Be The Best In Anime World
Ch - 17: Want to Live?

Shin walked home. His face looked lethargic and moody, as usual. However, he seemed to ignore or not care too much about the events today, for example the letter of Murder threat someone gave him.

This letter was just a sign of the annoyance of the Fans from the girls just now, no other intent or even Murder. Which fool kills someone for his idol? His idol does not necessarily know him, after all, Murder is not a trivial criminal act.

But he had to admit, the guts of those people were so great that they dared to send a letter like this to him. This reminds her of the Dating Simulation Game about a Mob character who becomes the lover of a Heroine.

However, this was real life, he could not apply the same or any of the choices he had chosen in the Game to capture the Heroine's heart. All of these problems occurred as a result of her underestimating a girl.

And now, he met the girl who had given him trouble.

"ah! You were the man who was with Michon back then, right! It just so happens that we meet here!"

'I hate Coincidence.'

The girl approached him and seemed to be familiar with him. Their first meeting was held at the Canteen. Looking at her appearance alone, Shin could already understand that this girl was a gaul-type gyaru.

'But, what was he doing in the Sewing Shop?' The question popped into his head shortly after he thought about it. Just now The girl came out of the Sewing Shop and greeted him.

"What are you carrying, Katigawa-san?"

Her name is Katigawa Marin. Shin and Katigawa get acquainted for a while, and Katigawa immediately goes to meet her other friends. From the conversation he heard and asked Shikimori, it turned out that Katigawa was a friend of Shikimori and Kamiya Junior High School.

There was nothing special about Katigawa, just that she was quite above average on Academic Values despite her appearance like that. Shikimori also said, Katigawa can attend Elie Tokyo High School because her family is quite rich.

"What I brought? Ah, this ... This is just doang's default."

"That's suspicious. Did you hide any weird stuff in that cardboard box?" Shin obviously wanted to find out the contents of the cardboard that Katigawa had brought.

Katigawa hid it behind her body, her gaze diverted in another direction. It was certain that he was lying, raising another suspicion from Shin who really wanted to know the contents of the cardboard at the moment.

"Ngomo—"

"Don't try to divert the conversation."

"Kuh." Katigawa complained for a moment. "T - But, don't laugh, okay?" Ask Katigawa to make sure.

"What's laughing for?"

"I have a hobby .. weird."

"Any?" Then, Shin saw Katigawa open the cardboard slowly, revealing its contents which. Only long-sleeved black clothes and looks like clothes that follow the current trend, there is nothing strange at all from the black clothes.

"It must be weird, right?"

"What?"

"Eh? Nah! This is definitely weird!"

"You said it was weird yourself, but not to me. What is so strange about this shirt? At most, the stitches are not neat and I think that the one who sewed it is an amateur."

"B - So."

"Did you sew it?"

"Uhm .. That's how." Although Katigawa was relieved that Shin did not laugh at her, her words were really painful.

"So, you like cosplay?"

"of course! They're cute!"

Unexpectedly Katigawa's answer sounded very excited, then she began to explain why she liked Cosplayer and the cuteness about female Cosplayers.

'His face is too close.' Shin they were a bit uncomfortable when Katigawa brought her face closer, let alone Katigawa's sparkling gaze made her look like an innocent girl who told her hobbies.

"Lantas, why are you hiding it? I mean, you seem to really like Cosplay and want to make Cosplay outfits for yourself, well even if it's a bit of a flop. But the question is, why are you hiding it?"

"Isn't this so childish? Well, no one hates or dislikes me when I talk about things about Cosplay, it's just that I feel that it's so childish." Katigawa answered without lying.

"You hid this matter also from Shikimori-san and Kamiya-san?"

"A - Ah, like that."

Shin thought that Katigawa was an open person to his friends, but Katigawa still hid the other side. However, he was able to understand it because everyone had a side that people did not want to see, including himself.

"If you think your hobby looks childish, I think it's better than a hobby to harm others. Just think about it, this hobby of yours is for you and your pleasure, and then yourself that forbids your hobby. That ... well it must be a bit troublesome to hold back.

Katigawa was silent for a moment, then she smiled and laughed softly. "I don't think Sasaki-kun who looks like a loner can say that. But I'm not mocking. I'm just surprised. Thank you." Thank you."

Katigawa's smile was so sincere that her feelings were conveyed to Shin. Whereas before, Katigawa's smile was just a polite smile, but this time it was very sincere.

Shin turned his gaze to the sky, seeing that the sky was already getting dark. "Thank God my words can help you a little. Unfortunately I don't have much time."

"Oh, so. See you back at school, yeah!"

"Ah, okay."

***

"..." - ".Shin stared flatly at his friends who were waiting for his return in his apartment. They all looked happy when they saw her who had just stepped out of the elevator. "Fuck, you really think of my apartment as your playground, huh." Said Shin in annoyance.

"..." - ".But, everyone did not dare to answer him, just pretending not to know like a fool.

"Then, you! Miyuki, I'll repay you later! You betrayed me and left me when I was in trouble."

"T - Wait! It's cu—"

"I don't accept excuses anymore." Shin sighed for a moment, then took the key from his pants pocket, opened the door and let his friends in.

"""Yohoo!""" Shirogane, Ishigami, Kirito went inside with a happy face.

