Wife Artist's Deposits
the pain when I had to let go

Doctor Surya exhaled several times to reduce his anxiety and fear. With heavy steps he walked over to a woman who was sitting alone on a park bench. The woman looked agitated as she rubbed both her hands. As if hiding nervousness.

"Honey's been around for a long time?" surya's doctor's breath felt cold at the end of his mouth due to the sound of his heart that was not because of. His feelings begin to feel bad, contain panic but he controls as normal as possible.

Mey turned her head to look at the doctor with a smile but her smile was not perfect because it was filled with guilt when she had not revealed it "not long ago" she replied short.

The doctor sat down next to Mey while looking at the face of the woman who always disturbed her dream.

"Tumben you called first, what's wrong? is there anything missing in our wedding?" he pleads in his heart. Hopefully it is true that there is less, he will fulfill as much as anything and drag whatever the sequence of the origin of the marriage took place.

Mey shut up and then said "sorry!"

Doctor Surya pinched his lips deeply. If you're sorry you know the end, right? surely the ending is not pleasant to hear and he does not want to hear, he wants everything to be as good as it was a few days ago.

"I'm really sorry, it turns out I can't leave her" Mey closed her eyes. He felt guilty for the man next to him for destroying his hopes and for making himself hurt.

The doctor was fixated he wanted his hearing to be deaf, his eyes unable to see and his heart so blind. So that this feeling doesn't stab him too deep.

He saw the woman next to him who was also unable to see her face. Mey was still down with her fingers linked together.

"I love you Mey, long before you knew and more than you expected, I'm not ashamed of the invitation that's been spread, but what I'm not strong about is this sense of Mey, even I can't afford to hate you"

"You shouldn't love me"

"Who knows Mey, I don't want to either. But what about this heart that can't afford to lie and now that you've come to me not to love you, you know what Mey feels like? it hurts so much like pulling out my veins one by one"

"I'm really sorry" Mey's voice sounded weak like a gust of wind but the effect was overwhelming "please forgive me"

"You don't want to, willingly or unwillingly in the end I have to give up too, one thing you should know Mey, if one day you come again looking for me, I'll always be there for you, I'll wait"

Mey rolled her face looking at the man next to her while shaking "no! nein! he and I promised they wouldn't be like before"

"If you never come is also okay, I will let the taste rot by itself, even though it does not feel easy but I have to live, right? if you want to go, go don't take guilt! I'm used to wounds, you don't worry about me"

Mey stood up from her seat trying to see her interlocutor but then she leaned again because she could not see the face, full of wounds. Mey also did not want to think in the next life will meet with the doctor because the end will be the same. He was sure of his decision.

"Don't worry about me, go after what you want and get what you want, I love you unconditionally and also have to let go of you unconditionally"

"May gods like you get women who are also angelic-hearted"

If Mey knew, this would be enough. He did not want angels and did not want any women. All hope depends on it but it's gone.

"Don't forget to be happy, tomorrow-tomorrow if we meet with me, I beg you to treat me, not as an ex not to be married but as a friend" doctor Surya smiled, bitter.

Mey nodded then went to the car that had been waiting for her.

After Mey left. Doctor Surya exhaled a lethargic breath, his strength suddenly drained away. He opened his glasses and rubbed his face. For the second time he was injured because of women but the worst was because of Mey because of her love for the woman. It took him a lot of time to recover his heart from when.

For a moment he looked up at the white clouds that were floating up there until the water in the eye was gone and fell back inside.

***

Vino saw horror at his great boss who relentlessly threw arrows on the dard board in front of him even though every shot was always missed. The boss threw it with emotion. Next to him are many cans of soft drinks that have been empty, exhausted in drinking. Even occasionally he threw the can forward out of annoyance.

They were in the backyard of the mansion. Hugo sat on a chair and Vino ran back and forth because of Hugo's orders.

"Already boss, yeay again sick, not forced again" Vino tried to stop Hugo who continued to throw with turmoil.

"Why didn't Mey let me go with her? he's serious, isn't he?" Hugo continued to throw arrows in annoyance. After it ran out, Vino ran to collect all the arrows and return them to Hugo as quickly as possible.

"Kan nyai has said, boss just wait here, boss again sick, he will solve the problem with the doctor so boss patient ya"

"I can still accompany him"

"Maybe eloped,..."

BRAK!!

"What did you say?" Hugo pushed the table next to him violently until all the canned drinks were scattered on the grass.

"Eyke didn't say anything boss" Vino closed his mouth. He was afraid in the rampage of his boss who if emotions can be floundering.

"I should have come with him to see the doctor, I couldn't let him go alone" Hugo grabbed his crutches and rushed to leave but then his steps stopped seeing Mey coming closer. Her emotions that were peaking were gone somewhere as soon as she saw that face. The face that used to be not so much care about him and busy playing friendly with his fellow artists. Like Mey used to be a absorbent tire that is used in case of emergency. But now karma is coming to him. He can't live without Mey.

People say that the pebble in your eyes can be a diamond in the eyes of others. So do not waste her because after you there are still many others who want it.

And after realizing what was thrown away was very valuable it will take an extra fight to reclaim it.

"You've been a long time" Hugo said to Mey because he felt that Mey was long gone until he couldn't wait. Worry always haunts him.

"Why are you here? wasn't it inside?'

"I'm bored"

"Just take a break to get better" he helped Hugo to sit on the chair back. Mey saw many bottles of fizzy drinks strewn about "you drink this much?"

"Yes" not Hugo who answered but Vino "boss fearless in living nyai"

Mey looked at Hugo sharply but the man looked back at Mey with a frown "You're done with him right?"

Mey nodded.

Hugo exhaled, relieved.

"Thank you" he said then "thank you for not leaving me"