Batari Word
Against the Titus

Being an adult is a process that humans need in order to survive. But not everything can be solved once we become adults. Just like that in my mind stuck in the dimension of time that requires to survive with the memory of someone who looks so similar and as if I was the one who was in it.. Still feel foreign in stepping but also have too much confidence like 2 silver coins that are thrown and turned erratic about the result.. Is it too selfish if I describe my personality so different that I find it difficult to adjust myself?

This morning is again served with beautiful ladies and gentlemen who bowed and a sturdy wall that stretches surrounded by sword warriors with a guard shield.. A natural landscape I had never seen before, with the presence of a stranger so fixed in my memory. My sister Pureswari is beautiful and very charming, how could I have a sister like him who even he himself said honestly was envious and wanted to be like me that I myself did not know how I really am at this time? My love for Atma as well as all the ranks of the department that still need a lesson for me. But every time I hesitated, the memories and bonds of a heart that arrived bound me always acted out of my mind..

“ Raka..? Kemuning Raka? Is Raka thinking of something?”

Pureswari said that always waiting for Kemuning to walk first

“ Ma, sorry.. Just thinking about things here and there is different. Aaah, you must be confused.. Forget it.”

Kemuning who saw Pureswari was confused and started walking

“ Does Raka feel riled up about the relationship between Raka and Raden Mas Atma? Since I saw her these few days, Raka was like keeping her distance.”

Purewari who arrived suddenly stopped the kemuning step by standing before him

“ Atma?.... Honestly I still need a little reason to accept the fact that he is my future husband”

Kemuning who patted Pureswari's shoulder while walking through it

“ He is Bhattara Sapta Prabu and Rear Admiral, Raka still need what excuse else? Even you guys love each other, no one can't see it”

Pureswari who follows kemuning from behind

“ Really?”

“ If not, why does Raden mas Atma always come here to see Raka? Like today he always waited for Raka patiently.”.

Pureswari who pointed behind the wall, Atma was standing firmly leaning

Not saying any more, Pureswari immediately went to take all the ladies with him with a shy smile leaving me alone. Atma still seems silent like that every morning just to greet me sometimes even go away because of the work he has to finish. This time will he also go straight back? Walking footsteps approached him and finally standing right behind him, I could clearly see Atma's stature. The tall, stocky body, looks so dashing with its pointy nose and slightly reddish lips. My dirty mind immediately imagined that when I was in his arms several times, it felt very warm and comfortable.. How could a man like this be my future husband?

Atma who realized I was standing behind her, immediately turned around with a smile on her face immediately grasped my hand tightly. Seen from the look in his eyes that asked me how I was doing today? What are you gonna do? And there's so much more he really wants to tell me. Realizing Atma's expression, I could immediately guess the meaning of her arrival this morning by bowing my head to her.. The understanding Atma immediately touched my face and kissed my forehead gently as if telling me to look back at me..

“ This time, how long will you be gone?”

Say yellow with a limp tone

“ I will bring some soldiers, and Caka will come with me.”

The bowed atma seems unable to explain more on kemunun

“ Tell Queen Tribuana with Mahapatih Gajahmada, right? I know, sooner or later they will definitely tell you to go.”

“ Kemuning.”

The returning Atma touched a yellow face with both hands gently

“ Go, I'll hone my sword skills because I still can't beat you in that.”

Kemuning who smiled sadly to Atma

“ Wait for me. And, this kemuning for you. I hope you can give me an answer once I get back.”

Atma gave a box of wood to the kemunun by kissing his forehead back then passed away

Suddenly I felt uncomfortable wherever I was. Either in this time or at that time, where I also feel people around me like being someone else I do not recognize, he said, so that I even feel alien to myself who thinks this feeling is real or just an illusion? The presence of his figure that seemed to be a light within the peerless dark space. Running around here and there just trying to find comfort, which is very unlikely to get me at this time.. Finally, even with heartbreak I will assume that this is all real and all that is in front of me will face it as if I really live and breathe using the memory of myself in the future different ones..

It did not feel like time had passed and it had been a week that Atma left without any more news being heard.. Somehow with his absence made me feel so lost as if something pulled this Raga glare somewhere, somewhere, making these views and thoughts unattached even though I tried to focus my attention on one blunt field that was the object of my shot.. What's wrong with me.. Why did I become like this just because of Atma? Do I love her so much? Why is my memory of her so faint that I don't know what my relationship with her used to be.. But with this beating, I can make sure I love her so much, don't you think?

