DAD'S CHOICE OF MATE
Calling Ratna's name

As time went on, the happiness I had once achieved was now gone, she went along with the swift tears brought by the stream of grief.

My situation is not what it used to be, my once bright heart is cloudy. I stared at the ring of his gift that was coiled on the ring finger of my left hand made my tears drip and other memories_memories that I could not see.

I took out a small box_box that was inside my study desk drawer, I put all the gifts from her including this ring as the last gift from her.

Right at 15:45 after I prayed adzar, I headed to the sea not far from my sister's house housing and I threw the box into the sea. As soon as it weighs my hand to throw it, just as the weight of my heart separates from it.

I stared at the red box on the big waves that were getting smaller and smaller. I hope my feelings of love and love will soon disappear like the loss of the box_box was brought by the waves.

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I could not hold back my tears. Now that I'm an adult, I shouldn't have to dissolve into this kind of sadness. Mom and Dad stay with me. They never get bored of me.

I called Papa to tell him what I'm going through right now. But papa didn't give me the same response s’times, he just switched the conversation telling me to stay focused in my lesson because in a few days I'm a proposal seminar.

Although it hurts, but there are benefits for me as well. I need to stay focused on my seminar

Three days passed. Today is my seminar day, I have prepared my mind and my brain. Although I was still in turmoil but it did not hinder my spirit to take the test.

After I arrived at the campus, I saw Wiwi’ and Arwin waiting for my arrival. I immediately approached them, and Arwin gave me congratulations and prayers so that both would quickly follow.

I took my foot to the seminar room. Arwin helped me to install the LCD. After being ready I was told to pray that everything would go smoothly because it happened to be one of the lecturers as an audience in my seminar had not entered the room. I chatted_talked with other lecturers while waiting for another audience.

In the middle of my conversation, suddenly the waiting audience finally came. With the coldness of my heart as I looked at it, it seemed like that person was no stranger to my eyes. He is Mr. Arsyad, I never thought that he would be the audience at my seminar today. I try to be strong even though my heart is weak.

A few minutes later, after I explained all my seminar materials, the question rattled from the audience, and Mr. Arsyad at that time remained in his submission, while others asked his question. After I have completed the question, I tried to answer it according to my ability and understanding and Alhamdulillah everything is clear, but one question from Mr. Arsyad that makes me a little confused, it turned out that behind his bow he was thinking about a difficult question for me to answer, but I did not give up. I tried to answer him even though I wasn't sure that he would accept my answer because he liked to argue. All the responses were questions I answered even though my answer was not perfect.

Some time later after my seminar was over, there was a shooting session. Some pictures taken but not a single picture of Mr. Arsyad available. I am so grateful that he did not participate in this session.

I felt free from one of my burdens, finally my seminar was finished as well. It's time to continue my research.

As my research progressed in a pesantren, I felt calmer because I could share it with sister_sister. My research treats my gala taste.

I got a lot of changes during my research, the bad taste that I had been senung during this time is now slowly fading. I understand the beauty of life with many people, not just one person. Bringing a lot of people to my heart will make me happier.

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A month after my research, my script exam schedule was set and I will be a graduate this month. Good news for my parents and my other family.

A few days after my exam, I took the time to meet my parents and bring them this happy news. Unrelenting gratitude I keep saying, where God still gives me a chance to give them happiness.

A few days passed without any activities, I enjoyed my free day in my homeland and tomorrow I have to go again to prepare my graduation on campus.

I spread out invitations to all my relatives, as well as the lecturers_lecturers I knew. Arwin and Wiwi were one of my fellow students on campus but I preceded her to become a graduate.

Wiwi asked me about the invitation for the lecturers, and I replied that I had spread out invitations at the faculty to the lecturers I knew.

Tomorrow comes. I was in a very large and luxurious building, I held my hand and papa towards that place with great happiness.

This is the meaning of my sorrow, After I have drowned in sorrow, it is time for me to walk again on happiness.

Inside the building it feels full of endless delights. Names and values have been mentioned for the best graduates and it is time for the best graduates. I felt overwhelmed when my name was first mentioned with a GPA of 3.90. When the name of Princess Anindia Hasan was mentioned, papa and mama who sat in the front seat were no less excited. The audience at that time also joined in with applause. Behind the excitement they were hit with a happy day, they could not help but hold back their tears to see their spoiled youngest daughter become the best graduate of the university.

Thousands of graduates and graduates who are in the building only I was given the opportunity to represent them convey impressions and messages to the people who are competing in our lives.

I proudly stand before the audience of the families and parents of the graduates and graduates in this luxurious building to express gratitude to God, say thank you to our parents who always pray for us in every prostration, and also say hello to all lecturers_lecturers and our mentors on campus, and also to my brother and friends who always help us in times of distress.

