Don'T Kill My Reality
Abandoned
Go ...
He went ...
God why is this sick ...
God what ..... What's my fault ??!!...
One by one they left me here ....
Alone ....
It is very painful ....
Test ....
Tess ....
Tess ....
Tesss ....
The glasses girl's tears fell very hard and hurt some of the files and work black bags that she was carrying were just sluggishly stooped beside her, he was sitting weakly on the sidewalk watching the departure of the only person he trusted in the world...
The look of pity from the people around who pass by does not make him upset because tired of the problems that occur today ...
Just by saying sorry his childhood sweetheart left him like throwing useless trash on the side of the road.
His heart crumpled dimly withstanding the overflow of emotions of grief that was very sad.
What is less than him ??...
All the things in his life he has given to the person he loves so much ....
What's wrong ???...
Or is it because the one thing he takes care of most in his body he does not give it to him ?!...
She is not a cheap woman but she is also not a holy woman !!...
Even though he really loves the figure of Mark but he still has a sane side and principles in his brain.
Slowly he rose up exhaling slowly and wiped the rest of his tears behind the glasses that covered his eyes while looking down right in front of his feet a letter of invitation...
Engagement events ...
Yes, his lover prefers a beautiful woman and may be rich as equal to him ...
Miris indeed, thinking about the facts behind them maybe she will not be able to withstand the outpouring of emotions and tears that begin to gather again in her eyes ...
How foolish he had been lied to blindly ...
Believe in all his words...
He should have known ... he should have slapped the man while he was at the restaurant ...
But since when ???!!
Thought's dead-end.
He's fucked.
Staggering like a dazed person he walked home to the apartment simply ignored the gaze of those around him who saw his super messy makeup looks like a white loose work shirt that looks seedy and dirty because of the incident with her hair out.
From a distance on the side of the road was seen a black luxury car in it sat a man in a formal suit looking at the woman, then smiled obliquely at the situation experienced by the little woman, the little woman, he saw what happened to the woman from beginning to end.
why are women always stupid when faced with such disgust ?!!..
and somehow the man felt annoyed at the woman because of the response she gave to the man who was clearly hurting the woman.Seeing the tiny shaky shoulders then walked blankly, walking, the man just stared coldly at the passing of the figure of the woman who was drowning in bodies passing by.
"Ck stupid woman ... find her identity .. make her come to me ..", the cold commandment of the man that made his subordinates break out in cold sweat.
His subordinate looked pitiful to the woman.
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He casually got into the taxi.
But, midway back, he saw a mark car parked on the edge of a prestigious women's clothing store.
Is the outfit for me??, thought lucia happy.a sweet smile formed on her lips. He stops his taxi, intending to come find clothes for Mark as well.
But, he had to be speechless when he saw Mark coming out of the store along with the other women.
Shopping bags, happy smiles, and the look of admiration and envy from the employees there. He did not want negative thoughts to dirty his mind, asked one of the employees there.
"who are those two??" asked lucia.
"they???. hahah like lovers, look very rarely I see there is a loyal man in the woman, they have also become VIP guests of this place, Mrs. what do you need ??", ask the officer.
" No, no" replied lucia stiffly.
And until that incident, he was too tired to digest everything.
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A simple minimalist apartment looks neat and comfortable with objects placed in the right place and not excessive it. Lucia just passed by, she walked towards her room. After putting all her stuff, she took a shower to clean herself.
Out of the bathroom, a fresh face is seen from this tiny woman by just wearing a piece of towel wrapped around her body is much different from her appearance when wearing glasses.
Moist facial skin reddish due to exposure to warm water vapor while bathing makes his cheeks look very supple and young with natural dense eyelashes and willow eyebrows are formed neatly if every day he did not cover it with old-fashioned glasses that scattering cover part of his face, without him knowing maybe the view of other humans will be different.
All of that happened because of the poison of speech he had received from childhood.
Lucia picked up a random t-shirt that sank her body and immediately put it on then casually combed her long black hair.
He walked slowly towards his mini kitchen heating up a bit of ready-to-eat canned food.
Her tiny body slowly brought the bowl of food and brought it to the living room.
While watching tv he ate his food ....
Until a sudden trending news made her more shocked and weak, seeing the news was no longer appetite for her stomach.
In the news broadcast of the rumor was seen her lover ahh not her ex-lover Mark kissed the up-and-coming artist Jessie.
They were photographed paparazzi while dating a few weeks ago in a friendly restaurant and were seen shooting cameras showing them kissing beside a car, too, looking at the background of the place looks like Mark who drove jessie home and as if they both let the paparazzi photograph the friendly activities without shame.
Lucia curled up alone in a dark corner. All the items in his room had been messy including one small bottle of white medicine that was splattered everywhere.
He looked at his cell phone not far from him.
I wish the phone would ring.
I hope the phone turns on soon.
But he still received nothing from her.
Lucia hugged herself. He wanted to reach for Mark's leg, when the man left but all he got was a hard slap on his cheek.Even the pain and bruising at the corner of his lips was still there. But, he will still reach for the man's feet even he will ask him to stay...
Blank...
His head is throbbing pain...
It was cold, it felt so terrible that everything was no better.
Again.
The white tranquilizers entered his body.