Dreaminations
Again

Suddenly I heard a scream. Like there was a fight. It was so noisy it woke me up in the middle of the night. About half-time 12pm.

I opened my eyes slowly, trying to see what was happening, I rubbed my eyes.

My mom and dad are fighting again.

I don't know what they're talking about, I really don't understand.

What's the problem?, it doesn't sound obvious in my ears, because I'm still in a daze for a while.

I heard them say a few times about divorce. I tried to open my eyes wide, collecting lives as quickly as possible.

"We're divorced!"

"Yaudha Divorce!"

"I'm out of here!!"

What's the matter? Shouldn't they fight no more.

I've asked them not to divorce, and they promised me.

And again the time of their divorce was not over and it should have been over?

"Then what is this? What's the matter?"

I have to stop this.

"ENOUGH!"

I screamed and stopped their quarrel, I held my mother to pack her things.

"Why are you fighting again?!"

"Where are you going?"

"Mama want to leave ana with sister?"

My mom was silent for a while and then she packed her stuff again.

"Ma's answer?!" I shouted with a wiggle of my mother's tank.

"Pa don't let my mom go" I yelled at my dad and pulled his hand.

My sister she cried and held my mother's hand.

"Anna same sister yes, mama go first" in a soft voice and slightly trembling.

"No ma!" tungkasku.

"Paa stopin mom!" back again I pleaded with my father, but there was no response.

Then my father answered coldly.

"With your mama gone, papa would rest, you would sleep there."

"Not pa hiks.." My brother could only cry afterwards.

"Ma don't go!" shouted my brother.

I held my mother's hand holding her all my might in front of the door. Until I got down on my knees begging him to stay. I cried until I had trouble breathing. My hand was taken off by my mother, when I wanted to chase after her, suddenly my father was holding me back.

It was raining heavily, lightning was striking and the wind was very hard.

"GRAMPINK.. JEDER..."

"AHH..." I was surprised by the sound of lightning. With a face that was alkaline due to the tears themselves added with the sound of lightning that shocked me, making my heart beat faster.

It was tight, it hurt, it hurt so much, it felt like I wanted to explode, my heart hurt so much. My heart beats so fast. My tears come out nonstop. My brother and I kept calling my mother.

"Yes......!" "Maa..?!!"

I was so bad at that time. I couldn't help but cry. I felt my strength was gone, the energy within me was so drained away.

In this state I was devastated, more broken than in the old life.

I wonder why it didn't work out, I guess when I held them, and past the time of their divorce, everything was done.

But...~ all of them only held back fate for a while.

"AAARRGHHHHHHHHHH....."

Suddenly my head hurts. It all feels spinning. My vision feels blurry. Everything looks blurry.

There was a shock, a lot of things fell to the floor.

"What's the earthquake?" ask absentminded.

Then I fell down, I lay on the floor, the floor was cold, my vision was a little blurry, I tried to blink my eyes so that my vision would not blur.

For a moment I vaguely saw a wall clock falling before my eyes, showing at 12:01 p.m.

I remember stepping on my birthday.

I was surprised. It should have been a happy day for me, but it's been a very sad day.

"Is this just a trick?" ask me in a daze.

"Yes it must be, haha" I said with a feeling of excitement and doubt.

"Papa, pa , ma? brother??, where are you?" ask me in a slow voice.

"you're going to bring the cake here, right".

"don't joke anymore".

No one answered me at all.

My consciousness started to blur, I heard a voice. I know that voice called my name.

"Is that my mom or my dad?"

"whose voice is that?"

I can't identify whose voice it is, whether it's a man or a woman, I don't know.

Dianna's..~~~

Dianna's.~~~

Dianna's.~~~

His voice began to faintly disappear.

Then it's dark, everything's dark. I don't know what happened to me. I can't feel anything. Only my mind works.

A few moments later.

I started to hear voices again.

"KRING... KRING... CRINGE.."

Suddenly I woke up. I was in my house where this was the time when my father and mother were divorced.

And that's the sound of a greasy morning alarm. I was shocked and jumped out of bed.

"Here,, I-I why? In here?"

I was shaking, my voice was weak, I was even stammering. My heart is still beating.

I looked at the calendar and realized I was at 6 years after my father and mother divorced.

Today is my birthday.

I was surprised what this is really about.

This confuses me.

"what's wrong with me" I asked by clenching my hands on my chest and sitting on the floor.

As I cried, I cried considering all the events that happened on my birthday.

"Hyx.... Hicks.."😭🤕

I was really crying, so happy that I felt claustrophobic, my chest was pinched, my heart broken.

It was like something was stabbing constantly into my heart until it felt so painful.

Trying to wake myself up by slapping my face a few times

Confused and almost crazy, if I didn't feel any pain, I honestly think I'd be completely crazy by now.

"I'm crossing again !?"

"WHY?!"

Crossing over for the second time, who did not feel all this was just an illusion.

I cried with my voice, shut my mouth tightly, so as not to be heard by my father and my brother.

It's getting sicker.

Really sick.

I was played with by destiny. I can't think anymore, I can only cry.

I let out all the sadness I was experiencing. All exploded at the same time.

I tried to calm myself.

I tried to stop crying.

"But I can't."

I wonder why, why the result is like this.

Thinking about it really gives me a headache.

"Is this really real life?"

"What is this, God?"

I asked with a whimpering voice.