“ Raka kemuning.. Must be very thinking about the departure of Raden Mas Atma to not focus on aiming his arrow.”

Pureswari said that he saw the shooting from a distance with worry

“ Right Raden Rara.. Would Raden Rara try to cheer him up?”

Say one of the oldest ladies

“ Maybe by going around the city and shopping can distract Raka.. What do you think of the master?”

Pureswari turned her back and asked the oldest lady

“ I totally agree Raden Rara. I will prepare all his needs.”

Say Come the oldest with a bow and pass away

Poking at the arrow shot at the end of the day was stopped when Pureswari came with a smile on his face as if saying come with me and forget about your problem.. With a smile back I went around the city following Pureswari's will.. Just this time I went around the city on a leisurely walk, it turned out to be really able to divert the mind and heart that began to feel tired.. Even all the transactions and currencies here are very different, but not all the items here look much different from the ones I usually use.. I even see some things that are better quality at this time compared to the time where I was..

My eyes were also directed at the jewelry store that seemed to be the best craftsman in this city even seen bringing goods that did not come from here, the area, considering that in this period, even Chinese and western traders have begun to trade and even introduce their culture here.. Awakened to a beautiful hair ornament like the one I wear today, did Atma buy it here?

“ Sorry, did this konde skewer you made?”

Said Kemuning who asked the seller who already looks middle-aged

“ Gusti Raden Rara's.. Yes it is true, but there are also some that I got from the seller outside palace”

Said the middle-aged craftsman by subduing his body

“ I've guessed.. Stand up, can you see if this is also you sell?”

Kemuning who took off the hair ornament that Atma gave her and showed it

“ Forgive Gusti Raden Rara.”

Said the craftsman who immediately lowered his head with half prostrate on kemunun

“ Aa.. What was? Am I wrong to show you this decoration?”

Speak of confused

Hearing the explanation of this craftsman also makes me speechless which is my current position if in the time where I came from as Atma's fiancee. And with the Atma giving this, is Atma planning to have a wedding in the near future while it is still in this condition?.. Then what should I tell her later if I ask Atma to postpone our marriage, I am very sure her pride will be hurt too? But if it is necessary to say, deep in my heart it turns out that I also expect this kind of Atma to me.. But the question at the moment is.. Was it really me who married her? Am I ready for a wedding?

Soon Pureswari with a ladyboy came to me at this jewelry store.. As I thought, Pureswari would love to visit this store so much that I let it go and graced my hair again using the hair ornament Atma gave me.. Shortly after we were satisfied shopping, on our way home we were stopped by the pounding of the palace troops who ran gallantly. Instantly I fell silent and stood like a stone when I saw the banner flag of the Atma army fluttering grandly.

My eyes were increasingly focused on looking at the troops who seemed to have succeeded in doing their job.. However, when in the middle of the gallant march it was only Caka who was seen by me while Atma could not find at all until the end of the army passed to the palace.. Where's Atma? What's... Nah! Nah! Pureswari, who seemed to understand what was on my mind, floated his gaze as if telling me to immediately go to the palace and ask what I wanted to ask.. Without saying any more, I took one of the prepared horses and rode it quickly towards the palace..

“ CAKA!! Wait..”

Kemuning who ran over to Caka with half running

“ I know what you want to ask me.. But sorry kemuning, I can not tell you about his current condition because we have been under oath in front of Ratu”

Caka who slightly lowered his face felt guilty to kemuning

“ At least Caka.. At least tell me.. Please, is she okay?”

Kemuning who pulled Caka's hand and looked at him seriously

“Yes.. Sorry to have to face Ratu” immediately

The slightly smiling wit and waiting kemunun let go of his hand

By letting go of my hand and blank look, I saw Caka who was walking with a face that was also like worrying about Atma's current condition.. Caka famously could not hide his feelings and what he felt by being seen from each of his expressions.. This time I saw Caka actually he did not know how the condition of Atma but because of the Task given to him, Caka was not able to do more than what was his duty.. If it's like this, inevitably I have to see it with my own eyes.. Moreover, am I also one of the knights of the Queen's confidant palace?!.

Walking quietly without making a sound, I could finally hear the talk of the knights about their other entourage dispersing westward close to the port on the city border. They also said they were not so worried, because the army led by Atma who was famous for being very scary while on the battlefield. Hearing that, I went straight back to Bale's house and prepared whatever items I wanted to carry.. But it stopped immediately when Ayahanda entered my room..

