
The breeze in the morning hit the leafy leaves, the sound of birds singing merrily with the sound of waves crashing against the rock, the sound was like a melodic rhythm on the beautiful beach. Tourists and tourists have filled Kuta beach. Morning sunlight enters through the window of the room, a beautiful woman rubs her eyeballs, her lashes come up as the eyelids open wide. The woman's eyes highlighted the entire room which to her was very foreign.
"Where am I? whose room is this? Wasn't I in the hospital then Who brought me here?! so many questions in Vana's mind, of course he was very surprised when he was in a place he had never seen before. Especially now that he was on a size king bed. White wall color dominates the blue sky, the smell of nightly flowers feels warm in the room.
"Whose room is this? Oh my God, what happened to me? I really can't remember anything taking me away from the hospital."
The woman was silent, her brain was working hard to remember the events that befell her until she ended up in this place. "Am I dreaming? the woman patted her cheek and pinched her own arm.
"Aawww!
The girl was suffocating as her pinch hurt. "No! I'm not dreaming anymore.Who brought me here? is it Vano or Dev?! thought.
"I'd better get out of bed and look for them." When Vana wanted to get off the bed, suddenly his legs could not be moved, his legs were very weak even just to lift.
"Yes God! what the hell happened to me?! why are my legs so limp and powerless?! suddenly Vana's chest felt tight, tears had wet her cheeks.
CLENCH!
The sound of the door opening, Vana turned towards the open door
"Sir Vano! suddenly Vana's eyeballs perfectly rounded when he saw a handsome man enter and walk towards him.He really did not believe and thought Vano was the one who took him away.
"You're awake?! the man smiled gently while carrying food and a glass of milk in his hand.
"KA-U....." Suddenly Vana's voice choked, her tongue was faint and her throat was dry. Her lips were hard to valve because of the overwhelming shock.
The man put a tray of food on the nightstand and sat down on the edge of the bed. "Why? do you remember me?
Instantly the girl retreated slowly and moved away, "Have you left behind?! blow it with a stammering voice
Nathan shook his head quickly "As you see now, I'm fine and in front of you. Means I'm not dead" he said with a look in my eyes.
"No! you're dead already! to me you are no longer in this world!" vana screams suddenly with a trembling voice.
"Deg!
As Nathan's heart throbbed bitterly, he did not expect the woman he loved with all his heart to have even sacrificed so much for him to say he was dead.
"Alea.. Why would you say that? don't you miss me? I am waiting here every day, every day I miss you, waiting for this day to come and finally we can live together."
Vana's tears kept flooding her face, then stared cynically at the man who once filled her heart "But you are evil, you have kidnapped me from my family! I didn't expect you to be that cruel!!"
Nathan let out a long sigh and in his slow breath "I'm sorry, my selfishness has hurt you. There is no intention of wanting to hurt your heart, I just want to take care of you. I don't want you to get hurt, I can't watch you suffer." Nathan said with teary eyes.
Vana shook her head weakly "What do you expect from me again, I'm just a son of a murderous father, it even feels like I can no longer look you in the face, I don't want my feelings of guilt to get deeper into you!"
"No Alea, you never say that. I don't feel like I have a grudge against your family." Nathan tries to grab Vana's hand, but the woman stays away.
"I beg you to give me back to my family, and then forget me forever" she asked with trembling lips
Again Nathan shook his head quickly "No Lea, I don't want to be away from you. It's so hard to get close and see you in the hospital. Let me take care of you for a while!
"Silk! you think I'm who you are? your sister or your family! no Nathan I don't want to! don't make my guilt go deeper! hyx...
Nathan pulled Vana's hand and tried to hug her, but Vana was so stubborn and brushed off the man in front of her, reflexing that she retreated and suddenly fell to the floor because there was no balance.
"Let go, never touch me! vana yelled as she pushed Nathan's body. The blue-eyed man froze with a flat gaze, his heart already hurting many times with Vana's words blatantly rejecting him. Is he going to give up? nay! Nathan does not want to give up, he has sacrificed a lot and has gone so far, he will patiently wait until Vana opens his heart back to him.
