
I've been in hospital for three weeks,
argo and sister Gina take turns to keep me in the hospital,
I'm getting tired of staying in the hospital,
ventured to ask when I could go home to the nurse who always checks the small hose next to me every day.
"sister, when can I go home ?"..
I occasionally glanced at the clock.
"miss, before the doctor says go home, I can't allow you to go home yet, so my job here is just to look after you."
the sister's voice with her smile.
"well when I'm tired of being here, then when did the doctor come here ? I want to talk".
my forced tone to the sister.
not a few minutes to talk about the doctor,
the doctor opened the door and greeted me.
"hallo vivina, have you improved ?"
the doctor's voice shifted my world, and,
the doctor was said to be young about twenty years old, I who at that time was sixteen years old, smiled bashfully at the doctor, who was,
his doctor is handsome, who can't melt seeing his smile.
the doctor approached me, and smiled at me who was unconscious from the daydream,
the doctor grabbed my shoulder to stop my daydreams and smiles.
"vivina are you okay ?"
doctor xio asked.
I who was still daydreaming finally woke up, with a shy smile while sitting down a little.
can not be denied when every man who approached me except argo, surely my nose nose nose nose..
"it's a shame" my little heart murmured when it realized blood was coming out of my nose.
fortunately, the hose in my nose was removed this morning.
the doctor, who realized I was bleeding immediately without further ado, told me to lie down and he worried and examined me.
I just smiled awkwardly, occasionally glancing at the nurse who had been watching the two of us, with a thin smile and her hands covering her mouth.
finished checking the xio doctor asked again.
"do you often have nosebleeds ?".
he also asked astonishment.
I just shook my head, and responded that I was fine, a little awkwardly I ventured to answer, in a slightly quiet voice.
"maybe the ac in this room is too cold doc, I can't stand the cold and every cold I'll definitely get a nosebleed" I lied to the doctor a little.
the doctor smiled at me, and then he just wiped my nosebleed with a cotton swab,
"deg deg deg" the sound of my heart beating was very tight..
because basically the doctor's hands and face were close to mine,I only bowed my head once in a while stroking my chest holding my heartbeat which every time the xio doctor's eyes dined on me with his smile.
behind the door, Argo opened the door, then approached me.
"sister vina why, why is there cotton in the nose of sister vina, and this is blood ? vina's blood ? vina kumat again ?"
many questions asked by Argo,
the doctor stood up and calmed my sister.
"argo yes ? your brother is fine, it's just a small nosebleed, he said he can't stand the cold so he's a nosebleed", doctor xio spoke.
I was just an awkward smile at Argo, nor was Argo astonished .
"since when sak vina can't stand the cold, instead every night he always turns on his ac until it's cold because of the hot reason in his room.
argo began to understand it and began to realize the strangeness of his brother, and began to look at me with a smile.
I who at that time already knew the direction of his mind, immediately blinked my eyes, dab told him to be silent with a gesture of forefinger on my lips.
"please don't speak that will shame me argo".my little heart speaks.
a few minutes later, the doctor and nurse came out,
argo, who could not help his laughter, was now framed in the chair beside my bed.
"hahaha kak vina, the nosebleed of the cold hahah, the great liar hahah".
I put my arm around the argo and covered her mouth with my hand.
"ihhh argo laugh you don't be loud, doctor xio will come here again"
with that shameful look on my face,
I also slapped argo's shoulder so that he would shut up quickly.
"aww brother akht ihh"whimpered argo on me, with his hands holding his shoulders, his,
"eat her laugh slowly, if doctor xio to know if I nosebleed because too looked at her, my self-esteem dropped drastically.
argo also just laughed a little seeing my childishness radiated.
***
behind the door it turns out that doctor xio heard my words and argo, he said,
he just smiled and shook his head.
"ohh so because he looked at every man he would come out with nosebleeds,
this girl is so unique".slowly muttered she spoke, smiling once in a while.
the doctor walked away again, leaving us,
from a distance kak gina also approached doctor xio.
"doctor, just a second;!"
sister gina greeted doctor xio.
