Time Hallway
chapter 20 - Calming

Bagas hugged Anya from behind, smelling Anya's calm and distinctive body odor.

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"Why are your lips so pawed?" Tanya Bagas noticed the look on Anya's face.

"No." Anya walked towards the bathroom.

Brushing teeth and showering. Bagas waited for Anya in front of the bathroom door.

"Aggghhhh.. sir surprised me!" Shouted Anya.

"Hmm why are you?"

"No."

"It's so long."

"Why didn't you knock him and tell me to come out?"

"It." Answer Bagas lie.

"But there's no sound."

"Why does it have to focus." Answer Bagas, go inside.

"Hmmm.."

After Bagas finished the bath. Bagas invites Anya to take a walk and enjoy the city of Bali together.

"Em sir!" Call Anya smile sweetly.

"Hmm?"

"Master wants to know something no?" Ask Anya smiling.

"Yes?"

"When I was 7 years old. I always wanted to go to Bali beach, vacation with my father, mother and sister." Clearly Anya lowered her head.

"Then?"

"But all desires are destroyed. When I was 8." Anya continued moody.

"Why?"

"Both of my parents fought a lot. Unlike the usual fight, even they often fight and do violence with each other, in front of me." Said glazed.

"After that, what happened?" Tanya Bagas started to worry.

"I always forbid them to fight. Especially when in front of me. My brother was 13 years old at the time. Of course, he hasn't gone to school yet. She doesn't know much, because my sister tends to be introverted." Obviously Anya.

"Did it all traumatize you?"

"of course. I think, after all these years. It's been more than 10 years. I'll be fine."

"But everything is the same. Still sick, and growing. The more I see the harmony of others with his father, and his complete family. It makes me cramped." Sobbed.

Bagas took Anya sitting, by the beach. In the chair that was blocked with the lush trees.

"You can go on with all your stories!"

"Hiks.. I want everything back to how it was. I know, my family is very simple and well-off."

"In spite of that, I want them to come back. But everything is gone. When I was 10 years old. I got word, if my dad got married again. With a two-child widow."

"I want to close my eyes and ears. I'm not ready for that bad news. And worse, after a year they were together."

"They have a daughter. And you know, what he said. Who still hurts me?" Anya.

"What?"

Bagas hugged Anya warmly.

"Of all that, there are things I regret most and are sick that cannot be treated." Anya let go of her embrace and looked up at the sky.

"What?"

"That's when I turned 16. My mother told me that I was not the desired child. I have been defeated and failed. Hicks.." Clearly Anya covered her cries with both her hands.

Bagas was surprised, and hugged Anya.

"Mothers often say a lot of hurtful things. Like, I'm his burden. I was an unwanted child. He wants to kill me." Obviously Anya.

"And a lot of harsh words. Not only that, when I was a kid. I often received punches and harsh tortures from him. I often run away and hide."

"When uwa I haven't died. I also often stay at home without saying goodbye. But now there is no more escape." Complain Anya.

"When I was a kid, I used to cry alone in my room hugging my father's picture. Sometimes I call and complain to him. But after my father got married. I stopped that habit."

"sickness. It hurts so much that I don't feel alive and not dead." Continue withstanding tightness.

"Take everything out Angel! Say everything!" Said Bagas stroking his head.

"When father and mother sell to entertainment. I slept alone and hugged their clothes. That way I feel their presence."

"Sometimes, I sell with them. Although I had to sleep in a narrow and hot stove cabinet. But I miss all that. Than loneliness like this, and our communication is lacking."

"I don't believe that when you say I was aborted it is real. But a few months from that."

"When my sister and I went for a walk with my dad. Suddenly I said the same thing. Even though she said to go to the doctor and be given medicine. But he doesn't want to drink."

"He refused to take it and threw the drug in the toilet. Because it's dad's wish."

"Mother said that, because I often defended my father. Because I tend to be close to my father. While the sister, tend to be close to the mother."

"But my father said the same thing. Dad said I was once aborted to a child shaman. But, it didn't work. And I didn't ask the reason. Of course they must blame each other."

"I don't trust them, because they are cruel. They don't think I'm the kid who should have died. Although, many of your words and actions lead to it."

"Did all this calm you down?" Ask Soft Bagas.

"Yes. Of course, I am calmer and more grateful. They told me the fact that I was not a wanted child and had ever been aborted." Anya answered.

"But my mother always said I was the child she wanted. But why did he do that?" Ask Anya.

"I'm not a bastard.." Said Anya crying so much.

Bagas hugged Anya tightly. "Angel, listen to me. Everything's gonna be fine. All the pain you feel. Even in the beginning your parents knew you existed. They want to hurt you."

"And so many other things hurt you, too, after birth. Until now, all of that will be gone. With the happiness you will find in the front, at the end of the hallway that you passed all this time." Say Bagas calms Anya.

"There must be a beautiful light that welcomes. Time will take you to that point. Believe it.." Continue Bagas.

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Anya and Bagas for a few days in Bali 💚