Grudge from Paralyzed Husband
Chapter 2

"Azwar, look at you now. If you'd listened to Mama and not married her, maybe your fate wouldn't be like this." Mama pulled out the only plastic chair in this rented room, then sat down opposite me.

A very heavy sigh was heard coming out from Mama's lips. His eyes were softly staring at me, with a look of pity.

I haven't seen Mama's face in nearly 10 years. Ever since I cut off all ties with him and chose to live with Rahma, we have never met since.

Often in the third of the night, I dream of that shady face. But my ego is bigger than longing. To close all desires, even if just want to look and make sure it is okay.

"You miss Mama?" Mama looked at me intensely. The female net bead that gave birth to me looked teary. But he seems to be trying to stay arrogant, maybe to look strong in front of me. 

I wanted to nod, then run and rest at my feet. To ask forgiveness for all my deeds and sins that I have committed against him. Didn't ignoring it for more than 10 years was a big sin?

"Mama actually misses. But somehow Mama still can't forget all the swearing and swear words that you said to Mama first, to defend the woman." Mama took a deep breath. Blinking the old netra several times, trying to dispel tears so as not to drip.

'Mama, forgive me. I'm sorry.' Batinku.

Tears slowly dripped down the cheeks. Regrets are now. Why did I make such a fatal decision. But who knows about the future. I never thought my fate would be like this.

"But, a mother's sobriety to her child, the affection and love she has remains much greater." Mama touched my hair softly.

"Ehm .., um ..." I tried to move my hand, I wanted to touch Mama's hand. But what power, the stroke I suffered made me unable to do as I wished.

"Mama still harbors heartache. But Mama also doesn't accept if your only child is treated like this." Mama hugged me softly. His shoulders were shaking slowly. I predict Mama is crying. 

I don't know why my chest is throbbing pain. My heart is like being sliced open, sore! The events of 10 years ago. The events when I hurt her heart, in order to fulfill my high ego.

What is happening to me right now is karma. Reply because it hurt Mama so much.

"Mama's sorry, Azwar. For letting you live this miserable life for the past 2 years" whispered Mama slowly.

*****

"Where are they going?" Mom asked a question to a man standing in front of us.

"To Bali, Madam. They plan to honeymoon for 3 days there." The man handed me some photos of Rahma and her new husband when Ijab kabul yesterday.

"Don't you feel insulted, Azwar? Your wife prefers this mediocre-looking guy, and abandoned you?"

"Ehm .., um ...," 

"This is the data of the people who yesterday came as the rulers and false witnesses. It turns out, they were the male relatives of Nandar's name." The man handed a blue map to Mama.

"So they're all fake?"

"Not everyone, Madam. There's still real witnesses, people living around here."

"Didn't they know about yesterday's fake marriage?" 

"They know. But to their knowledge, Rahma is a widow."

"Did they not know about Azwar's whereabouts here? How could they consider a woman a widow."

"Rahma recognizes Mr. Azwar, as her brother."

My heart is throbbing pain. Tega once Rahma admitted me as her brother. No neighbors around here forbid yesterday's marriage.

"Squeaky. Indeed, the local pamong did not ask about the documents or identity cards of the woman and Azwar, when he first moved here?"

"Rahma ..., giving false documents."

"fast. No one is suspicious and forbids fake marriages yesterday." Mom smiled. "Sneaky and clever."

"It's a good thing you don't have children with him, Azwar. Mama's sure, if you had a child, you'd have inherited your wife's crafty nature." 

"Now what, Madam?" The man looked at me and Mama in turn.

"We're taking Azwar home, but don't let the woman know. Make it, like Azwar just disappeared without a trace, or make a fake death for him." Mama looks at me pity.

"Take care of everything, Robi. Do everything as clean and perfect as possible. I'll take Azwar away for treatment. While waiting for Azwar to make a full recovery, we devise a plan to take revenge on the cunning woman ...."