“ GUSTI RADEN PANJI COME “

Said the guard standing in front of the yellow room

“ Ayahanda..? What urgent thing to come here and not call kemuning?”

Kemuning who immediately approached and helped his father who was still injured to sit

“ I heard that the Atma Army managed to do its job and returned to the palace.. However, the Atma itself is not yet visible. What right?”

“ . . . . . . . Yes, Father.”.

Kemuning replied by lowering his head

“ I'm afraid you will catch up with him because until now Atma still no news heard. Please stay home and wait for Atma to return here.”

“ But father..”

Kemuning straightened his head with a slight disagreement

“ I know you are a Prabu Stira trust Queen, but you also do not forget that you are my son. That's all I want to tell you”

Said the father by patting Kemuning on the shoulder and then stood up and passed away

I knew clearly what he meant, but somehow this stubbornness always prevailed more than he obeyed the commandment that I respected so much.. Waiting for the right time, again, finally I dared myself to smuggle out and take my horse to walk a little further from the residence and ride on it so that no one would be suspicious of my departure. A journey that cannot be compared to the modern world, this time is a great challenge for me to ride a horse like this alone..

After a long journey following the path, I finally came to a village that was approaching the port of the kingdom.. Even at night the situation here is so different from the urban that it already looks not much more that do people's activities.. Walking on Brata's horse, as I've known since I've been here.. My level of sensitivity to the surroundings was so deeply felt to me somehow.. And now I can feel at least 4 people following me from behind me. I tried to stop and let them get close to me..

“ Out. What do you want? And who are you guys?”

Said Kemuning who was still on his horse by preparing to hold an arrow in his hand

“ A woman riding a horse at night by herself? How could it not interest us.. Moreover, it seems that you are no ordinary woman.. Are you a noble?”

Said one of the young men who looked half drunk

“ Looks like you're lost. Need us to accompany?”

Said another young man who was already holding a sword trying to block Kemuning by standing in front of him

“ Go while I'm still being polite.”

Kemuning who directly pointed his arrows at the young man

The four young men who approached me seemed to not fear me by standing in a row before me. Before long a young man tried to advance towards me, precisely quenched my arrow so that it hit right under the young man's feet. In an instant they were immediately frightened and also ran away because they did not expect me to shoot as if I was just lying just to protect myself. Whether it's just my feelings or indeed with the departure of the four men the atmosphere of the dock is currently becoming very quiet?

# PIWWIIT # PIWWIIT

The whistling sound of someone from a distance seemed to signal

True allegations. The four of them left just to call the herd back here.. It was seen that their number was double than before, by pointing the arrows back I tried to catch my breath and tried to aim at anyone who ran faster towards me. But damn, I realized too late and too late to try to dodge when I saw above a pier tower already stood a man who pointed his arrow at me and hit the tip of my hand until it bled..

There felt a gap of two men running very fast by aiming a long sword, finding it impossible to use the arrows I took my sword and fought the men's attacks right on the femur and calf bones until they fell down and could not stand. Seeing his two friends hurt by me, they also immediately wanted to attack me. I thought this was the end of my struggle, but there was a voice I longed for calling my name..

“ YELLOW, MOVE AWAY ”

Atma riding on his horse ran very fast with two swords in his hand

In just an instant the presence of Atma wounded two other young men with just a single slash of his sword, making them run in fear.. Atma immediately looked at me sharply and as if feeling annoyed when she saw the wound on my hand. By stopping his horse, Atma came down and immediately treated my wounds with a face full of anger as if he did not want to see my face.. Even though I knew, I was wrong and made her worry.. At least I can see him standing in front of me right now unharmed.

“ Go home, I will accompany you to the border now also”

Said Atma who finished treating his yellow hands and immediately climbed onto his horse

“ Wait Atma, i.”

“ WHERE IS YOUR MIND?! WHAT IF I COME LATE? GO HOME NOW YELLOW AND DON'T DARE TO ARGUE WITH ME!”

Atma cut the kemuning that was talking with a very angry look

With anger and emotion Atma at this time I finally obeyed his words and he immediately drove me riding together towards the border of the city. Arriving at the border, Atma did not look at me at all even with his horse as if he wanted to leave me immediately.. Even if I do something dangerous, at least look at me Atma.. With a few tears in my eyes, I returned to the city and went back to my Bale, where Father was waiting for me with anger as Atma had done to me.. The head bowed with a little bowing of my body and the trembling hands were unable to look at the loved ones I had ignored..