ZENA
Faris

It was late at night but Andel did not come out of the room at all, even Faris had repeatedly called Andel.

Tomorrow is the day of Drita's funeral but Andel shows no sign of leaving the room.

"Ndel, you ga laper?" said Faris while knocking on Andel's door slowly.

"Semilan was still a lot," answered Andel a little snuff because from earlier Faris did not stop knocking on the door of his room.

"Lo ain't going to the funeral?" faris asked, looking at Andel's closed door.

After a while finally the door to Andel's room opened showing the annoyed face of Andel.

"Lo don't see what time it is? Lo from earlier disturb keep why the hell Ris?" andel looked at Faris in annoyance.

"Gue can't sleep because you think about it" Faris replied honestly.

"Gue isn't going to kill himself" Andel replied staring at Faris sharply.

"That's not what I mean, I'm staying in your room tonight?" Faris looked at Andel full of hope.

"Jaudah there take a blanket with a mattress to relax you sleep under," said Andel back in his room.

Finally Faris entered Andel's room with all his equipment.

Drita's case was not brought to trial because Papa Drita did not want to, and decided to take everything into consideration.

However, Mama Drita has not mengikhlaskan Drita's departure completely, while Rangga just silence without interest to open his mouth to just enter the food.

"Lo.. is it okay?" asked Faris looking at Andel who was busy playing mobile phone.

"What's better? I don't have a boyfriend" Andel replied, shaking his head.

"This morning's problem" Faris reminded Andel.

"Oh that, I don't know, I'm not sure, my heart hurts," replied Andel slowly, starting to take a proper seat to look at Faris.

"Would you come to her funeral tomorrow?" asked Faris looking at Andel carefully.

"Gue isn't strong enough to meet him yet" Andel replied in a slow breath.

"When you want to see him take me," said Faris staring at Andel.

"Lo why all of a sudden good? I'm not comfortable" Andel said laughing.

"Gue is good lo ledek," Faris looked at Andel annoyed.

"Gue seriously, where can you guide me? You used to pass in front of me rich people do not know" explained Andel.

"Have you? I'm less able to express my concerns" Faris said honestly.

"Oh," replied Andel briefly who was able to make Faris look at Andel annoyed.

"May Mama come in?" the voice was able to make Andel and Faris stop from hateful staring.

"Ga may," answered Andel quickly.

"If you can't talk here, can you? In front of the door?" mama Andel looked at Andel and Faris.

"Ga" answered Andel quickly cut off the words that had not yet come out of Faris' mouth.

Faris looked at Andel annoyed, at least let Mama explain what purpose she came here for.

"By the way Ma is but, sorry Ma don't have to come in," replied Faris looking at her Mama.

"Ga papa really, Mama just wanted to talk for a moment," then berbuki Faris except Andel who has been busy himself.

"Nwel! Horror!" faris was upset, throwing her pillow over Andel's face.

Finally with a heavy heart Andel stopped the activity of 'let's twirling home mobile'.

"Mama's sorry" said Mama staring at Andel and Faris.

"Make what? No need," answered Andel briefly.

"You mean?" Wonderful Mama Andel staring at Andel.

"Too many mistakes that do not need to apologize, save it yourself so it's savings," replied Andel who was able to make his mother speechless.

"Ndel, you can't be rich. He's the one who's worried about you" said Faris trying to control Andel's emotions.

"He who is worried? He is also the one who digelantarin me," added Andel who is currently starting to provoke emotions.

"Udah Ndel, can't be rich gini," Faris stood up and sat down beside Andel stroking Andel's shoulders gently.

"Well, tomorrow we say, Andel still slumped if forced words that should not come out later," said Faris smilingly looking at his mother who was given a nod by his mother.

After feeling that Andel was quite calm, Faris patted Andel's shoulder slowly.

