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I went for my sanity

Uwa Risma is gone because of her actions. If Uwa Risma hadn't saved Lexi from hitting the car, it would have been Lex who would have died there, but it seemed better than him to continue to be blamed by Kahfa.

From the time he was in the hospital until now, in the middle of his funeral. Kahfa looks very blame Lexi, from the words that exploded while in the hospital, until now still ringing in Lexi's ears.

Kimmy's mother and Ridwan's father try to calm her down, telling her that this is an ultimate act of God, but frankly it doesn't help Lexi at all.

Lexi still hopes Kahfa will forgive her.

Kahfa kept quiet and tried to avoid it. Ignoring Lexi, even though Lexi had repeatedly apologized to her husband, Kahfa's heart was as hard as steel. Kahfa even always brushed off the hand of Lexi who was trying to reach out and wanted to talk to her. Kahfa said that by ignoring Lexi, the woman was able to realize the mistake and hardship that led to her death.

A week had passed between the mourning and regret Lexi felt depressed over Kahfa's sikaf. Even the man had never slept in their room again since the departure of uwa Risma.

God has not given him any suffering.

When Kahfa returned to his room to pick up clothes, Lexi approached Kahfa, who was picking clothes in front of an open closet.

Lexi hugged Kahfa from behind herself sobbing softly between her husband's wide back, she apologized for the negligence and stubbornness that violated Kahfa's orders. But the man smashed into Lexi's hand violently, and passed without saying anything.

Once again Lexi lost her way, it hurt more than anything.

Lexi knows she's guilty. But should Kahfa act up like this?

Lexi tries to talk to Kimmy's mother, pleads guilty and asks that her in-laws apologize to Kahfa, Lexi hopes Kahfa will listen to her mother. Remembering her husband always obeyed Kimmy's mother's words.

Kimmy loves Lexi very much and already thinks of her as his own daughter. Actually even though Lexi didn't ask her to persuade Kahfa. Kimmy often asks Kahfa to stop his anger. But Kahfa was deaf, and still ignored Lexi.

Too bad Kahfa still ignored him.

As Zayn wept in the middle of Kahfa picking up an item in his room. Whether Zayn really misses the figure of Kahfa as his father or indeed Zayn is fussy because of the atmosphere of his Mama's heart is bad.

This is the height of his pain. Lexi realizes that Zayn is not the man's son, but still his heart as a mother is injured when her husband also ignores his son who is not involved with his mistakes.

Lexi hopes that Kahfi can see all of this wherever he is. No one can love a baby more sincerely than his father and mother.

Lexi lets her son cry trying to see and judge if Kahfa will weaken just because of the sound of Zayn crying. But it looks like Kahfa was indeed not affected at all. The man continued his activity of choosing documents on the sofa chair.

Kahfa did not seem to care about Zayn's cry that sounded as hiccuping. And this succeeded in burning every patient that Lexi felt, yes Lexi had to rise for the sake of her son.

Before leaving, Kahfa says something that further hurts Lexi's feelings and aggravates her wound.

Do not know if Kahfa also hurt and feel lost and even feel guilty, he also regretted, then what he should with his punishment.

"You're telling me to leave?" Lexi tried to ask in a trembling voice reaching for the baby she had let cry on her bed.

Kahfa was silent, momentarily glancing at Zayn who was crying in his mother's arms. Lexi looked tired to calm the baby down. But Kahfa's ego is still on the surface so reluctant to get close, even though her little heart misses her baby so much.

Before Kahfa left her room, Lexi stood up first. Lexi carries her baby out of Kahfa's room, on Lexi's doorstep, chattering.

"Let's go. Let the owner of this room be able to calm down." the chatter is not loud, but still can be heard by Kahfa very clearly.

Lexi no longer cried she took the baby out to Kahfi's room and locked it from the inside. Lexi's been trying to stem the tears and this time she's gonna spill it all here, in this place. Mute witness to every cruelty God would have for his life.

Which is more painful when a woman is lost many times, also blamed. It hurts so much, Lexi breastfed her baby with tears that even made her eyes barely visible.

Zayn was crying more because his mother was crying, it seemed that the baby was very understanding of the situation of his mother. Zayn did not want to suckle again even the baby looked very tired and fell asleep by itself leaving a small hiccup between his sleep.

"Cup-cup, mother's son don't cry. We'll go yes. Your father has prepared a good place for us."

"Your father cares about us. We don't need to cape-cape working hard to live a good life. Your father seems to have been able to predict what will happen in our lives." Lexi peeped at her son's head. Yes he needs to pull over from the people he knows.

Lexi couldn't stand being in that house anymore, it seemed like she had to leave now. Luckily, Kahfi had already prepared several houses on Lexi's behalf. Other possessions outside of his family name. Kahfi is a mature future planner for his wife and children.

Lexi carries the important papers that she puts in the safe, as well as the savings that Kahfi has provided for her and her baby.

Lexi also removed the kahfi portrait from the frame above the nightstand.

"You see! No one can love me as well as you." Lexi hugged the photo and put it in her bag, complete with important papers and some cash. Don't forget Lexi brought all the jewels she had.

Instead of living out there so hard Lexi needs a planner and enough funds to start a new life.

Lexi was carrying only one large bag containing her treasures. A cloth she used to hold Zayn, as well as a baby blanket she used to warm her son's body. The cell phone he used to order a taxi online, besides Lexi didn't bring anything else.

It's like a lexi burglar settles, to get out of that house. It's eleven o'clock at night Lexi's gone.

Lexi's tear fell through her father and mother-in-law's room. He slowly brushed the door of the room. "Mom, I thank you for loving me and my son. May you always be happy." Lexi leaves with new wounds and hopes from the house.

Lexi walked gontai leaving the boarding school that nearly two years gave her a tasteful and varied life.

Lexi promised to remain a Muslim even if she did not live in the cabin. Every now and then Lexi looks back inside the taxi that started taking her away leaving behind all the memories.

Lexi smiled with tears coming back. "Mas Kahfi, thank you for giving Zayn to keep me company so I have a reason to stay. I'm sorry, because I'm no longer running your will, I hope you understand. I'm leaving for my sanity." Lexi kissed her son's forehead that was sleeping on his lap.