Come back to me
Weddings

Namira...

My eyes could not stop crying seeing you standing among the guests who came to my wedding, I knew your smile was just a mouthful of heartache that you were forced to smile hard.

This wedding is without my will.

A year of relationship I had with you. Always happy, laughing so good, so beautiful.

Having an understanding, loving, gentle husband is the dream of all women, not least I, Namira.

And all those qualities are in him, Argian.

But darling destiny is not on my side. The man sitting next to me, saying the wedding vows is not Argian.

An arranged marriage took away that happiness, the tears that broke today were not happy cries. It is only I who know how hard it is to let go of this, to let go of my love.

I can't do anything, I can't go against my parents' will, let this cry speak how hard it is to accept this.

*Since sitting in front of the ruler. Namira, not one bit trying to lift his head, Namira continued to hide the look of his face, the clear details soaked white kebaya coated with purple-masked flowers, behind the face Namira hid his sadness and heartbreak*

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Argians...

Namira, pretty girl nan ayu. Don't cry baby, !! it's your happy day, you have to smile even though I'm not the one sitting next to you.

A year is not enough for us, but we cannot be selfish. Your parents' choice, I'm sure he's the best..

Don't cry baby, !! today is your happy day.

As hard as I can, I tried to smile to let you get married to your parents' choice.

Happy, dear, happy !! kunanti good news about your life without me.

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A year we have lived the relationship, always happy always laugh without even thinking about parting because we love each other.

Three days ago, we celebrated our first anniversary (one year) very simply, but the happiness we felt was so incredible, I couldn't stop smiling happily, when he saw the happy laughter continue to decorate his face.

Namira, she is a woman who has a clear twinkle in her eyes, laugh cheerfully decorate her day, when she meets me instantly her lips will smile wide pulling some white colored cheeks.

When he saw me from a distance he would immediately run and hug me spoiled, how much his love for me was as great as my love for him.

But two days earlier, she returned from a small celebration for our relationship. Suddenly he called, his cry was more than his words, and with a cry I could not help saying "Argian. I was betrothed, and will be married."

Deggs..

My heart was like being squeezed and broken, the words were slicing through my mind, the cries were hurting my heart.

I wanted to cry like him and scream as hard as I could.

But not. I have to hold it as hard as I can, I don't want to add to Namira's heartache. "Honey.. Its alright. A soul mate is a destiny and belongs to anyone, Alloh SWT has prepared a soul mate for you, but that soul mate may not be me, don't cry baby, !! I'm fine I'm sure he's better able to make you happy"

The call that night ended my love story with Namira.

"I try to hold back my tears, I have to be strong, I believe I can." I said with a firm heart that clearly could not accept this fact.

After ending my conversation with Namira. I cried as I was, I cried out in frustration "I can't !! I can't, !!"

Red eyes with dark-colored petals, disheveled hair, chaotic footsteps, became my friend tonight.

Despite trying to let go of Namira, but it's not as easy as I imagined.

The message I did not reply.

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Today I stand at the back of the guests sitting. My eyeballs saw my lover in the arms of a middle-aged woman sitting beside a man who in a few minutes would officially become her husband.

Namira looked at me full of destruction. I myself felt the same way but still tried to smile for Namira's sake, I can't be salt on the wound.

Until the contract was over I was still standing in my place, then after Namira left the original place a few minutes later I sauntered away carrying my sorrows including a prayer for Namira's marriage "May your husband be better than me."

I walk weakly, my steps seem heavier than usual.

Today, this step, be a witness I let go of my love.

"Arm..!!" a woman shouted from behind, stopping my steps.

A woman with a white kebaya wrapped in her body ran to hug me, she cried as hard as she could in my arms.

"You can't cry baby" I erased the tears that wet his face.

Namira came back crying in my arms, I hugged her tightly.

Yeah, let's just say it's our last hug.

"I'm sorry.!!" he said weakly in his tears.

I stroked her hair, "Don't apologize honey you're innocent." Kuciumi had black hair for the last time.

"I beg you not to cry" I let go of his embrace and I washed away the tears that had soaked his cheeks.

"Please don't cry, !! don't make it hard for me to let go of you." My lips quivered saying that line holding back the heart that kept refusing to say this to Namira.

I hug her back who has officially become someone else's wife. "promise not to keep crying.!!"

Namira, she did not say a word she just kept crying as she pleased.

"Namira," I looked into her eyes. "Please promise to be happy, forget us so you can move forward into your future"

I kissed her head as a sign of separation. "Go to your husband and be happy,"

Namira's cry grew, with the weight of her hand.

Namira, she's still standing there as if counting my steps leaving her for good.

Stopping my steps and looking back at her, I hope Namira goes to her husband and forgets me, I never wish she was dissolved in this sadness, goodbye Namira goodbye goodbye my first love.

Namira Pov

*Argian, how can I be happy when that happiness has gone with you, you are my first love and you are taking away my love, where can I share it with others, despite the other person, he has now legally become my husband.

Argians.. Even though there was another man by my side. But in my heart there is only you*.

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Namiraaaaaa. I shout that name, I hope the world hears how much I love her.

Since the breakup, no more Namira voices have graced my mornings, afternoons, and evenings. My days are so quiet only the message of the operator who is always faithful to avoid notifications on my phone screen.

On here. Negri lion (Singaphore), witness how two years I can not forget it, even I still leave my heart empty without inhabitants, he said, no one tried to enter but my heart refused to anyone here.

Two years later....