"Don't get rich gini, don't make Mama feel sad. Anyway, she's still Mama lo, who's worried about you even though you were born in the same birth aunt but she still loves you,"

"Mama all this time it's been very difficult, don't you wonder how hard he faced the piercing words from you right? He's just as rich, you cry,"

"He's an angel whom God entrusted to take care of you, don't you hurt him with the words lo, you love him right?" Faris looked at Andel who was silent.

"Ga knows," replied Andel annoyed, who was presented with a gentle elusan on the head by Faris.

"Gue knows, you must love Mama. Can right? Want Mama again if Mama apologizes? Can right? Same again? Nolongin Mama's in pain because of Papa?" ask Faris who was only kept quiet by Andel.

"Ndel, answer me," said Faris again patted softly Andel's head.

"Gue can't, my hate is too big for him sorry, you don't love it, right? So the stranger in this house? So the person who always envies every other child sees picked up or in the same parent,"

"Even my heart aches every time I see someone who happily laughs with his mom, joking together, walking together. I'm envious to see it's all Ris,"

"Gue was too sad when walking alone when everyone else in the school with a wave and a smile puffed up from their parents" Andel said with tears in his eyes.

"Gue knows it now you can get it, would you apologize Mama right?" faris looked at Andel with hope.

"Gue will think first," said Andel then sleep on his back to Faris who had breathed resignedly.

He knows how difficult the last 16 years have been without the support that Mama should have played.

Even Faris often saw Andel shed tears when he got home or when sitting alone in the back garden.

Faris' heart ached at the sight of it all, seeing how devastated Andel was with his solitude.

In fact, through a random painting Andel that he accidentally put in the corner of the room he can feel all the feelings of disappointment Andel there.

Andel could not voice his opinion, he could only cursing and let out a heartbreaking remark to convey his disappointment.

"Ndel, don't hate Mama" said Faris last, then he went to sleep, to the dream world looking for the best for a while.

Faris just hope everything goes according to his will, Mama and Andel reconcile only he is happy enough.

Hopefully when Faris wakes up tomorrow, everything gets better and everything is fixed.

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"Nwel! Conscious!" said Faris taut while patting Andel's cheek.

After that Andel's eyes opened, his face was covered in sweat.

"Lo why? Can you get rich gini? What dreams?" faris asked in succession looking at Andel worriedly.

Andel only shook his head in response, he could not remember what had happened in his dream.

"Ndel, your hands are bleeding!" faris shouted in surprise while looking for red medicine in Andel's room.

"Gue ga papa Ris," said Andel staring at Faris who had ruffled his room.

The wound on Andel's hand was like in an iris with razor blades and fresh blood coming out of it.

"What kind of papa?! It was your bloody hand," Faris said then drew closer to Andel after getting the red medicine he was looking for.

Andel just stared blankly at his left hand, why would he get this wound in a dream?

What the hell is going on? She only remembered the face of Miss Trinity in her dreams. Why is there a Miss Trinity?

What does all this mean?

"Ris, can I stay by myself?" have Andel look at the weak Faris.

"Lo's sure?" said Faris staring at fretful Andel.

Andel just nodded and patted Faris gently on the shoulder, trying to convince Faris he would not make such terrible things.

Then Faris opted out, giving Andel a little room to himself and daydream.

Sometimes all the problems that we can do to relieve him crying or maybe it can also be silent, even though the important problem is not resolved the heart becomes a little calm.

After Faris left, Andel's eyes began to tear pain from his hands just now felt.

It hurt so much, as if his hand was about to be cut off by small incisions.

Andel cried so badly, his heart was sore considering the fact his best friend had left.

And the dream he had was with these piercing little wounds.

All Andel spilled through tears that are rarely shed lately.

After a long period of crying, Andel fell asleep and returned to the dream world, Mama Andel who heard the cry felt his heart pierced by thousands of knives

Faris who was standing in front of the door of Andel's room just silent, actually holding back tears so as not to fall down.

