Black Pen On White Paper
Chapter 32 [Saturated Color in White Paper]

Like the tomb in general, many trees, grass that fills the ground, headstones that stick with the fence around it, while the many wreaths are displayed in the tomb area belonging to others. but because today is December, most of the surface has been covered with snow even though it is leaves on trees.

In fact, the location of the grave belonged to the grandmother a little deeper and farther than Petra had imagined. It took a while until the grave of the grandmother was finally found. Grandma's grave is located at the southeast end of the cemetery and takes approximately 2 minutes to arrive at the tomb belonging to the grandmother.

Arriving there, it can be seen if there are still photos of the face of the grandmother who is leaning on her tombstone. Petra looked at it and started to feel it. He felt a feeling that was still connected between his feelings with the feelings of grandma. Just like a string being knitted and formed a scarf that warms people, the closer the two people are to the thread holder, the closer they are to the thread.

“sorry, mah. I guess I just want to be alone right now” petra told mamah.

“mamah will give you time” he replied.

“thank you so much” said Petra.

In the end, she just sat in the chair that had been provided under a tree so large in the middle of the tomb while Petra just squatted and stroked the picture frame of her grandmother's face.

“the paper and pen that my grandmother gave me is a symbol that grandma always looks at me. In the end I realized one thing. Why could Petra from the future send me a letter to save me, it was the grandmother who gave me my twin from the future a pen and paper. And Petra from the future saved me so that I wouldn't be what she felt. Although my grandmother and I had no blood relation, but I had assumed that my grandmother was my own grandmother. Grandmother always took care of me along with my mother, grandma taught me to weave scarves while she was cooking food in the kitchen, and in fact, she left 7 scarves for me and my friend. In my opinion, it is the most precious relic of the grandmother where the soul of the grandmother will always live in the seven handmade scarves of granny” Petra said while bowing her head in the grave of the grandmother.

“forgive Petra for not being able to save grandma from this incident.I'm sorry Petra because Petra instead left grandmother at home.I'm sorry Petra because Petra was too timid in taking the road. From now on, Petra will be determined to take Petra's own path, and certainly, with the support of my grandmother's soul inside my scarf, she said, I will definitely be fine” Petra said with teardrops that began to wet her cheeks.

“Petra will save Lia no matter what happens.I don't care about anyone anymore, whatever I from the future command, I will force it. That way, whatever happens I will remain a Black Pen on White Paper, filling the void with a dense color” he said while staring at the frame of the photo of the grandmother.

In the end, Petra wiped her tears and then stood there, stroking her grandmother's tombstone for the last time and then walking to meet the mother who was waiting under the middle tree of the tomb.

“what's done?” ask Petra.

“at least I've felt so relieved” he replied.

“then, can we go home? and it's very cold. The snow is getting bigger. That's not good for your body” take mamah.

“baik” replied Petra nodded her head.

In the end, Petra and her mother returned to the car parked outside the cemetery. Apparently, the top of the car has been covered with snow, and inevitably the driver must clean it using a small plastic shovel.

“it looks like there will be a blizzard later tonight” said mamah to the driver.

“ehh, you two are done. Sorry, I have to clear this snow first. Please wait inside for a moment” he said while cleaning the roof of the car.

“well thank you” replied maam.

Petra and Mama got in the car. Petra sat next to Mamah in the middle seat. Seeing the funeral from the window, Petra thought it was very quiet and cold and a little dark. There is no warmth and no comfort. There was only sorrow and grief enveloped by the dark and cold atmosphere of the funeral. Petra daydreamed while looking at the trees that were starting to be covered in snow.

“what are you doing?” ask Petra.

“it's okay what” replied.

“mamah think you are not quiet like this” said mamah.

“sorry, but I still want to keep quiet for a while” replied.

“that's no problem. Anyone who is still sad and grieving will definitely do the same.just silence and solitude is one of the remedies for people who are grieving” said mamah.

“terkmat” said.

“for what?” ask mama.

“it's okay” Petra replied turning her face away.

“my son was a hero who saved his grandmother's scarf from a terrible fire. Mamah is very proud of you, son Petra” said mamah while stroking Petra's head.

Instantly, his hair was wet by the snow on the elus by the warm right palm. It made Petra so surprised and remembered the hand rub from personal doctor Lia. The warm palms of mamah made her feel much calmer at that moment, too, Petra raised my head and looked at the mamah face that was stroking her head.

With a warm smile and a sincere look, the mother said “if there is a problem, just say it. If something is weighing on you, just let it go. If something makes you sad, take it out. Your mom will listen to you”

Hearing the mamah words made Petra's heart warm.His heart was pounding so fast while her breathing was so messy. Her hair stood up and her eyes began to water. In the end, his tears fell on the sofa of the car seat and dripped down there.

Spontaneous Petra hugged her mamah body that was so warm and big. Petra hugged him. Shouting and crying in his arms. Petra poured out all her heart. Her tears washed her clothes. Mamah simply stroked Petra's head while smiling sincerely at her.

“I don't know. I don't know what to do. I was going to save Grandma, but I failed. I've gotten a lead that big but I didn't really do it. I was so stupid for not being able to save Grandma. I feel guilty, I feel sad, I feel cold and drowning. I wanted to be able to meet with grandma and apologize to her because I couldn't save grandma. I can't. I don't know what's going on. I can't do what. I think if I worked hard, I would get similar rewards, but in fact, God still took grandmother. I'm desperate” shouted Petra in the arms of mamah.

