princess's grave with flowers, Yuki san Seli prayed with their respective beliefs

All relatives, Friends, Sodara, all crying for the departure of the Princess

It was getting dark and everyone was starting to disperse, Yuki and Seli thanked Aoki for allowing him to participate in the burial of his best friend

"Thank you very much, you're willing to let us come"

"I also thank you both"

"Keep strong, sir, we will always pray for the best for your family"

"Thank you so much for everything" Aoki told the two of them

Yuki and Seli leave Aoki, It's night Aoki tells Lucas to return home and rest, Aoki asks Lucas for permission not to come to the office tomorrow, and Lucas confirms it

"Well from the night you go home, enough rest.. oh yes tomorrow I ask permission not to enter the office"

"Well sir, I will take care of everything in the office, Take care of your father Well, sir, I say back home assalamualaikum"

"Waallaikumsallam" Aoki closed the door and immediately took a shower and rested

After taking a bath Aoki went straight to sleep, When all this happened and now Aoki had nothing else he was crying on the bed while squeezing the bedsheet he was wearing, In this despair Aoki thought of ending his life, He was ready to accept as bad a risk as anything in the afterlife, Aoki thinks that living in this world has no one but when he dies he can see Seren and the Princess in the afterlife

(THE NEXT DAY)

In Lucas' office told Aoki that he was not working today because of his current situation, Lucas was very concerned about Aoki's current state

(DAY 2 AOKI DOES NOT LEAVE )

Lucas asked all the employees who were working during the day, Did they see Aoki

"Who's seen the boss today?" Lucas asked all the employees

"No sir, we haven't seen it since morning"

Lucas began to think strangely but he should be able to focus on his work, Lucas as much as possible think Positive

"Maybe Aoki today took another day off, I'm right he had to take a lot of holidays first and not think about work in the office" Lucas said

"I hope tomorrow he comes in" Lucas continued in his mind

(DAY 3 AOKI DOES NOT LEAVE )

"Oh God this child where the hell has not entered as well, Emang actually need a break but not until 3 days as well, Where no news from him"

"Working later I will go to his house just see how he is" continued Lucas

(Focusing on Aoki in the house )

"Today I will end my own life, I must be strong and must be brave"

It was night Lucas who had finished working immediately to Aoki's house to check his circumstances, When he arrived at Aoki Lucas' house immediately entered, he saw the state of the house was very messy, he saw the state of the house, Lucas looks for Aoki in the corner of the room but doesn't see him either

Lucas was so shocked when he was on the roof, he found Aoki standing at the end of the wall just as the Princess did when she wanted to kill herself, Lucas thinks this is the same as what Princess did when she killed herself

"Sir what you're doing......."

His words Aoki faced towards Lucas and said something that made Lucas shocked

"I'll pick up my family" That's what Aoki told Lucas before killing himself

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