Vita Nova
Episode 19 "Memory of the Soul"

***flashback

"I will stay for 2 months" he said without guilt,

"Are you a bum who doesn't have a house?!" deny Lucas nagging, then they fight again before going to sleep,

I sighed because I was tired of their similarly stubborn attitude,

'Geez, what's the fate of this family if these two dust grains don't stop fighting***'

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Episode 19's

The atmosphere of the house has become more crowded since Kak Ken stayed overnight. Brother Lucas always quarrel with him only because of trivial problems.But, I often see Brother Lucas smiling when fighting with Brother Ken, it makes me a little relieved, because since returning from the War, I have always seen Kak Lucas smile,Big Brother had never been seen smiling in the slightest and was busy with his affairs as the Head of the Family.

"Cool" I murmured, feeling the cold night in the park even though the snow was still falling while walking the night road because I could not sleep,

"Lily, why don't you come in?" Ask Ken who came from behind,

"Sir Ken, I just can't sleep so just want to walk the night" I replied,

"But not for too long, you can get a fever" said Kak Ken while wearing his jacket to me,

"Thank you, brother, I'll be in soon" I said,

"Well then you will, I will accompany you until you want to enter" he replied,

"All right" I said,

"Oh yeah Lily, I want to make sure of something. I heard you were engaged to Levi huh?" ask Ken, brother,

"Levi?ah, what's Ian's brother?" ask me back,

"I probably called her Levi when we met at the Port of Flopia 7 years ago" said Ken,

'Calling him to Levi is like meeting Husbu anime' I thought

"Yeah, it was a few months ago" I replied,

"Is it so.." muttered Brother Ken,

"What's wrong??" I'm curious, though,

"It's okay, it's just that I felt something was wrong with her when I met her a few days ago" she replied,

"Have you met him?where's the?" my tofu, my,

"When I went to Duke Ricardo, I met him in the opposite direction, which means he was just from there" Kak Ken explained somewhat suspiciously,

"Maybe there's some business with Mr. Duke, they're supporting each other" I said so that brother wouldn't be so bad to Ian,

"It seems so, but still my gut feeling is bad" said the brother,

"Forget it, brother, just go in, the longer it's getting colder" asked me and went in first ,

"Hey Lily! wait for me, you little boy!" said Ken from behind chasing me,

/Skip in Lily's room/

I dropped my body on the bed and closed my eyes while thinking about what Ken said,

"I don't want to be so bad to Ian, but why am I so doubtful" I murmured.Over time, unknowingly, I fell into a deep sleep.

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I opened my eyes slowly, and felt my very light body.

"Where is this?." I muttered after opening my eyes,

What I saw in front of my eyes surprised me, the figure of a long-haired girl in Black and brown eyes, she was me in her previous life..

"Huh?.this is me" I said in front of the mirror that displays my current figure, while feeling the feel of the face and making sure this is reality or not,

"Where is this?" I muttered asking alone while looking at the entire room filled with white lily flowers,

"How does it feel?" the voice of a woman asked me, I looked back, a white-haired woman, blue eyes with a blank look and wearing a bright light blue dress on her knees adorned with white roses, which was none other than Lily.

"L-lily?" I stammered, though,

As soon as the room turned black, the Lily flower that was once white turned black with a blood red pistil, and the,

"I asked.how did it feel to be me all this time? any fun? it seems like you are enjoying your life with my body now" said the real Lily in a cold and piercing tone,

"It's not like that!I don't know how to get into your body.Because I remember, I was hit dead.." I explained, I,

"It seems you're right but.are you happy to have entered my body?" lily asked clearly and pressed down, her gaze was extremely cold and sharp,

"You took everything from me.. Dad, Mom, Brother, Rina, even Levian!!you took everything that was supposed to be mine! Popularities..Dignity..The love that should be mine..You took everything!!!it's all mine!!!" lily said, which sounded very tormented,

"Yes right.it's all yours.I have nothing.only a poor child born into a harmonious family for 10 years.and 13 years into a miserable child..nothing is right in my life!!once he got lucky..I WILL USE IT WELL WITHOUT REGRET!!" I said emotion while crying to Lily. Lily looked at me in great surprise,

