At the End of Dusk
part 10(revision)

"forgive me mas, I still can't give you offspring." she explained

none of his family was aware of his grief, he wept behind a wall far behind his family who were happy to welcome the birth of his second child, mytha, she was sad not because she was unhappy only that she felt like she had failed to become a woman, and that broke her heart to pieces

Ersha and Feroz are still not blessed with zuriat even though their marriage is almost entering the second year after they decided to be together

he knew that Feroz wanted a child born from his womb even though Feroz often stated that the absence of children in his marriage did not make his love less

feroz does love him so much, and Feroz always shows that Ersha is his life Ersha is his happiness, however

feroz's jealousy is no less great

and sometimes it makes Ersha depressed

feroz was so angry that when Ersha was near the earth, he was so angry when it came to the earth

, Feroz once had the heart to ask Ersha to get off the car in the middle of the road only because Ersha voiced her objection to the desire of feroz who asked her to no longer meet the earth,

until that time there was a great quarrel between Feroz and earth, involving their extended family,

earth who could not bear to see his beloved sister, the woman he loved, was still waiting for a mechanic who would come to fix his car when it was night and heavy rain he offered himself to drive Ersha home go home, and it turns out it ignites the flames of feroz rage

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"why is it hard for you to obey what I've said, I don't want to see you with him" snapped Feroz as Ersha just got off the earth car

"yet my car broke down, and the earth just couldn't bear to let me alone wait for the mechanic who came to fix my car" with Isak crying Ersha trying to explain everything to feroz

"why not call me.." Feroz clasped Ersha's hand so tightly that it made her red

feroz's harsh treatment was what made the big fight happen

because she felt bad about the earth and her family and did not want her husband to continue burning jealous fire with so heavy heart ersha decided to stop working,

"honey.." feroz called out to her, quickly Ersha wiped her tears, and welcomed her husband's arrival with her sweet smile

"you've been looking, apparently here.."

"iya mas, Ersha was thirsty so go get a drink.."

"sad you're sick, you're so pale.."

"just a little dizzy, I don't have to worry that Ersha has taken medicine.."

"what dear papa, if we don't go to the hospital right now?"

"no papa kok mas, most of all the dizziness is also gone..,"

"happily what if we go home now, there's something that I want to show you just as dear.."

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"where did you get this picture..?" ask Ersha to Feroz about where the photo that now hangs large on the wall of his house came from

the photo depicts a boy embracing a crying daughter and the girl is herself,

"that's a picture of you when you were five years old, the day before your last meeting with him, dad took a picture of you and him as he embraced you in tears." Ersha is getting curious as to why Feroz knows the story

"sadly you know that boy is not a mas," Feroz looked into the eyes of Ersha who was in his arms

"you're not kidding me anymore, are you?"

"honey, don't you see that the boy has a scar on his right temple, and see if I have the same scar" with Ersha's reflexes looking at her husband's face, and it's true they have the same scars

why Ersha did not realize, her husband has a facial appearance similar to the boy who protected her when she was often dijailin friend friend

"are you really my hero?" asked Ersha who could no longer stem the sense of her fragrance, it had been a long time she dreamed of being able to meet her Hero

"yes dear it's me your Hero," Ersha sobbed in her husband's arms

"you know baby, every day I come to the park where we first met, I wish you were there, but for weeks you never come, baby, until finally mas also left the city, papa was transferred abroad, mas grew up abroad, after finishing college, mas returned to Indonesia, mas back to look for you, mas, with great difficulty I finally found the address of my father, and at that time the daughter of Clarissa's father, not you, I thought Clarissa was you, I tried to get Clarissa until finally Clarissa became a lover, but as long as the mas associated with Clarissa mas do not feel what, mas do not love him nor do not hate him, the same feelings of Clarissa mas same as the feelings of other friends friends there is no difference" Feroz was silent for a moment, he led his wife to sit down

"mas could not end his relationship with Clarissa at that time, mas once promised mas will marry a childhood friend mas, who I think it is Clarissa and you know? inevitably mas have to keep her even though mas never love Clarissa and mas know Clarissa accept mas be her lover not because she loves mas, but , but , as proof that her beauty could conquer the heart of a Feroz rafandra." she went back to silence, set her breath and went back to telling stories

"at the meeting of two families to discuss marriage, I realized that Clarissa was not the one I was looking for, because Clarissa was not my biological daughter, but you, she was, at that time I asked someone to find out who you really are, and just like I thought, you are the person"

"if you know I'm the one you're looking for, why do you keep going on with your marriage?"

feroz smiled

"mas has arranged everything, Tetang Clarissa who left and you who should be her replacement"

"what do you mean, mas?"

"sad Clarissa was so eager to join a modeling agency in America that she arranged everything, she was accepted to join the day before the wedding, and mas asked her to choose between her dreams or mas, and his dreams became his choice.."

" and papa gets a heart attack, is that a charade?"

"no dear, no. No one from our family knows the plan

"honestly, at that time I was so sorry for my crazy idea, I would not forgive myself if something happened to me!"

"but thank God papa can still be helped, and I never thought that my father and papa agreed you as a substitute for Clarissa, I also know you must reject it so I threatened you, so you agree with the marriage"

"you know this is all unfair to me, do you know that I was so disappointed by my father's decision to ask me to marry you, "Ersha wiped away her tears

"you know I was hurt then,,"

"sorry baby.." Feroz hugged his wife's body tightly

feroz continues to persuade Ersha to forgive her foolish deeds

because of the love and regret that emanated from her husband's clear eyes she finally forgave her husband

whatever this is his destiny

god chose Feroz for him, and in that way God sent him

that night they spent their long night nostalgic with their little story

"honey actually four years ago where did you disappear?, mas have asked the man to look for you in Germany, but the results are nil.."

"mas, Ersha is there to work!, so Ersha doesn't have time to go to a place where there is no benefit. That's probably why I didn't find Ersha there.."

'****forgive me for being, I still can't be honest with you****' ******in ersha******