Aina
Ep. 100 My grief

Currently on Christmas Eve I am now in the hospital Malang waiting for Father who turned out to be sick a week ago. And last night he was critical. I was then told by Rina's bull.

I was going home, too, but later after the new year. Because the cafe is crowded this holiday season.

After I officially resigned, I decided to go home first and think about what I would do afterwards.

I also packed all my things in the room. The intention later if I go to Jakarta again I will find another place.

The stuff I put in Jeno's house. I didn't forget to ask permission from the one who had the house and Sifa who was in that house.

"All of you will move here later if you return. "that's Sifa's advice who hopes I live in one house with her.

At that time I answered with a smile.

***

"If you're tired of just taking a break at Aina's house" Rina's bulk came to wake me up from the daydream.

"No, you have been guarding your father this week so this time let Aina take care"

"Then what's your job? "

"It can be from far away"

Bulek Rina had not asked again he opened a bag containing food.

"Here we eat first" Rina's boulevard invited me to eat.

But I have no appetite because in there you lie down with a medical device that seems painful.

"I'm sorry, your father forbids you to tell. If you are not alone at that time and know your father is sick again maybe your father will also not say if he is sick. He was just taking medicine that he didn't want to check and that made things worse. So we can only pray with God. "bulek Rina told me how father.

Unknowingly I shed tears.

"Bulek just go home, is bulek not to greja? "

"Yes, end this. After you eat" the bulek forces me to eat again.

Bulek Rina when I last met came to be disappointed with me, but this time she was very good.

"Bulek told your father that your work was right. Bulek already knew from Bunga, and your father has forgiven you too. But somehow he was haunted by the guilt of not being able to take care of you and sacrifice you. "more.

"Already, don't cry. Eat the real thing. Bulek go first, tomorrow bulek come again yes"

Then Rina's boulek left.

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After being in the ICU room for five days finally you realize and have been able to get out but still in the special room of internal medicine. Well at least I can meet with my father and can talk later.

"Aina, why did you come here? " he asked when he looked at me limply.

"Yes sir, I'm healing fast. "

I stroked the back of the old man's hand the only one I had.

"My father seems to be no longer strong Aina, so I can't take care of you anymore" the faint voice sounded again.

"No sir, Aina still needs a father" I held back my tears.

"Find the man you love who can take care of you. Who can lead you on the right path. I'm sorry for not doing it. "you're crying.

I also couldn't hold back my tears.

"Aina's also sorry, father"

Then we hugged.

Suddenly after the breath was finished. He's like breathlessness.

"Aina, once again I'm sorry. La illa ha illa Allah. "father said what it is.

I don't know what it is.

Then my father did not move anymore.

"Mr! "

Father left me.