"Mas Bri"
Thinks
" I don't know, I don't know myself. Let's just wait, so I chatted him to let him know Win's condition. You take care of it here first, I pack the goods for a few days here" ordered P'Singto
" well phi, I'll take care of him as best I can"
" thank you Krish" while leaving P'Krish
" why can't he be contacted at a time like this, if you know you're going to be wasted I'd better defend you Win. Just be careful that until he wastes you, I won't let you get hurt" Krist said
<-> Win
There have been 1 week more mas Bri can not be contacted, once he can only reply to chat and it was short. I don't want to be overly suspicious, I'm sure he can take care of his heart, too. Maybe he was busy so there was no time to tell me as usual. Previously I also got a statement of love from P'Krist shortly after I was with mas Bri, I rejected it subtly and I also explained that I was in a relationship with Mas Bri. Disappointed.clearly disappointed all this time he was so considerate with me, he who always comforted me. Especially after the departure of Mas Bri to London he was also the one who took care of me, caring and loving. But I don't want to give him hope, I always avoid him I'm afraid he's hurt deeper.
2months I have been waiting for Mas Bri, but over time we are getting further and further. I gave him news every day, asked him what he was doing there and vice versa. But he answered as necessary without asking me here. I wanted to follow him there, but I was also confused where I would go there later, whereas I never once went out of the country. Working in the city alone is already amazing for me. I just want the clarity of this relationship, if it can't be expected anymore I'd better step down.
I'm gonna get away from her life, I'm gonna get as far away. And set my life back with my mother. I'm tormented if it's like this, my prayers never break for him, but if destiny says otherwise I'm sincerely living it.
<-> hospital
"I'm confused now where I am, as I was in the office. Why did I suddenly sleep in bed" I murmured
Simultaneously P'Krist entered after from the cafeteria buying some food
" Win you're conscious" while running small
" why me?" ask me
" you passed out, me and Phi Singto brought you here" sitting down and putting food on the side table
" oohhhh" while holding a dizzy head.
" do you not remember? does it still hurt Win? " ask her
" aahhh, I don't remember phi at all, which I remember my head suddenly - suddenly dizzy and my stomach hurts. Yes, it's still a little dizzy" I replied
" Win answered phi honestly huh, do you have a problem?" tannya
" what's the matter phi, I don't have a problem with who" I lied
" are you sure Win? if you need a friend to tell you I'm ready to win, I'll accompany you whenever you need" while holding my hand
I pull my hand slowly, I'm not comfortable with the treatment. Not that I don't like it, but I don't want to hurt Bri, and I don't want to give him hope
" if so now you eat first yes, after this the doctor will come to check your condition" while preparing a meal
" yes phi" actually I'm a bit awkward just with her because I promise the same mas Bri that I should not be too close to her. But no way could I refuse his help. And he took care of me so well
Every day I think about it, I don't want people to know what I'm going through right now. I kept it to myself. I want to go home and hug my mom, tell her a lot and cry on her lap. Wait for my chest to feel tight and tormented. I'd rather feel the pain of being stabbed than being away from him and without any news.
Maybe after I recover I'll take my leave and go home to my mom, or I'll catch up with her there. I'll think about it later after I get better. Money,, about money I have thought carefully - mature I will not use the black card given mas Bri, it's just me use for the needs of his house only. I'll use my savings, it'll be enough to get there. I'll find out where he lives now.
" but if I go there and meet him later, will he be angry? Or even meet the unexpected" ahh I'm so confused now. I'd better ask mommy first when I'm allowed to go home.
after eating I finished P'Krist came out for a while because there was a call from someone, and a while after that the doctor came to check on me
" your condition has begun to improve, but still have to keep the diet do not like late and do not stress it can affect your health Met" said the doctor
" well doc, thanks. When can I go home?" much
" tomorrow you can go home"
" really, thank you doctor" while shaking the doctor's hand
after I finished checking, the doctor came out, and along with P'Krist came in
" what did the doctor say ?" ask her
" i can go home tomorrow" I replied
" all right, let me take care of the administration. O yes win I need a moment, I live alone no papa right?" ask P'Krist
" yeah, I'm better" I replied
" okay if that's the case, I'll excuse you for a second" while being away
Haaaahhh.helaan my breath feels tight. Again I am here no one to accompany, usually there is always teasing me but this time there is nothing. Are you thinking of me ? do you miss me?
you know, let me not hold on to other men talk alone, I'm afraid. I'm afraid of hurting you, I've pledged my allegiance to you, if there you're tired of me then let me go. I'll leave with pleasure if you can be happy with the others.
To be honest every night Win always had a nightmare, dreaming Bright went away leaving him with another woman. But he always thinks positively he does not want to regret later if he accuses the not - not before he sees it himself. So he often daydreams, late to eat, until he is severely depressed. The absence of friends who can be invited to tell stories makes him harbor his own problems. There was only her mother who always gave advice, but far away in her hometown.