
“You must be strong! Not that Papa will ask you to work hard. But because Papah can't wait to make you happy!” inner Sham.
From the door glass of the NICU room, Syam tearfully watched his two children. “Papah make sure, you will feel happiness that Papah has never felt. Happiness that so far so Papah even all children want!” the Sham again. His determination to make his children happy was very unanimous. He hopes that his children will be healthy soon. She hopes that her children, especially her son whose breathing is still troubled, will soon be free from all pain.
“Let Papah alone be sick. You guys never get sick!” More than small, Syam has been sick too often. Sham knows what those wounds feel like. Wounds that not everyone will feel, so he is not willing if his children to feel it.
In different places, Love is still pumping. The amount he produced was not too much. There's only sixty milliseconds, and it's really been his maximum pump.
“Excuse me, good afternoon?” greet a new sister who came and was very polite.
The love that was originally staring sadly at the bottle of ash, immediately disturbed. The love reflex smiled awkwardly then looked at the nurse.
Actually, there is nothing to worry about. But counted since being imprisoned, Love who so feel hi-na, deliberately closed himself. Love so unusual to interact with others let alone strangers.
“Wah ... already have breast milk for Hasna and Hasan?” said the sister suddenly excited.
“Hasna and Hasan? What does the sister mean? He's wrong what's wrong?” thought Love was deliberately tidying up her ice pump.
Love purposely divided the sixty milliseconds he produced into two small pacifiers.
As it turned out, Hasna and Hasan became the names that Sham gave to their twins. Syam takes all decisions without permission or knowledge of Love. Love knows the news from the nurse who is checking the state of Love.
“Thank you any name, Syam don't say anything. Or not yet?” love that intends to make sure. But once again, Cinta appreciates the enthusiasm of her husband who cares deeply for their twins.
“Nothing, Bun. Usually early, most mothers who just gave birth can only produce a little breast milk. But the more often breastfeeding or pumping, God willing, the acid will be smoother and even more abundant!” said the sister because Cinta who until now still wears a veil, looks very sad looking at two bottles of pacifiers filled with ash.
Love nodded. “Iya, Sus. Thank you very much. In a moment, I try the pump again so that it gets smoother. Thank you, I can also immediately breastfeed directly.”
Hearing that, the sister immediately smiled. “Insyaallah, soon well, Bun. Alhamdullilah, guarded by his papa, their progress is really very rapid! God willing too, the support of the children papah, also make Mother's breast abundant!”
Offended the support of Syam to him, Love immediately clumsy. Of support? Let alone support, in every meeting let alone together, Syam seemed very eager to ridicule him.
About ten minutes later, Cinta really went straight back to trying to pump her asia. However, instead of smoothly, he who is actually in pain, actually found the results of his pump until accompanied by dara-h.
“Innalilahi, this how? Safe, no? It's asi I'm not healthy what?” crying Love immediately panicked. Love is really scared.
What makes Cinta surprised is not playing, the arrival of someone and it turns out that Syam, to make the door of the ward open.
“You mean just that little love, to Hasna and Hasan what?!” the anger of Syam makes the Love that is crying, trembling. However, he doesn't care at all. Because until any time, for him the tears of Love are only the tears of ibli-s.
“Humanian little, can, right? This is all I'm still trying. But the more tried, just until there is blood. If I could love so much, I would love everything. Why do I count to children, let alone I know, they really rely on me!” crying Love. “Try now, use your money to get the best breast milk for kids, can not?!” Love felt very messed up and ended up busy Istighfar. Istighfar became faster, when he realized, that he had not had time to close his chest. The love that convinced Syam to see the passage there, hurriedly turned its back on him.
“Terus, .. how can you make a lot of milk?” sergah Sham is really serious. However, the Love that kept her back, did not give her a definite answer. Love only he hears sniffling.
“I beg you, please be more humane. Now that the mons-ter isn't anymore, I. But it is you,” said Cinta with a heavy voice and still turn your back on Syam.
As before, this time Syam was also silent. Due to the distance of their existence that was only two meters away, he could still hear a bit of Love very clearly.
“You've given the children a name? I'm really grateful. But in the future, let's get used to discussing everything together before making a decision,” said Cinta without significant change.
“Let us however, we are married. So at any moment, Hasna and Hasan's parents, not just me. Their parents are not just you. Because of their parents, we. They don't just need one of us. They really need us completely. We have to take care of them, together.” True love says that. He buried his ego. He was willing to fight the trauma that Sham had inflicted on him.
“Our wedding is different!” sham sounds heavy. Syam is deep.
That instant also Love frowned. “Different?” his mind was guessing. However, it was not a good thing that instantly graced his mind. Unless otherwise.
“The reason I married you is not because I love you much less love you so much. The reason I keep forcing you to marry me is also not because I care.”
“Nothing has hurt this, yes Allah,” Inner Love so often hold your breath. Her tears still wet the veil.
“My reason for marrying you, purely so that you do not meru-sak household boss Helios or household Akala again. They're already very happy. So please know yourself!”
“After knowing my reasons, you should no longer expect me. Because even though Hasna and Hasan have been around, nothing has changed!” emphatically Sham. Not wanting to deal with Love for a long time, he deliberately hurried away from there. Like his arrival, he also made the door stupefied.
The reason Syam really makes Love mentally hurt. Love is getting harder to pull over from the crying let alone the sadness. But self-conscious love, that her past has already made her despicable, tries to accept.
“I used to waste Akala being so gentle and always sincere to me, just because Akala was not as rich as Helios. Then, I also wasted Helios who besides being rich but also was acutely soiled to me, just because she was caca-t. But now, I actually get Sham, and I realize, this is real karma that I get from all my fatal mistakes in the past.”
“So, how can they especially be sure, I have really changed? How can I make them sure, but in their eyes I am always wrong?”