A LOVE THAT DOES NOT EXIST
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I immediately ran towards the room quickly and left rio without saying anything

Arriving in front of the room door

" mah." I said with a smile

But ehhh it was not my mother but about me "ehh buk lek" approached her

"Sin reneo is not omongi" said my bulek

" enek opo bulek" asked me while looking down

" delok kankas kowe holiday lebaran to "said bolek

" bulek snuff" I replied

"Holiday ko bali neng bloro yo" said bulek

" really bulek" I said with a hopeful smile

"Yo sin about your father talking ben kowe holiday neng kono ae aboute mas mu kangen" said bulek while stroking my head

" no bulek" I said with a smile

" ki sin sangu mu mok 30 tewu until lebaran enough to " said bulek while giving his money to me

"Neggeh nohun bulek" I said while saving the money

" yo wes bulek not bali sek nggeh" said bulek while standing

"Ngggeh bulek" said I

I'm driving my bulls to the front of the pesantren

And I didn't go back to school, but I stayed in school and did my chores like doing laundry and showering

After bathing and washing I waited for the afternoon school time to teach and as usual to teach prayers to listen to the accusation

The next day.....

Rio approached me

" sin "rio greeted me while walking towards me

" yes what is "my answer with a smile

" today there's a time I don't want to take you to eat "tanya rio while looking down

" can't" I answered

" why "ask rio while looking at me and looking down

" yes because of fasting "answer me with a smile

" oh yes yes I forgot" said Rio with a smile

" no - not you.... No fasting yes " said me while laughing

" elegak really, I fasted" said Rio while laughing and scratching his head

I looked at her while smiling inwardly saying['he's so funny']

" yes" I said with a smile

" yes" said rio

" sure" said I

"Yes" answered rio

" okay" I said.

" oh yes sin there is something I want to talk to you about" said Rio began seriously

" yes, by the way" I said

" the real sin is that I like you "said Rio while holding my hand.

I saw Khilmi look at me and rio and cry and run away from us,

I also take off Rio's hand and chase after khilmi.

" kilmi stops" I said while chasing khilmi "khil stop do not run later fell "kilmi stopped because I was tired I held her hand and said " what's the matter why you ran away " said I

" actually I like rio but "said khilmi while crying I hugged her without saying anything.

Next day.. I tried to avoid rio because I got carried away yesterday still not ready to face it

And also feel guilty for khilmi

Time goes fast does not feel finally want a holiday Lebaran and I have not said anything to rio if I can not be his lover.

But how else every time I meet him I feel like avoiding, I don't know how I feel

2 More days I go back to blora and I look forward to it I can't wait to meet my mom even though I don't know if I can't and can meet mom or not because I don't know mamah where he said he worked in semarang

I waited for my aunt to come pick me up but by the afternoon there wasn't "what she was lying about... I don't know but I'm going to my bulek house instead of me here alone because my friends all come home" I said while walking around

" fortunately I memorized my bulek house even a little rough" I said while walking through the market

Arriving at my bulek house

" asalamualaikum bulek" I said while knocking on the door

" yes, "saying the bulek while opening the door

I entered my house and took off my shoes

" buckle why today don't pick me up "ask me while looking around

" bulek want to get the business oh yes your father wes send duwek go kowe bali sesok" said bulek

"Ngggeh bulek" I said

The next day I and the bus headed to the terminal and took the bus journey about 1 hour until the terminal purwodadi there we took the bus again to blora

Finally got to blora when getting off the bus

I walked to the store to buy a drink but there was someone who hugged me from behind I was crying I don't know why then I turned around and saw my mother who was crying I didn't I can hug my mother because of my circumstances. I came home with pus-filled hands and a weak body I finally fainted from exhaustion I realized I was in the hospital I saw my mom and my dog talking I don't know what they talk because they talk outside the room

I called "mom" and I called my mother.

He came crying

" what deck is sick" my mother asked in tears

" don't you think I'm sick" I replied with a smile and looked at my hand wrapped in bandages

" madek want to go home adek do not like here long ago" said I

" the doctor said tomorrow I could go home" said my mother, stroking my head

" yes, I've got a rest first "said my mother

"Yes mah" I said as I prepared to sleep.

The next day I came home but I didn't go home I didn't know where this was foreign to me and my mom said my bulek had gone home to solo three I don't know why but I thrilled.

Three months later I asked my mother

" mah when do I get back to the boarding school" I said

" didn't have to go there anymore" said mamah while cooking

" why mah " said me while astonished - astonished

" because you don't want to be far from the scene... If you want a school adek can move here later mamah who takes care of "my mother said with a smile

" yes, you want to go to school here" I said as I ducked

How about rio and khilmi if they are good so hopefully rio forgets me because we might not meet again

and maybe my feelings and he's just feelings between friends are nothing more

The next day I enrolled in the school smp muhammadiyah 1 sragen one day there I was immediately allowed to take classes and it was very awkward to meet new people and start getting acquainted

"Hi my name sindi I moved from mts al manar and I love to read "my words with a smile

Everyone saw me and it was so awkward

I got the front seat and nothing interesting honestly I have a bad feeling at this school.

Day after day I was very boring but one day a lot of guys in class made a problem with me can be considered me in the bullie there and I fought them and finally I had many enemies.

My bench friend's name is a daughter she thinks similar to khilmi she's good but at a certain moment she's picky if I ask pr she doesn't love but if the guy asks her pr answer he gave my strange truss from my daughter's acquaintance with dwi and violin and devi.

My day started to be interesting because I had an interesting friend and it was just starting to be a good one .

one day me and the dwi went to the market to find a novel accidentally met ahmad he was my classmate he was pretty good so I broke up to go to him.

" Hi ahmad" I said with a smile

"Hi" said ahmad with cuwek

" if you can ask what are you looking for? " say me

"i'm looking for food for you" said Ahmad

"i'm looking for a book with two" I said

"that's why I went home first" said Ahmad

" if so be careful on the road "my word while looking at the clock

" dwi let's go find a bookstore" I said as I reached for a double hand

" ohh ok let's pause again also noon right" said the dwi

the end arrived at the bookstore although a little confusing we also bought some books and immediately went home because the day was about to afternoon.