At the End of Dusk
part 11(revision)
the light doctor gave ERSHA a white envelope, from the look on the face of the light doctor Ersha could guess that the bad news was written in the white envelope that was now in her grasp
his breathing was rough
his body trembled, his chest felt tight even though he could already guess it but he was still not ready to return to accept that bitter reality again
"as we are worried about sha, cancer cells in your brain are not really disappearing, now the cancer cells have spread so quickly, and have entered stage 3"
the light doctor grabbed Ersha's body which arrived suddenly dazed into her embrace,
he is a friend and doctor who used to treat Ersha when she was diagnosed with brain cancer for the first time
"you don't worry sha, you'll try to cure you, we'll do chemotherapy or if necessary we'll have surgery to remove the cancer cells and..."
"mba. quite mba, I know mba, free we do chemotherapy, even surgical removal of cancer cells, I will never recover, I have experienced all this mba, I am tired mba...hyks hyx"
lately Ersha often feels a headache that often relapses, sometimes feels constant sleepiness, her breath is easily panting, she often hallucinates and confusion, often do uncontrolled movements, and often do not, his thinking ability is sometimes impaired
in addition to frequent nausea and vomiting he also difficult to swallow food, so it eliminates his appetite and it makes his weight down, he said,
even worse, he often felt pain so severe, his skin felt cold and dry, and do not ask again in one day how many times he fainted unconscious, he said, how many times does blood drip from his nose
feroz was too busy with his work, he often went out of town even for his business,
so he did not realize many changes in his wife,
since the newly born Mytha lived in the feroz family residence, all the attention of the feroz family was directed to Mytha and her baby, they had rarely visited the house of Ersha and feroz to just ask Ersha news
Clarissa is constantly making trouble, ranging from viral news she is in a relationship with a person's fiancee to having to deal with the law for violating a work contract, and Ersha's father who has to solve everything, papa Clarissa is not the kind of responsible father, and all of Clarissa's troubles take up all of Ersha's father's time, so that the man she loves so much has rarely been to Ersha's house..
while earth?
, he who spreads the distance between him and the earth,
he broke the cord between them
earth who was disappointed with ersha's decision not to get too close to him made him move away carrying his disappointment, the earth was really never asked the news
now he himself, enduring his pain
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"sha.." the earth approached Ersha who was leaning her head on the garden table..
from behind closed eyes flow clear water grains
Ersha who was accosted by the earth opened her eyes, stared at her earth face which was filled with question marks and looked so panicked
the eyes of the earth looked at Ersha from head to toe
it is very sad the current condition of Ersha's body
thin body, sunken eyes and a face so pale
the heart of the earth shattered his soul as if it were collapsing , Ersha who he saw today was much more concerned than Ersha a few years ago, when Ersha had brain cancer,
without the sound of the earth falling to the ground, he lost his balance
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like the earth, Nia and Frans were devastated by Ersha's current state
they did not expect the disease to again gnaw on Ersha's body
"Tante don't cry, Ersha will be sad"
now Ersha hugged the body of Nia who was lying next to her
"yes dear, forgive Auntie yes, you must be strong, Aunt om and the earth is for you, you do not own dear.."
that afternoon after the meeting of Earth and Ersha, the earth forced Ersha to come to her house
ersha initially refuses, but Earth insists on keeping Ersha with her
"thank you Auntie, Ersha loves Aunt, Aunt later if there is anything with Ersha aunt must keep the promise Auntie yes...?
"definitely darling..."
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in Ersha's room as a child, at her father's and mother's house
feroz was lying in Ersha's cushioned bed
feroz has been living in ersha's mom and dad's house for a month
during work duties in the same city as his father-in-law Feroz was asked to stay with them..
despite a month of sleep in ersha's room today for the first time she traced every corner of Ersha's room
everything seemed neatly arranged, even though for many years Ersha had never returned home to her parents
ersha's book school era books to various favorite novels and comics are still neatly arranged on the shelf
he took one by one the neatly arranged book books
he saw it, read it, and returned it to its original place
but there was one small book, which was tucked between a neatly arranged book, the book that was wrapped in dark chocolate from earlier stole his attention as if to tease him, his heart strongly asked him to take the book whose cover was made of leather
most unseated a smile on his lips no less he realized that the book in his grasp at this time was his wife's diary
sheet by sheet read it .
each sheet tells about the life of little Ersha,
about her longing for the woman who has given birth to her who has left her for good, until her happiness when the presence of a woman in her life that she calls by the name of mother..
as well as his rescue prince who he called by the name HERO..
*Ersha misses mom, why mom left ersha, Ersha wants to see mom*
*today Ersha meets Hero, she protects Ersha from Ersha's naughty friend's friend*
*Ersha is sad today is the last day Ersha meets Hero. Hero don't forget Ersha and wait for Ersha to come back*
*Ersha is very happy, finally Ersha has a mother, Ersha loves mother, but Ersha also loves mom,*
the life story of little Ersha is not only interspersed with happiness and sadness, but also there is a great longing for the figure of the woman who has given birth to her
feroz was also swept up in the story of his wife's life, not infrequently he shed his tears and not once also knotted a smile on his lips .
ersha's diary jumps to when she has entered the High School, because after the sheet that tells her parting with HERO there is no longer a small story written, she said, his story continues on the tale for the first time he wears a white ash-and-white uniform, and as his battle flag With Clarissa flutters high, all are contained in the brown-coated book
he continued to read it until the last sheet, a sheet whose contents had never been imagined by Feroz, a sheet whose contents were so painful to him..
*I love you in the earth,*
the last sheet of Ersha's diary reads about her feelings for the man named Bumi Daniel
the feeling of silence had taken hold of her heart, the feeling she once thought of as a sister's affection for her brother, a feeling she could never possibly have uttered from her lips
*i will still love you even though I belong to someone else * one sentence slap to her
"sawk3k.." Feroz dumped the book on the floor
his eyes reddened, his jaws hardened, flames of fury blazing within him
"fraud, you have dared to play me Ersha...."
tok tok tok tok
her bedroom door was knocked when her anger had not been extinguished, she tried to control her angry feelings
Clarissa looked smiling showing off her neatly arranged teeth
"what's wrong?" ask Feroz ketus
"don't be so fierce, dear"
feroz brushed off Clarissa's fingers that had penetrated the wild chest of her field
"i'm here to show you something" Clarissa gave Feroz her phone
feroz snatched the phone from Clarissa's hand, her eyes rounded with what she saw
there is a picture of Ersha being embraced by the earth
"that's the real photo, baby, taken five minutes ago, my confidant sent it to me, so it's guaranteed authenticity" Clarissa smiled cynically, she knew for sure Feroz was burning with the flames of anger
"it turns out your wife is no better than me, hypocritical.she utters love in your ears but lets another man hug her, "Feroz looks at her sharply
"don't let her not all this time have let other than her husband enjoy the beauty of his body.." feroz gripped Clarissa's neck until Clarissa's face reddened.
"shut your rotten mouth that.." Feroz releases his grip, returning Clarissa's phone, before she leaves leaving Clarissa coughing
in mounting anger Feroz drove his car at high speed
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