Very, very sad to hear the sobbing cries of Andel plus words that pierced the heart.

'Sorry I drit' or 'I should be the one to die'.

Faris looked at her mother who was already crying while closing her mouth so that the sobbing was not heard by anyone.

Finally Faris came closer and hugged her mother.

"Mama see? The suffering that Andel endured all this time? Her best friend died and she had to let go of it all,"

"And Drita was the only one who knew him all along, who had helped him all along. Faris pity look Andel,"

"Faris can not handle Andel nangis rich that Ma, a lot of which he bears himself, his heart was difficult to knock Mah,"

"Seeing he was talking slowly and Faris had made Faris sick," said Faris hugging his mother.

While Mama Faris just continued to cry hearing Faris' words describing Andel.

"Sorry Mama Ris, Mama has mistaken Andel," isak Mama Faris in Faris' arms.

"Faris can not nolongin Mama, it all depends Andel, if he is forced psychic he will be very depressed Ma," replied Faris unraveled his embrace.

Mama Faris nodded then knocked on Andel's door slowly, because there was no answer Mama chose to open the door was small.

"Andel!" yell mama hard.

Andel who was surprised also dropped the razor blade that had been in his hand. Faris immediately approached Andel then stepped on a razor blade and hugged Andel.

"Don't be rich in gini" said Faris holding back his tears.

"AFTER I RIS, I WANT TO SUE DRITA, SHE TOLD ME TO COME WITH HER! I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ALONE, RIS!" andel shouted uncontrollably.

"Don't get rich gini, aware of Ndel," said Faris who had begun to shed tears, why did Andel think there?

"Don't stay with me, I love you. Don't think about committing suicide" Faris said.

"Gue's wrong Ris, can't take care of Drita. I should have stayed with him because he didn't miss him Ris, didn't involve him in this matter. I shouldn't have invited him to the Magazine Exchulle" Andel said in Faris's arms.

"Gue's a killer? I don't live, do I? I keep nahusahin lo, I make Mama, Papa and Kak Rangga sad because Drita ninggalin them,"

"Bad caveat to Ris? Should I be the one who died? Not Drita," Andel's successive questions were able to stab Faris and Mama's heart pecking at Andel's bedroom door.

"Lo ain't evil, you ain't no murderer, it's all fate, stop beating yourself up" Faris replied, calming Andel down.

"Gue ga papa Ris if I die, there will be no sad but, Drita many love him Ris, much attention is the same as him,"

"Ndel, I love you. Don't get rich in gini," Faris stroked Andel's head.

"Andel," the voice was able to make Andel look at the source of the sound.

Andel looked at his Mama full of hatred, was his Mama happy to see him almost commit suicide like this?

"What's? You're happy aren't you? I almost died, didn't I?!" andel shouted at his mother hating.

"It's not so dear, Mama loves you. Sorry Mama has been staring at you all this time," explained Mama Andel staring at Andel full of tears.

"OUT!" yelling Andel then pulled Faris and Mama out of his room and closed the door and locked it.

He was so not okay, even he was very surprised by the fact he almost killed himself.

It's all moving on its own, some control it, he doesn't like this.

Andel cried again by shouting loudly, throwing whatever was near him.

Who wants to kill him! Who is that man! He hates this, hates all this.

A little more, if her mother had not shouted earlier, she had already left the world and had drita covered.

"Drit, don't get rich gini. I'm sorry to make you go but, I still love Faris," Andel ragged crying on the floor in front of the glass.

"Don't kill me" Andel said, not knowing to whom, Andel's eyes kept staring at the glass.

There was no one, only the reflection of his wet face and red eyes.

"Lo doesn't know how tired I am" Andel continued to stare at the glass that bounced itself hatefully.

"If you don't know anything better shut up! I hate those rich, know-how-seeking demons! And here you stop controlling me!"

Faris who remained standing in front of the door of Andel's room felt something strange, with whom Andel spoke?