HANDSOME RENTERNIR FOR SOYA
Chapters 15. Soya's Sadness

Zulhan who had seen Soya since then could only remain silent, staring at the dewy Netra Soya and Zulhan knew Soya was trying to hold back her tears from falling in front of Zulhan. "Soya, just rest, lock the door and all Soya needs to remember, take care of Mom," Zulhan said as he passed.

After the departure of Zulhan Soya immediately locked the door, the crying that had been trying to hold Soya down finally came down as well, "Mom, what Soya should do," said Soya tergugu behind the door, soya's tired body was now sitting curled up behind the door with her cries. Many times Soya tries to regulate the heart, trying to master the circumstances that in fact really corner Soya. "Huuff .. "only this keeps coming out of Soya's lips until some time Soya is still sitting with a huff.

Until the small cough of Mother Soya chose to stand towards the mother's room, Soya currently only needs calm, Soya chose to infiltrate and embrace the body of the Mother, Soya said, Soya stared fixedly at the beautiful face that now looks skinny and unkempt. "Mom, only one wish Soya, accompany Soya until Soya is able and can pass all this Bu," said Soya softly and closed his eyes.

Until the morning before Soya woke up when he felt the grasp of the hand of the Mother that Soya felt so tightly, Soya with a gurgle trying to neutralize his gaze, while Soya was surprised when he looked at the face of the mother who looked pale.

Soya, slowly trying to release his hand from the grasp of the Mother, "Mom, Soya will not go anywhere, why Mother holds Soya's hand tightly," said Soya who is still not aware of the condition of the mother.

"Mom!" call Soya while waking up from her sleep. Soya is surprised when her hands are so difficult to take off and she does not respond to Soya's calls and Soya's hand movements. "Mom, don't scare Soya. Mom, get up," said Soya slowly.

Many times Soya shook the body of the mother. "Mom. No-no, don't be like this Mom," said Soya in disbelief when she realized the condition of the mother. "Mom, why do I have the heart to Soya, why do I not approve of Soya's wishes, why Mother .. Soya's speech stopped and examined the mother's pulse. Ms. .." Soya's crying now filled the room, Soya could not believe that at this time the mother had passed away, Soya could now only embrace the body of the mother who was lying lifeless.

Soya's regret is increasingly in the heart, "Mom, why Mother chose to leave Soya and let Soya face everything herself, Soya is unable to if she has to bear this burden herself, Mom, then where and to whom Soya will look for a place to calm Soya's heart," said Soya on the sidelines of his cries.

Soya repeatedly angry and continued to regret the body of the mother in front of him. Until midday Soya only realized all the circumstances that occurred, slowly Soya stood up and stepped out, opening the door wide still with nervous Soya trying to ask for help from the nearest neighbor.

Soya could only sit quietly in front of the body of the mother who was in the cafeteria, even three months of the death of the Father turned out the Mother chose to accompany the Father. Soya's tears are now not shed anymore, at this time only a hurt look, Soya is so heartbroken by the departure of the Mother. The funeral was quickly completed.

Soya's slow steps with a blank look made Zulhan always follow Soya's steps from behind. "Soya" call Zulhan at last. Soya only turned a glance and walked back without answering and making a sound and ignored Zulhan just like that. Soya's steps stopped when entering the house, "Kak Zulhan just go home, at this time Soya wants to be alone," said Soya slowly and shortly closed the door and locked it.

Soya just sat curled up staring blankly, the sadness that Soya felt became more and more when the events of last night were now clearly reflected in his memory.

I don't know, what is currently going through Soya's mind, the pain and disappointment are now clearly visible from Soya's face, but Soya's eyes stare sharply and full of anger while Soya's lips smile cynically. Soya now chose to stand up, cleaning the body until shortly afterwards Soya had come out with a fresher face. For a moment Soya stared at the house that Soya lived in, but Soya could only smile bitterly. Sitting pensively in the room, Soya's daydream is scattered when she hears knocking at the door repeatedly, without Soya lazily heading to the living room and peeking through the tightly closed curtains. Soya only took a quick look and chose to let the knocking of the door keep repeating and stopped by itself.

Soya chose to sit down and take the mukena, slowly Soya offered a prayer for the mother, until the night before Soya just finished his prayer. "sorry. Ma'am, if only this prayer can be sent, Soya sincerely Bu and may Mother calm down" said Soya slowly.

Soya is still reluctant to leave her place, currently the most comfortable place and make Soya calm is the room. Soya can only erode the tears that suddenly fell back, "may there be sustenance that can cover all the debts of the Father, if not just what this house that Soya sells, but ..." soya's speech stopped just like that, now Soya chose to sleep curled up on the prayer mat.

The state of the house is quiet and in his solitude Soya is aware of the many burdens and responsibilities that Soya will shoulder. "Soya you should be able and strong," Soya muttered as she fell asleep in the end.

Early in the morning, Soya realizes this is the first morning for Soya without her mother, but Soya now does not want to continue to dissolve in sadness, quite a lot of sadness that Soya must feel, Soya said, at this moment in Soya's mind, Soya must get up and work hard. Starting this morning Soya just wants to clean the house, clean all the old items untouched hands to clean.

A knock at the door again rang out, Soya lazily peeked through the curtains, Soya only stayed for a moment to shun who came. "Sir Zulhan," Soya quietly muttered and opened the door of the house.

"What's wrong?" soya asked while standing at the door. "Soya, this is from Mom, eat for breakfast" Zulhan said as he handed her a bag of neatly wrapped food crackles.

"Soya, after this lock the door and do not mind anyone who knocks on the door of Soya's house, do not work first, Soya is still in a period of mourning," said Zulhan slowly.

"Sister Zulhan go and remember Kak Zulhan's message."

Soya immediately nodded and then closed the door and locked it, "thank you, Brother Zulhan," said Soya softly.