
POV SABILLA
Right now I'm sitting in a bedroom bed at a night club. I no longer think about self-esteem, my self-esteem has been sold with nominal rupiah, which I will use for the treatment of my sister.
To me my sister is everything, they are my most precious treasure, if I have to sacrifice my life. I am willing to keep them happy.
I have felt enough of my parents' love. But they, they still need the affection of parents.
So I have to make them feel like they still have parents. I want my sister to hang on to me, tell me her grievances. I don't want them to feel alone, with a life of stress because our happy lives are turned into grief.
I was determined to make my sister a successful person, as long as I was breathing I would try until my last drop of sweat. For the sake of my twin sister, I will have a more decent life than the one we are living now.
I looked at myself, I really was like a paid woman. What??.. Not like!!. I am now a paid woman. I laughed as if I was happy, but it was strange why my tears were dripping on their own. Ah, it seems like I'm a little crazy, maybe not like it either but it's true that I've gone crazy.
Cleks!..
Tap tap tap tap.
The door opened and I heard footsteps approaching me. I didn't see his face because I was sitting behind him.
He kept getting closer to me. Until he finally stood before me, yes I bowed I did not dare to look at the man's face.
I felt him holding my chin, and snapping a little so that he could see my face, now I saw his face as well as her, as we saw each other.
But it was weird that I thought I was going to sleep with an old Om-om. Like the old bandot. But this is very handsome, why look for a paid woman I'm sure no need to pay anyone willing to sleep with her.
But that's the guy I'm not, I feel weird about myself my heart is like a beat, do you see this dappled nose om-om my heart is so dak duk.
"Are you ready?" ask that Om to me.
"He'um" I nodded.
My heart can no longer condition, I'm afraid. I wanted to stop but suddenly my sister's face came over me, I re-enforced my resolve.
"Come" said Om.
"Where is Om" I asked confused.
"Ke Hotel" he answered.
"Om can't just be here" I asked to make an offer, because the sooner the better. Daffi must be waiting for me at Nita's house with Mirna's mother. While Daffa I leave it to the Nurse who takes care of him.
"Em it looks like you're impatient" said the Om.
"Who's your name??" ask him.
"Vanya Om" I answered briefly, he just cuddled.
"Let's go fast" Om said to me.
"Where's Om??" ask me innocently. Though it was clear what his purpose in this room was with me, how stupid of me.
For a moment he was silent looking at my face, I did not understand what he was thinking. His face was so unpredictable, he probably laughed at me.
He got closer to me, I started shaking, my body started freezing, I was scared. Mother help me, don't let my sacrifice go to waste. Even though I realize my goal is right, my way is wrong.
"Why" she asked me.
It raised next to its brow listening to my answer. It's up to him whatever he thinks about me, the important thing is, get the quick money home, my inner self.
"It seems like you're really getting impatient huh" she said sensually in my ear, I goosebumps, because she was biting me slowly.
I lay there, I rebuked when he entered me, I really could no longer stem my grief. I didn't think I'd actually be a paid woman.
After about two hours of fighting between the male and female on the bed. Finally finished as well, he collapsed and fell asleep on the bed,.
With a limp body and trembling body, I got out of bed, and put on my clothes that were strewn on the floor.
After all I was wearing I started walking towards the door. Actually I couldn't walk but I had to see my brother in the hospital to see how he was.
And I also had to call Daffi who was at Buk Mirna's house, make sure he didn't have to wait for me to come home because I was going to stay at the hospital.
"Mi "I saw Mami passing in front of the room that I was in.
"Yes dear " replied Mommy
"Mi Vanya came home yes" I said
"Yes but you go home so that among Mami's drivers it's two o'clock at night, you want to go to the hospital to see your sister" said Mami.
"Yes Mi" I replied.
Now that I'm in the car, I'm in pain down there, but I keep trying if I'm okay.
I felt weird about the driver, he was always looking at me through the rearview mirror, I felt like there was something.
"Ehem" I cleared my throat like he knew I knew he was looking at me.
"How much did you dance last night" she asked me.
Huuf! I took a rough breath.
I heard that question, I ended up actually being a paid woman. I don't want to look weak in his eyes. I was afraid that if I pointed to my fear, he would do something to harm me.
"Em one night 50 million mas" I answered
"Waw is expensive too" he said
I smiled bitterly, I had to be strong, I had to try to be strong and not show my fear.
"You have self-esteem, "I replied lightly.
"Have self-esteem?" ask the driver?.. Going back to me it seems like he doesn't understand what I mean.
"Who said the woman that night had no pride" I said.
"You mean" he's still confused to want me to clarify my words.
"Who said the woman that night had no self-esteem, the proof of one night paid 50 million, than the one who did not have self-esteem but already many who sleep in love free, free, abis in bedin at home anyway" I explained as clearly as the driver.
The driver was silent and it seemed like he was thinking about my words, it was better than him to keep talking to me. Especially to the point of doing indecent deeds to me, I better give him a thought.