Analaa
happy and sad too

After the application event in the guise of silaturrahmi it is finished and each – family has returned home, it seems little Maryam was still curious why om Rangga came to the grandmother's house with many people who had never seen Maryam before.

“Umma”, call Maryam.

“ya want what?”, asked Anala.

“ada om Rangga come to the house Oma umma?”, asked Maryam who was still curious about the question earlier.

“gini son, om Rangga wants to introduce his family to kali” family, replied anala dangling.

“everyone should know ya umma, for what?”, ask the smart girl, “hmmmm”, Anala can only mumble and think about what answers are suitable for Maryam.

“nak, if umma married to om Rangga you like?”, asked Anala spontaneously.

“hahaha, married is what umma?, we stay home tomorrow yes, if om Rangga same marriage umma, kayak anti nadia”, replied Maryam.

“ya like that son, can not?”, asked Anala again.

“can deh, if umma happy I am happy also umma, but baba how umma?”, he asked at the end of the sad.

“Allah”, Anala breathes slowly.

“Maryam, tomorrow if we have all died, we will meet baba kok, but in heaven, for in the world we will not meet again son, son, but even though baba is not there we always pray baba well, let baba not be lonely”, said Anala while holding back her tears.

“iya umma, baba must be lonely yes, no friend, miss baba umma”, he said while leaning his head on his uma thigh.

“nak, baba already the same friend – his good friend in heaven, that's why after the umma prayer ask you doain baba, let baba always hear the prayer of his son, and baba is not lonely deh”, and, obviously Anala who saw Maryam was no longer moody.

“umma, go home we yuk, kangen toys I umma”, whine random Maryam arrived – arrived want to go home. Anala who saw the unusual Maryam – usually want to quickly go home, immediately ask permission from her mother to leave, because tomorrow Maryam there is a school workshop.

“mama, Ann went home first yah”, permission for Anala to go home.

“quickly safe Ann, there is another job you son?”, asked mama Anala while supplying Anala food and also Maryam, as well,

“no ma, only Maryam wants to go home aja”, said Anala.

“ouch, yes already, – hearts well, this do not forget to bring”, mama Anala gave the bag to Anala.

“Ann, how is Ann, really want to marry?, you are right – really ready nak?”, asked mama Anala again while making sure Anala.

“ma, actually Anala had thought about this for a long time, if not because of Maryam, maybe Ann will not marry ma, Ann saw Maryam was also happy with Rangga's doctor, so Ann liked her, so Ann liked her, and another did not look at Ann one eye, like the – people who looked at a widow in the negative” category, explained Anala explained to her mother.

“becoming a widow is not our plan son, mama understand how you feel, mama see you after marriage is getting older, and more independent, let alone take care of Maryam by yourself, mama saw you after marriage, mama never thought that your fate would be like this, but fate says something else, son, but you have to remember, mama always wishes you the best for you and also Maryam in every activity you”, explained mama Anala sincerely.

“ya already, want to go home, yes already heart – hearts yes neng”, permission mama.

“iya ma, Ann, go home first”, while Anala kissed the back of the hand of the person she loved.

After Anala was in the car and ready to go to the most comfortable place, suddenly Maryam asked for something that was none other than ice cream, though almost every day he ate ice cream but for this time he did not allow Maryam to buy ice cream.

“umma wants ice cream”, whining again.

“no kiddo, later you can get sick son, especially now the weather is really hot son, later umma make ice cream at home ya”, persuaded Anala.

“emang his umma can make ice cream?”, asked Maryam did not believe the statement of her mother.

“can be son, you doubt your mother's talent?”, asked Anala.

“ok, we'll see later, really yes umma, yah” chocolate flavor, pinta Maryam while whining.

“iya really, it has reached nak”, said Anala while parking her car in the garage of their house. The distance between the house of Anala and her mother is not so far away, that's not a problem if Anala separated from the beginning of her marriage first, because the distance is not so far from her parents' house.

“umma, I want to play”, cry maryam who goes to her playroom, regardless of Anala who is busy with – done.

If Maryam knew, what she just asked earlier, Anala had already arranged the – pieces of sadness and sorrow, far from before.

Kamil is indeed the man of first love Anala and hope we are the only – men who are in his life and to death. But destiny has another power. Yang Anala could not interfere in Kamil's destiny. But Anala is proud to be someone who is in the life of the person who is the inspiration.

“umma”, call maryam.

“umma”, call him again.

“ya son, there is apa”, asked Anala who was conscious after her daydream.

“umma, why umma bengong?”, asked Maryam who saw something different from her uma.

“not what – what kok son, umma tired aja, umma rest first well, later ya umma makein ice creamnya”, said Anala while heading to her room to rest.

“umma, no schoolwork , later help yah”, pinta Maryam.

“ok”, Anala replied briefly.

About a few seconds Anala continued to look at their wedding photos that were plastered large on the wall of her room, ‘kang, sorry I kang, later on our photo I moved well, I made this decision for the sake of everything kang, kang, Maryam is still a child, she needs the figure of the father’ Inner Anala, do not feel the clear bulir flowing on her cheeks. Plus considering the times when they began to get acquainted until marriage and pregnancy, although the process of giving birth to Maryam, Kamil is no longer there, but Anala always felt the presence of the husband, in whatever conditions.

‘kang, even though in the world we are not satisfied to meet and talk – talk, later we will tell in heaven yes, I will tell you everything about the development of Maryam until she grows up, if I live long, I will tell you until we have a grandchild, now he has grown up kang, he has started to ask a lot about you’, Inner Anala, now he has started to ask a lot about you, the more Anala could not endure her sadness.