"does there anything I can help you with ?".
xio asked back.
"emm so gini doc, I'm the brother of the patient who is currently the doctor, vivina it, I gina, nanyain nau ..how long does vivina have to be treated here ?".
xio's doctor also invited kak gina to his room.they were there telling me about my condition.
***
"tok tok tok" door sounds.
"who is it, don't-don't doctor xio again ".
argo scared me too, though,
I was worried about pretending to be calm
"where possible, open up who knows my friend".
I diluted my anxiety by having Argo open the door.
after the argo is near the door and opens the door,
looks somber face kak gina with a little sadness, and a forced smile.
I who saw in my bed was astonished, especially Argo asking about kam gina looks gloomy.
sister Gina also brought argo out first,
I who had felt the awkwardness of braving myself to stand, but what power my right leg can not stand firmly, but,.
I also began to realize that the injury that had my thigh password was too severe.
I began to shed tears, tears that began to fall and a reddened nose holding back tears could not be contained anymore.
I was crying and sobbing.
sometimes there are hiccups in my throat.
"so this is what kept me here for so long, and the moodiness of sister Gina when she saw me, why does it have to be like this".
I asked in my heart too.
sura the door was open to look argo and kak gina who looked anxious to see me sitting on the edge of my bed, too,
come close.
argo hugged me from the side as well as sister Gina.
"vivina I'm sorry, sister, wrong sister maybe if you don't help me, you won't be like this "sadness voice coming out of my sister's lips.
I just turned my head and held tightly to the hand of sister Gina who had been hugging me from the side.
"it's not my fault, I just want to help my brother, maybe this has become the destiny of God".I also strengthen myself and sister gina with my resignation at that time.
argo stroked my hair from behind, once he kissed my forehead and calmed me down.
the two of them were always by my side at all times,
until I got out of the hospital.
"sister vina, I'm not using wheels from here to the house".
said Argo who had returned a little cheerful.
"iyaa vina, I'll push this wheel from behind, let's not cape when turning the wheel later".
kak gina's reciprocity continues argo's speech.
I can only smile and say yes.
after packing the clothes in the small closet and put them in the bag, we continued our journey out.
I who had been watching the people in front of me, looking for that one figure did not find it.
sister Gina who had noticed the motion of my eyes, answered my every thought.
"you're looking for doctor xio, aren't you,?doctor Xio there is only him again in the surgery room he said he left a greeting for you, and one more thing maybe in the near future he will also visit our house".
gina's smile on me.
I could only look over and smile awkwardly at the words of sister Gina.
then we continued our journey after being in the lobby, the cargo called the taxi driver, and the taxi approached us and we entered the car and we left the hospital.
**
arriving at home, I was taken to the room by kak gina with a wheel, and,
then Argo carried me to the bed that was neat at that time.
I also rest ,
argo and sister Gina came back out after putting me to sleep.
after they came out, I opened my eyes.
my cries broke, I was like an undead that could do nothing.
now my steps are also blocked.
and my dreams are dashed, too,
I couldn't sleep all night because of the pain in my thighs and hips.
regret for regret always comes to me.
I always say when this is over.
day by day I walk on wheels only,
there is no freedom in me, no freedom in me,
and some days I'm always in my room and I don't want to go out because of my limitations.
I also always try to practice in my room, but every time I practice I must fall.
I always try to be strong and strong in the face of everything.
until where my desperate decision was present again, I wanted to feel like I killed myself .
but I undo the intention because of the existence of argo who always take care of me and look after me.
and the spirit was present again, after Argo always tried to comfort me.
whatever he did he always wanted me to keep smiling.
I decided to stay just for my brother,
my savings gradually dwindled, the color of our needs was too much.
not to mention the cost of my check-up once a week,
pocket money for argo, and daily necessities at home.
and the money is not enough to cover our needs.
I was looking for ideas so that our needs could be met, so at that time I decided to open a small cake order around my complex only al the results of many people who like my cake.
the capital I borrowed from Kak gina, finally can meet all our needs.
and my order is now spilling online out of town.