Finally, I sang a special song to both my parents who were sitting straight on the stage where I was standing. In the middle of my song I could not hold back my tears that were none other than my tears of happiness. I walked up to them in their seats and kissed and hugged them, the people in the building were so moved to see our happiness.

After they got out of my arms, they sat back down and I knelt down before them and looked down where my mom's legs were and I kissed her. Heaven is on the soles of my mother's feet, after I have taken off her feet, I embrace her again and whisper to say a sense of acceptance for the umpteenth time, as well as I do for my beloved papa.

My makeup is no longer on my face, she is shed with tears. I'm not worried about that.

After the graduation ceremony was over in the building, I returned home with my extended family happily in my brother's red Agya car. Not to forget they were joking me about the continuation of my relationship with Arsy's sister, I haven't told them that we broke. My brother said that he said that Arsy came to the building to watch me on stage, but he couldn't stay for long because he said he had business.

I just threw my big smile at them and told them that he has been busy lately and the time has been a little bit for me.

I went back to lying in front of my family, but this lie also had a purpose to maintain my mood of happiness, because when I told you about it, it would make things worse. Although actually I have told papa, but at that time papa s’kali did not respond.

About half an hour later, we got home. Ayla who was sitting near me was deep in her sleep. I carried him in and laid him in my room.

The atmosphere of my brother's house at that time was very crowded with my invited guests. All my classmates came to celebrate my show.

Arwin and Wiwi were close friends of mine on campus, they asked about Arsy's whereabouts.

Where's Mr. Arsyad why didn't he show up.? Ask Arwin,

Maybe he was busy, I replied briefly.

Princess, you have an invitation right for her.? Ask Wiwi’.

I.i.iyya has.. I replied nervously and trying not to make things worse, I tried to divert the conversation, though they were suspicious.

I hope they don't worsen my mood of happiness today. I haven't told them about my problems because I'm too busy and don't have time to tell them about it, because I think it takes a good time and the atmosphere is supportive.

The atmosphere was increasingly crowded with the presence of all lecturers_lecturers who are familiar with me even those who are not familiar came to enliven it.

I felt very proud of them all, and what made me most proud when I saw the Dean's car stop in front of me, I stood up and kissed his hand as a sign of my respect for him.

I invite all the lecturer guests to come in immediately.

Some time later, suddenly the sound of a car stopping in front at home seemed familiar to my ears.

Want to not want me to go out and pick up who came, even though I already know but I pretend not to know so they do not suspect. Watching him get off his car with his never-changing appearance that always looks neat and clean. I just threw a smile at him and let him in. He also grabbed my right hand on the sidelines for a time that was not right for me. I let go of the ladder and told him to come in.

I thought he was a good man, although I was not like before but he never broke his friendship with my parents who were none other than his own family. If he were like any other man who had shame and tension, he would not have come to my show, but he thought how unwell he was when he did not come to see my parents who were happy with my happiness. I don't think he came because of me, but because of papa and the rest of the family.

How excited they were with their jokes in the living room. The dean and other lecturers_docents were also cool with the conversation with my father and my two brothers.

I feel very lucky. I hope this continues for my next show_contact. I will take their pride. Struggling and continuing to fight to reach the point of success, this is just the path to my success. Processes, struggles, prayers and efforts that will help me and success will await me to reach it.

A month after I Graduated, a teacher at a boarding school invited me to work with him, and I was also a mentor. The course was none other than the course set up by brother Arsy with his friends_alumni, but he was not very active there because of some things and he left it to his friend brother Arfan. The course is called The In’crease Skill Course. I thought hard about rejecting the offer. But my heart is also very heavy to receive it, but they actually need me, what does my knowledge mean if I only fit in my brain. With a heavy heart I accept it, this is all because of my pity for the members_membernya who need knowledge.

Although this is a light and small job but I think this is the beginning of my work, it is not that easy to get a job that is immediately big, everything starts from small. Like the self is not directly big, at first we were small first. So too with success, starting small.

On the sidelines of my teaching time at the course, do not forget also I take time for my junior_junior at campus. Although there are actually my successors in the community that I founded some time ago but it will not reduce my indifference to them.

I have the right to visit them even once in two weeks or a month.

I feel like I have a lot of free time if I'm just busy with both of my hangouts. I tried to insert the file on the same radio station s’kali not connect with my majors, but actually it's my main goal as a worker in the world of broadcasting and if I'm accepted I will make it a lesson and also experience in the world of broadcasting. So that someday I feel experienced with broadcasting work, so I am not insecure to try on the TV station later.