“you know?, mama would rather Petra who cried like that than always be silent and keep everything alone. Shout even louder if it makes you better” is obviously mamah with a genuine smile.

In the end, Petra just hugged her mummy body and cried in her arms. The sobs of a spoiled child were as clear at the time as a crying child who was not bought by balloons and toys by his parents.

In the end, Petra put herself in the lap of her mother who was sitting in the back seat.Not long after that, the driver got into the car and sat in the driver's seat.

“ehh? What happened to Petra?” ask the driver to his mother.

“dia is trying” replied mamah.

“ohh sorry, I understand the condition. Now, do we have any other places to visit?” ask the driver.

“no need. It's too cold. Better go straight home” replied maamah.

“alah” replied driver.

The driver started the engine and then left the village cemetery area and was about to return home. Petra could only hide her face when she fell asleep with both of her thighs as her pads.

Petra only covered her eyes with one arm. Without any chatter. The journey was boring. In the end, they reached Lia's house a few minutes later.

“what are you dizzy?” ask Petra.

“iya” answer.

“in that case, mamah will make you porridge and drink you medicine. Is your body limp?” ask mama back.

“please, my body is very limp. I was too limp to not be able to lift my arm” Petra replied.

“then let me carry it and put it into his room” said the driver.

“thank you very much. Please yes pak” said Petra.

“sorry because it has inconvenienced mr” he said a little whisper near the ear of the driver.

“calm down, this is no problem for mr” replied the driver.

The driver began to enter the house and walked up the stairs to Lia's room earlier. He carried Petra's body and climbed dozens of stairs to bring her to the room. In the end, Petra was being carried by a driver and mamah who walked following them from the back to Lia's room.

The three of them had arrived at the door of Lia's room. When mamah knocked on the door, the door was opened from the inside by Lia's papah. with so shocked papah Lia when he saw Petra's body was carried by the driver. He glared and was so surprised.

“a-what happened?” papah Lia asked so surprised.

“sorry, this is Petra's own request who wants to visit her grandmother's grave” replied his mother.

“so so. I get it now. Then, give Petra to me and I will bring her into” Lia said to the driver.

“good big sir” replied the driver nodded his head.

“thank you sir” Petra said to the driver.

“ equally, son Petra” replied the driver.

At that time, Petra's body, which was being carried by the driver, was moved and carried using both arms of Lia papah, immediately, papah Lia ran a little and took him and put Petra's body on Lia's mattress.

All of his friends who were chatting on the bottom mat were so shocked when they saw Petra's body was limp helplessly. Even his hands hang down with fingers that come to relax as well.

Papah Lia put Petra's body on Lia's warm and tender mattress. Not long after, all my friends spontaneously came to Petra and saw her condition. His weak body was not even able to raise his own arm. Petra could only move her lips and blink her eyes. Petra struggled to speak and it felt like her body was heavy to move.

“papah will prepare warm clothes for Petra from kamar” said papah Lia walking out of the room.

“mamah will pick up goods mamah goods in the car under” said mamah walking out of the room.

“please excuse” said the driver walked out.

At that time, there was only Petra and her friend in the room. They all momentarily huddled him on the bed while his mind was still burdened with the loss of the grandmother. Petra was also still thinking about what would happen with Lia in a few days.

“what happened?” ask Lia to Petra.

“what have you done?” ask Alex.

“what's with your body?” ask Issak.

“apa, when, where, who, how, why?” ask Alex.

“i'm okay. Just a little cold” Petra replied with a tone so weakened.

“then let me cook the porridge for you” said Lia.

“aku will help” says Issak.

“you are all very noisy” said Petra by covering both eyes.

“ehh, ta-but-“ says Lia stopped.

“go from here” firmly Petra

“a-what's wrong with you? Do you feel bad bad-“ said Lia terhut stop.

“you are also noisy” said Petra with his low tone.

“sorry if you think I'm your unemployed” said Lia standing next to the bed.

“finally you understand” Petra replied casually.

“hey Petra, you've gone too far!” snarled Issak with his emotions.

“you too, Issak” said Petra.

“you're not the Petra I know. Your words are too rude!” emma's Sage

“I don't care” Petra replied.

“sorry, I'm going to bathroom” said Lia walking out of the room.

“Lia, are you okay what?” tanya Issak walked over to Lia.

“you're too rough with Lia, Petra!” firmly Alex.

“i told you, I don't care” Petra replied.

“what is the matter with you. Why are you so different this time?” anna looked at Petra with a frightened look.

“don't mind me. Go eat downstairs and leave me alone here” Petra said.

“right Petra freak” said Lucas walked out of the room.

“you this time look very different, Petra” said Anna walking out of the room.

“actually what's wrong with you?” alex walked out of the room.

“somehow, I don't like Petra who is now” Emma said walking out of the room.

In the end, there was only Petra who was in the room.all her friends walked out of the room and left her a heart. Petra started to open her eyes, looking at the sky room sky and shedding her tears.

“i already have my own plan.still be the black color to fill the void in White Paper” Petra said as she wiped her tears.

- SERIATE