When Vana wanted to stand up, again his legs felt weak, because upset he beat his legs many times. "I hate myself, why does this have to happen to me! hyx...
"Lea don't do that! Nathan grabs both hands, Vana violently pulls him back "What do you care about me for, you see for yourself don't you? even my legs can't move, why do you still hope for you! hyx... Vana covered her face with both hands.
Nathan's heart was so sliced when he saw the suffering of his beloved woman, for so many times, he really did not have the heart. But he can do what if Vana starts to hate him and does not want his presence.
"I'm sorry Alea, I took you away for your own good. I don't want your family to know the truth, if you're paralyzed from that night's fighting. I know your family's in a lot of trouble, I don't want them to get hurt by your current situation. However, I was once part of your family, and eventually we had to separate because of the hostility and selfishness of our parents. I promised myself that I would heal you, because my love is so great." Nathan said softly, Nathan muttered in his heart.
"Go....!!!
"I beg you to go!! yelled Vana while crying sobbing.
"I'll take you up to bed and you'll have to eat first."
Vana shook her head strongly "I'm not as weak as you think, I can still handle it on my own without anyone's help! screeched Vana with a sharp eye.
"Now go...."
Without having Vana plead many more times, Nathan stood up and looked compassionately at the woman he loved, indeed he did not have the heart to leave the girl herself in a state of slump. But he must be able to follow the wishes of the woman so that Vana can think calmly.
"Alright I'll go, if there's anything tell me. There is a remote control on the nightstand and do not forget to eat so that your condition is not weak anymore" Nathan said before leaving.
Nathan took a deep breath and left the room feeling guilty.When Vana held his chest tight, he continued to cry and cursed his fate.
'Why should this happen to me, God! my legs can't be moved!!! hyx...
Vana looks at the door that Nathan "Nathan has closed! why do you have to come back when I'm like this? I've had so much trouble forgetting you, even if our memories won't be forgotten. But my guilt is so great to you, because my Daddy told people to kill you. I thought you were really gone and would never come back, but in fact? hiks. You're alive again. I don't know with my feelings whether it's sad or happy with your presence." murmured Vana spoke to herself.
"Is there still love in my heart?! the girl felt her chest beating, but how could I love a man who was once hurt by my father? although he said there was no grudge, but seeing the twinkle in his eyes, Nathan was lying."
Vana crawled towards the window, then looked at the sea off from the window of her room with mixed feelings. now she already knew where she was at the moment. Suddenly he remembered his family. Vana misses mommy and Daddy. Missing Vano, Savira and Zidane. Remembering Zidane's youngest brother who had been kidnapped, his heart was again injured and torn apart.
"Zidan! forgive brother Vana! hyx..
Guilt has made Vana weak and helpless, what if her family knows that she is not in the hospital? how would both parents and brother feel if he disappeared. Vana can only curse herself and regret Nathan's actions.
"Zidane, where are you now? sister Vana misses very much, forgive the brother who has made you kidnapped." Vana's regrets are endless, she continues to cry and feel guilty. now her life has been destroyed, she is devastated, he was paralyzed and felt it was his karma. Vana also realized that she did not want her family to know the truth if she was paralyzed, she felt insignificant in her life. Vana's eyes looked at the glass containing the white milk Nathan had brought.
Vana crawled towards the nightstand and took the glass filled with milk. "Well, I will drink this milk one last time.my life is no longer useful." he murmured.
The milk in the glass was already in the toilet he drank, then Vana smashed the glass onto the floor. Vana was really desperate, no matter what was on her mind at the moment, even the demons were laughing happily. Vana should have been happy with the presence of Nathan her first Love, however, seeing the blue-eyed handsome man instead made her feel guilty for herself.
Vana picked up the broken glass from the floor with her hands shaking and she began to slash it to her wrists.
"Goodbye mommy, Daddy, Brother Vano, Savira, Zidane. I'm sorry I have to go, there's no point in me living." Vana's tears kept falling along with the scratches on her wrists that were painful.
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