Wife To Alan
Make Peace with the Past

🌹VOTEEE YEEE KALIEEN🌹

Alan was still unable to get in, he was outside the room trying to persuade his wife. "Myan? I can clear it."

There was no sound there, he believed his wife was crying. Alan leaned his head against the door, hoping his wife would open it.

"Miss…"

In fact Inanti ignored, which made Alan choose to explain from there. "I was wrong, Nan. Yes I'm evil, I don't think of you, think of the twins."

There Inanti cried in silence while hugging Nadia. Moreover, the words of Alan increasingly make his chest feel tight.

"I'm so wrong, so mean, I have no heart. And I'm a mrsel, Nan. I hate the old me, I sinned just as you are our son. I br*have ever had a mind that far. But there's nothing I can do, Nan."

There he is, the obstacle for Alan to reconcile with himself is his past itself. Alan hates himself, he has not been able to make peace with himself, with the past he made.

"You talk to me, you want me how. I'll definitely find out what you want, just don't tell me to go, Nan. I can't…."

Inanti cried there hearing her husband's raucous voice holding something back. As loud as Inanti cried, screamed, her past could not change. The pain will remain, and continue to overshadow it.

"Nobody can repeat time, Inanti. Therefore love me a chance, give me a way to atone for all my sins, Nan."

Until finally there was a voice from within, "I want to be alone, Mas."

Alan nodded from out there, choosing to go into his study. There Alan grabbed his own hair, he hit the mirror there until it cracked and his hand bled.

Alan's face was deathly pale, all the negative thoughts about Inanti and Nadia that would leave him haunting.

Alan called Madelle there.

"Assalamualaikum, Mah?"

Madelle who was there was aware, her son was in deep trouble. His breath even sounded different. "Waalaikum salam. Brother why?"

And Alan starts telling me everything about his past, which dares to propose to Vanessa. Alan also recounts the existence of Vanessa who is now in the Netherlands and is married. Alan's voice grew increasingly gulping withstanding the outburst of emotion, he regretted everything.

"What to do, Mah?"

Madelle was silent, she herself was confused. 

"Did you have a spare key? Can you come in the room?"

"Don't, Bang. Let Inanti be alone first. Give him time."

"Abang is afraid Inanti will go."

"Abang prayed with God, so that Inanti did not go. You know how good Inanti is, she just needs time now."

"What to do, Mah?"

"Closing down his past doesn't mean hiding. But before, read the contents. What Vanessa's brother once did, never planned. So that Inanti is not surprised anymore if someone says something."

"What if Inanti goes, Mah?"

"Honest first, Brother. Peace be with the past, same with yourself. God willing, our intentions are good. God is all-seeing, he will love the way to His servant. You believe that, don't you?"

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Until midnight, Inanti was still reluctant to open the door. He stayed in the room with Nadia while hugging her.

Her little baby is asleep, very peaceful.

It's the reason Inanti doesn't want to ask about Vanessa, she's afraid that all the facts hurt her. But all of that will come in fact.

Inanti took a deep breath, she put Nadia to bed. "Just a minute, De. Mama wants to wudhu first."

For the umpteenth time, Inanti again berwudhu to calm down. 

"Assalamualaikum, Mah?"

"Waalaikum greetings, son. Why?"

"Yes... has it been horrified by Mas Alan?"

Madelle nodded there. "Yes, Mama is horrified. Last time I told Mamah, ask for a solution."

"How do you think?"

"What, Son? You what's your brother?"

"Here?" Inanti asked withstanding the tears. "What's this supposed to be, Mah?"

"Gini, Mamah wants her. If Abang emanhakin you, mending tell Abang to go away from your life."

Inanti. "No, Alan is good."

"Well, that's the bad past, right?"

Inanti.

"Face together, Nan. If you face your own past, it is uprooted by the pain. No one strengthens each other, clasping hands to create a family of sakinah, mawadah and warahmah in the future."

She cried there.

"Mad not bela Abang, he is very wrong already evil with you. That's what makes Abang can't be at peace with himself, his past is dark, Nan. He needs your courage to face it."

"Within…." Inanti sniffled as she was about to say something. "It's fear…."

"Fear why? Her past? The past is no reason to make you fall, Nan. They are a reason for you to be happy. Ask Alan anything, his affection, his money, his attention. Don't make the past a ruin. You are the same brother again adem before, friendly, spoiled spoiled. Will it disappear or increase?"

Inanti remained silent.

"You said it yourself, son. Don't just sincerely let go of your pain, but also sincerely accept your husband's past."

Inanti nodded while holding back a sob. "This is good, Mah."

"Udah, don't cry anymore. If you're each gini, the problem won't be solved."

Inanti nodded, she ended her call with Madelle. 

His hand wiped the tears that were dripping. Inanti took a deep breath to get out.

He cannot be selfish.

When he came out, Inanti did not get any more rings or letters on the table. 

And that's when Alan walked out of his study. Their gazes met, until finally Inanti who withered first. "Sorry, Mom."

Alan came closer, he took his wife into his arms.

"Sorry, Mom."

Alan shook his head, repeatedly kissing the top of his wife's head. 

Inanti saw the wound on Alan's hand earlier. He realized he shouldn't have let Alan be alone and went back to war with himself.

"I won't leave you" Inanti said.

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