Shin also went inside, then immediately changed his clothes in his room. He felt tired and put his body in a comfortable mattress, sounding from the living room, it seemed like his friends were trying a new game or whatever it was.

Anyway he currently wants to rest first. Just sec. He pressed a button, and the voices in the living room were no longer heard. He became more relaxed and could fall asleep.

***

*shin*

"Look, Dad! I got the First Champion!"

"That's great."

"Look! Haha. Mom, I've also learned about this!"

"Well, great."

I don't know since then, but .. I've lost interest again. If someone asks me if my childhood was a good time. Honestly, I would have a hard time answering, because all the problems happened at that time.

I keep getting great achievements, because I want to be praised. Thirsty of compliments. His name is also children, must be very eager to be praised and recognized by parents, including myself.

Because my family is rich, it makes it difficult for me to communicate with children my age. At most we only talked for a few moments, before the other children began to know me as I .. get Achievements.

I'm smart, none of them can beat me. Of course ... I became arrogant, pride and greed. I want to get everything I want.

I don't care for those who look at me differently as if I were the Best. That's nice! Because I am great! Among them, there was only one child who wanted to be friends with me despite my annoying nature.

He still wants to be friends. So .. I changed my mind.

"Okay, I'll be friends with you!" I said at that time.

We're buddies. I thought it was forever going to happen, but .. after that. First of all it was a matter that made me unable to meet him, then …

Killed him. My only friend.

"Hey, hey, you killed him, you know."

Nope, no.

This is something wrong.

"Hahahaha, you are my son. That's so great!"

No, no, NO, NO!!

IT'S NOT MY FAULT! I DIDN'T KILL HIM!

DAD, YOU KILLED MY FRIEND! RESTORE HIM!!

"What? You killed him. I don't really care. Besides, shouldn't you be happy that I just praised you?"

Right ... Why am I unhappy and angry when Dad praises me? Even though my actions are Killer, but .. praise is still a compliment. There should be nothing different.

Why am I so angry? I'm greedy, sacrificing everything around me to get compliments. Even slowly I gnawed at myself.

"Why are you silent? Hehehe .. HAHAHAHA! Say Son! Why did you kill him? You killed him! I saw it myself! EVERYONE SAW YOU KILL YOUR OWN FRIEND!"

Stares ... stares .. stares. These people why look at me as if I am dirt!?! I am the greatest! I was praised by Dad for ... action .. which …

Also true. Murder.

What am I doing right now? My hands are full of blood. The organs in man are scattered everywhere, my lips are also bleeding, but not my blood... Wait, did I just eat the flesh of my own friend?

It's not delicious. I want to vomit …

Nope.

I'm gonna throw up not because of the taste, but …

The reality!

"HAHAHAHAHA! DID YOU REALIZE IT!?! YOU'RE THE WRONG ONE! YOU DON'T WANT TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU KILLED YOUR OWN FRIEND AND BLAMED ME!"

No, no, no, no, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO WAY!

I... I JUST WANT TO LIVE!

***

"Huhaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh."

Shin woke up from his sleep with breathless breath as if he had just run thousands of kilometers. His body was covered in sweat, then he stood up and walked towards the bathroom next to him.

Washing his face, he saw his deeply expressioned face. Then, he spewed out the contents inside his stomach, everything until his stomach was completely empty.

"Neeghhhkkk!"

“Arkmanh Shin, you have killed your own friend.”

“Arkmanh Shin, face the reality!”

"Uueghhhhkk!!"

Shin washed his face again, hitting the sink with a little bit of his strength, he grimaced not for the magic, but.

"I'm not Arkmanh Shin. My name is Sasaki Shin." Shin did not want to accept it, he wanted his life to go on like this.

He's not Arkmanh Shin. He'll let go of it all the way from his life. His name is Sasaki Shin, or Sasaki Yieula Shin. Name of his mother.

"Neeghhhkk!"

***

"Dad, why did you do that?!"

"What? You're the one who killed him. Don't blame anyone or circumstances. Face the reality."

"I'm .. That's not me! You are! You obviously provoked me so that I could hurt him, not .. rather kill him."

"Son, you're the one who can't see the truth. You're blind to someone's deceit. Do you know ..? You must know what he's hiding and his motives. That's why you don't want to accept reality and pretend like you don't know anything."

"No! I ... I …"

The man grinned. "What's in your brain? Strong people never put empathy first, but envy. Empathy will only make someone weak, like you. You know .. You're a real bitch."

"Khgghhh .. I JUST WANT—"

"living away? But you've lived and died inedible reality that you thought never existed." The man turned around, then glanced back. "Your friend just wants to get close to you just wants money from you. He used you for his own benefit." Her speech.

"God is never used, they are the ones who use someone. That's the point. I hope you've been thinking about how stupid you have been lately, son."

***

(A/N: Aargh! I think it's a bit forced, but I don't care. After recovering from the fever, I was immediately called to the School to do all my duties as OSIS.

Is correct. If you think I'm just a nolep boy and have nothing else to do, you're wrong. I work in organizations to gain experience.

As a result, my time to write is less. Just imagine, at 6 am must have been at school, even going home sometimes until 5 pm or night.

So after a long holiday yesterday, I was really active again. I hope you are not tired of reading this novel and waiting for it.

Ii'm sorry. (〒_〒) )