
I was eating on the balcony stopping the activity and trying to hear well is it true the sound of the phone ringing?
"Om Surely Tuir!" shove and leave the dishes on the balcony floor. I'll see the phone I just casped, "right!" I don't know why it feels so happy to see that Riki called.
I raised the call because I did not want to make the man wait a long time, immediately returned to the balcony because the food had not run out.
"Hello, Om! How inactive is the WA?" ask me with a smile and a smile that does not fade.
"Mmm .. yes, Cil. Oh, aye. I want a story," replied Riki from afar with a weakened tone.
I immediately lowered the plate that I had, not usually Riki's voice was as weak as this, "Om why? It hurt?" manyworry.
"No, I want to ask you a question and ask for an opinion" he said in seriousness. I frowned, afraid that the curses would disturb me.
"Mama wanted me to marry Diva" Riki told me and made me instantly speechless. Tears just escaped without excuse.
However, as much as possible I hold so as not to severe rupture. Riki could have known that I was crying because my voice had changed.
"Huh? Why did Aunt suddenly ask Om to marry Diva?" many of me who want to know and as much as possible respond to Riki's curses.
Call kulespeker, I turn on the data for a second. I deleted the message that many of them were also photos of my fingers that had been using Riki's giving ring.
Yes, I have answered him so as not to make Riki wait long even though it was still four years that was also a long time ago.
But, ah . I don't know. I deleted everything, no more messages unless it says 'This message has been deleted'
"Because, Mama is afraid that you won't accept my love," answered Riku who made my heart come sliced.
I don't blame her for hurting me and I don't blame Aunt for setting Riki up. It's all my fault, I'm the culprit here.
"Hihi, yes, also Om. Aunty must be afraid if I hurt Om for the umpteenth time," I explained with a small laughter. Believe me, this isn't happy this is a real lie.
"Om just accept Auntie's wishes, maybe by seeing Om's application with Diva makes Aunt will recover faster," my connection who was told that Aunt was sick.
"Do I have to give up my will?" ask Riki over there who seems really stressed.
"Om, now Istighfar first. Take it easy, remember that parents must want the best for their children," I said by continuing to wipe the tears that came down to the cheeks.
"Ca ...?"
"Yes Om?" ask me with a voice that as much as possible in a happy tone and spirit.
"I'm sorry, yeah."
I couldn't help it, I kept the phone out of my mouth and I immediately closed it to make the stuffing inaudible, took a quiet breath and tried to smile.
"I'm sorry for what?" I'm afraid I don't know the direction of Riki's conversation.
"Because I thought that things wouldn't be like this."
"Udah Om, this is God's destiny. Tomorrow, Caca's ring will send to the expedition, yes. Oh, yes, yes, yes, because Caca again has a night shift assignment, nih," I said lying. It is not strong if you have to hold this cry for a long time.
I shut it down without waiting for approval, I cried by sinking my face to my knees. Suddenly, it rained without any rain.
It seems, the universe is supporting me to let out the cry that exists. I wanted to take a rain shower and cry under it even though the clock was almost on its way to Magrib prayer time.
I put my black skirt also wear socks, plates and cell phones I leave on the balcony a little far away so as not to be exposed to splashes of water.
Walk toward the outside of the apartment and walk on the edge of the asphalt, not the sidewalk looking for a bench that is there to easily sit there later.
I would be ashamed to be seen by people walking around with their umbrellas. Sometimes they look at me.
However, this is the country where I study. They will not care for each other, busyness makes them forget to empathize.
No matter, I don't expect empathy from them. I held my eyes, it seemed to be puffy. Wipe away the tears and rain on the cheeks.
Suddenly, the rain stopped washing over me. Has the rain stopped? It seems like it is still raining in front of me.
My head looked up, and there was an umbrella blocking the rain. My eyes caught someone who was next to me now.
"Tomorrow you have begun to be my companion and the schedule has been made by the appointed nurse, if you are sick who will accompany me?" tanyanya with eyes looking at me fixed.
"I'm strong, go! I want to be alone" I kicked out by keeping an umbrella out of my head.
"If you're strong, you won't do this."
I looked at him and did not intend to answer his words, he moved to the side of the empty bench.
"Sometimes, what we think is good is not necessarily good according to God. So, try to be sincere about something that happens in this world," he advised.
Does he know the problem? Or ... is just giving advice without knowing the context?
"You still want to linger here? I'm getting hungry" he lamented and I glanced at him.
"Nobody told you to sit next to me!" my ketus.
"Well, wait here, yeah. I'm gonna go get some food first."
I didn't say, "Now, hold it!" he gave me an umbrella.
He just went into one of the shopping, I just stared at him not intending to leave or else.
I want to forget the stupid things I did. Making someone my conversation with God.
This is the first time I have spoken the name of a foreign man in my prayer. Naturally, if I feel this hard.
However, not all of these things I blame to Riki. Because, I once left her alone.
Sort of, what you do you're gonna feel. I hurt him once and the universe will hurt me too.
Sooner or later, we will feel it as we do to others. It's okay if I curse myself for my own mistakes, too?
The guy comes out with a coffee cup, yes, usually the coffee cup will be different. With in his hand there is also an environmentally friendly white crackle.
Her clothes were wet, her hair was also her shoes. No more dashing and neat appearance there, I just stared flatly.
"His son too, yes, a rain shower!" it was with lips that I saw pale.
Does he not usually shower in the rain? Why from his slightly shivering voice I heard, I rose up not wanting if he was sick because of me.
"Yeah, home!" take me with him who just sat down.
"Well, is this the coffee?" tanyanya shivering.
"Next time you don't need to accompany me, brother, you're not used to the rain like it is" I said and waited for him to rise.
He got up, I immediately brought the crackle and a cup of coffee. Let one more thing he holds to warm his already wrinkled hands on his fingers.