"If only I hadn't entered your body, I would have been happy with my Mom and Dad up there. I could have met them again..I can hug them like I used to..If only you hadn't died of poison..I will definitely be with them again..ALL THIS IS MY FAULT!I SHOULDN'T BE ALIVE, SHOULD I?!SAY YES!!I CAN NO LONGER LIVE A MISERABLE LIFE LIKE I USED TO!" I continued with heightened emotions,

"If you're angry because I took your body, I'm sorry...It should have been from the beginning that I was not born.I was just an ordinary child expecting affection.I don't even remember the face.or the voice of my own father or mother..long ago I wanted to die leaving this world.at least let me live a quiet life.my life is meaningless.I'm just an ordinary child who expects affection and love.." I continued with a forced smile while crying more,

"I don't understand what you're feeling, forgive me" she said, crying behind a bangs covering her face,

"Eh?.", uh?..",

"From the beginning I was too naive.If I had understood their affection, I would not have wasted them." she said, wiping away her tears,

Then, the Lily flower turned back to white, the room was back to how it was,

"Lilly?" my mummy confirmed Lily,

"Thank you Cika.karna your story is.I understand the difference of living with a thirst for affection and living by wasting existing affection.." said Lily while smiling at me, smiling at me,

He approached me and held my hands tightly together,

"Sika, I leave my two brothers to you, watch them replace me, I love them both very much." he said with a smile with tears still wet his cheeks, he said,

"All right, I'll do it for you" I assured him, telling him,

"Thank you very much" he said, which sounded very sincere,

"I hope we can meet again" I said,

"We can meet when you dream, so we'll meet every night" he said,

"oh so" I said confusedly and looked foolish,

"Huhu, take good care of yourself" said Lily,

"Of course" I said,

"Then, see you next time" he said, releasing his grasp and waving his hand,

When I opened my eyes, the ceiling of the room that was familiar to me was clearly visible. My room was already filled with light from the morning sun, and my room's windows were dewy due to the cold temperature,

"A very real dream, it seems real indeed.I feel guilty to Lily" I muttered while looking at the outside window.About a long time later, someone knocked on my room door,

"Lily, this is Brother" Lucas said from outside the room,

"Come on, brother" I said, then Brother Lucas entered with an unpredictable expression,

"What's up, brother?" I was astonished,

"Where's your servant?" asked my sister to come up to me and sit next to the bed,

"Yesterday he said he was going home for a while before I woke up, his mother's condition worsened" I said,

"I'm not sure." said Lucas,

"Why??" I'm confused, though,

"I asked a kstaria to follow him because he left at dawn, and the knight just came back and said that Rina went to Duke Ricardo" Lucas said seriously,

"Maybe his mother worked there, and he took his place" I tried to convince him,

"If it is like that, he should work in one region with his mother" said the suspicious brother with Rina,

"Here you are, Brother, maybe his mother can not stand the cold temperatures in our region" I said,

"Right as well" said Big Brother, starting to calm down,

"Emm, Lily, do you know Duchess Ricardo?" ask Brother,

"No, the color he never showed himself even in noble associations" I said,

"Nobody knows her figure, even I who is a follower of Duke Ricardo never saw the Duchess" said Ken who arrived to arrive,

"Sister Ken/Ken" said Lucas and I at the same time,

"Many say that the Duchess has a chronic disease that makes it difficult to move the body, he said he was like that since his daughter was born" said Kak Ken,

"Daughter??" my tofu, my,

"True, I met him once, but he wore a hood to cover his hair, so I just saw his blood-red eyes look like those of Duke Ricardo" Ken said,

"Rina also has red eyes, but there is no way that Rina is the child of Duke Ricardo" I said,

"It seems so" said Brother Lucas and Brother Ken simultaneously,

"Pfft, you guys.Come out I want to take a shower and have breakfast with you" I said,

"Alright, hurry up" said Brother Lucas then went out with Kak Ken,

Before reaching the door, the chief servant came to deliver a message,

"Excuse me Mr and Miss, I would like to convey a message from Young Master Levian who just arrived" said the Chief Maid,

"Hurry up" said Lucas,

"He asked Miss Lily to come to the Grand Duchy Darvin tomorrow,

"Why did it arrive?" my tofu, my,

"I don't know Miss, Master said urgent business" said the butler,

'What's it that's arrived? I don't feel good'

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