Another Seed On My Wife's Womb
Can't force it

"Vin, wake up Vin."

Samar I heard Novia's voice wake me up. Apparently it's morning, tumben once, I get up in wakein usually also I wake up alone.

After Novia made sure I woke up, the pregnant woman headed to the bathroom to spare me some warm water. Novia's back in my wife's fashion. I'm increasingly suspicious of Novia's changed treatment since the hospital debate yesterday.

"Since I've prepared you warm water" he said gently, Novia herself already looks neat, her scent even makes me misfocus, not that I'm a pervert in a place that shouldn't be, but the testosterone hormone of a man is very sensitive in the morning.

"What's your plan?" sarcasm just came out of my mouth. Novia looks to frown for a while, then immediately Novia seems to have mastered the situation.

"I didn't plan anything. I realized my mistake, and I intend to correct it. But if you don't want me, it doesn't matter that I'll leave when you ask. I will use the rest of my time to do things that you might remember someday" he said calmly. "At least your wicked wife has been kind to you even though my mistakes will cover up every good I do." - Novia barely heard.

"What's really going on? How can the seed be in your womb Novia? Were you raped? Or are you deliberately entangling your body for some rupiah?" Novia just stared intently at me, without answering the two options I proposed. His mouth was always silent when I asked the origin of the seeds that were now growing in his womb.

Novia breezed away from me without saying anything more. It seems he is avoiding me.

But I won't let that happen, I'll catch his body. And I smashed the wall in his room.

"Who's the father of your baby?" Once again I ask that, but again Novia melengos. Throw away views.

"Vin, if you're tired of me you can go, or let me go. I also don't want to be a pawn that gets in the way of your happiness. Our marriage has been tarnished, I have broken it with the baby that is now growing in my womb. I also have no power to change the fate that has happened."

"I asked your fucking baby dad! Not to discuss takdhir or farewell. Or your fucking brain becomes stupid as that bastard baby grows in your womb." I saw Novia looking down with tears that kept flooding her face.

"I want to avenge every pain you bring to me. I want to give wounds as well as misery to you Noviaaa!" I yell at him with a high voice. I felt Novia's body tremble in my crush.

"Do it." He closed his eyes.

I left Novia who was already crying with no guilt. This is just the beginning of your suffering Novia!

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Novia's body slumped onto the floor as Kevin released a crush from her body. Novia's legs were squeezed like a jelly that could not support my own body.

Novia did not dare to admit that she had spent the night with someone who was almost similar to her husband. Looks like Kevin won't believe what Novia said either. So Novia was more willing to shut her mouth, than to say the real thing she was going through was sure Kevin wouldn't believe her.

Novia did not really know how the night happened. Half conscious at the time, and seeing Kevin's presence right above my body. Novia thought it was all a dream, blame Novia as stupid as Kevin said. Samar Samar Novia recalled that she welcomed the man's touch. Looks like the woman was drunk that night when Novia did not drink alcohol at all, I don't know she also did not remember the exact cause of her drunkenness.

When realizing the situation in the morning, Novia only understood that the person who spent the night with me was not her husband Kevin. Although similar but they are not the same person, the two are different if looked at carefully. There is a small mole on the tip of the nose of this man, also in some parts of his body there are several tattoos.

Oh God. What Novia has done. Novia rubbed her whole body with both hands, soon the woman would return home, and the loyalty I had for six years was in vain for just one mistake tonight, regret that Novia felt attending the party because it was forced by my employer.

But it feels like until Novia's mouth froths up telling her the truth Kevin won't believe it. Surely Kevin will consider as a braggart, spending one night with a mysterious man who looks like her husband, it would just be a joke.

I am stupid and very stupid.

Regretting of course. Novia felt very guilty for what happened to her. Not only is Kevin hurt by this pregnancy, Novia is also more hurt by hurting her love in such a way.

Novia could see every pain in her husband's eyes. The pain I could not possibly deal with with the thousands of apologetic strands that were uttered thousands of times.

It happened to this heart to end my life, but when I imagined an innocent fetus in her womb had to be gone because of my sin I couldn't. Realizing this fetus has never been given a choice by God he must be in the womb of a woman like what. If this fetus is given a choice Novia believes this baby will reject me as her mother.

Every treatment of Kevin is also heart-wrenching, but Novia knows her pain is not worth the wound she inflicted on him.

Novia could see the devastation when she heard about my pregnancy. But Kevin looks even more shocked and hurt when Novia asks to separate from him. The real anger in that guy, I don't understand what he wants either. But only then did I understand that Kevin was about to hurt me equally or even more than the pain Novia had ever given me.

Yeah Kevin said that he'd get back at me. Retaliating for what his wife did, Novia was powerless to forbid it because she had already annulled their marriage.

Love makes Kevin still want to be with me, I'm pretty sure of that.

Until now Novia is still curious about who the man who has a face like Kevin. Her seed is now growing in my womb, creating trouble will also be the main cause of the destruction of our household. No, please don't. Although this mouth asked for divorce from him many times in the form of regret, but my feelings cannot just let go of Kevin who Novia has loved since a few years ago.

Kevin also became the encouragement of Novia to keep fighting. He was the medicine and the antidote when the woman was about to give up.

But I can't force him to stay either, in this moment of self-defeating.