Heart Shield.
56. Unstable.
"Iva, I'm sorry."
"Yes Bang" Iva replied as she passed and Bang Ricky grabbed her hand.
"Abang will try to improve his attitude, will also try to be a good husband and father for you and Isy." Bang Ricky's Promise.
"Is it too beautiful for Nindy's figure that you can't forget?"
"The gate will never forget him. Nindy was pregnant with her son up to now Brother doesn't know where she is. Nindy is the mother of my son"
Iva bowed and fell silent no longer dared to say anything about Nindy in front of Bang Ricky.
Bang Ricky understood Iva's feelings, and he kissed her forehead. "Can't talk like that anymore. I promised you I would try to love you. You and Nindy are both brother's wives. Dear brother of all of you" persuaded Bang Ricky then hugged Iva. First hug since he married Iva.
'Lord, please forgive me for not being able to love Iva the way I love Nindy. My heart is only adrift for my wife Nindy. Lord, if You please, Your servant will not tire. Find me with my wife Nindy, as with anything and as much pain as she is. I will still love her, will not subside my love for the mother of my son. Imperfect me will accept with sincerity the first woman you give me.'
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Bang Hara tries to talk to Bang Ricky but as usual, Bang Ricky moves on and does not want to meet his face.
"Until when does your attitude continue to be cold like this. I admit, I was wrong Bang."
"The pain in your heart will never go away. Brother lost a very dear woman." Answer Bang Ricky.
"If lives have to change, please take my life. I've also been tormented for years that this incident really pressured my inner bang"
"I'm not that cute Hara, your wife is pregnant young. If I can take your life, I will. But I know that your wife's child needs you most. Can my ego solve all problems? Or can Nindy come back?" Bang Ricky's. "I'm married to Iva, not because I love her. I just remember Nindy. I just hope that if my prostration is heard by the Powerful One, there may be someone willing to help him out there"
Bang Hara sat down. His heart is still so depressed. "I always hoped there was a miracle of God Bang"
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"Why does Isy keep fussing?" Tegur Bang Ricky's.
"Iva doesn't know Bang."
Bang Ricky saw Iva's face look lethargic, probably because last night's matter made his wife very sad. "Rapidly change clothes.we go for a walk. Isy's needs are also exhausted" asked Bang Ricky then took Baby Isy from his mother's sling.
"Iva Lazy Bang" replied Iva.
"Once in a while we invite Isy to breathe fresh air" Bang Ricky reasoned. He brought his lips closer to kiss Iva's forehead. "Quick change clothes..!!"
"Aren't you tired?" Ask Iva.
"There is no fatigue for the child and wife" Bang Ricky replied to calm Iva's heart.
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Bang Ricky is more active in asking about vitamins for ASI transmitters because Iva ASI is not so much and it makes Isy very fussy.
"Well I take that minidos of red." Bang Ricky said to the salesman.
"Buy vitamins so your ASI smooth. Poor Isy much cry. Maybe she's hungry, or her mama's less happy." Bang Ricky's honest talk.
Iva was afraid to hear it. "Iva happy Bang. Being a wife is enough. Iva doesn't want anything else" replied Iva.
It is true that Iva has never demanded much, never protested about anything to him. The nature of Nindy and Iva is in accordance with age, their thinking is also calm and innocent. Iva was very careful and Nindy was very careless. Iva is meticulous in silence but there is Nindy who is smart-ass with her outgoing thoughts.
"Tell me if there is indeed a treatment that is not right in your heart. You're Brother's wife, you have the same rights as Nindy" Bang Ricky's hand rattled Iva's hair to show her concern for his wife.
Bang Ricky's eyes closed for a moment. He just realized every day always mention the name Nindy and of course it was very painful for Iva. "We'll see the night mood yuk..!!" Take Bang Ricky to please Iva.
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The night after returning home from the night market, Iva sees Bang Ricky take down a photo of Nindy and save it.
"Abangs.. Nindy is also brother's wife. Just install..!! Iva is no problem" Iva said.
"No deck, maybe it's time for you to bury in all the memories with Nindy and focus on life with you and Isy." Reply Bang Ricky with teary eyes and a painful smile. A moment later he developed a sincere smile. "You want to repeat last night?" Bang Ricky reached out his hand to invite Iva into the room.
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Bang Ricky hit the empty side next to Iva's pillow. It was so frustrating not to be able to do the job as a husband. Shy, disappointed in yourself and feeling like a useless man.
"If you are not ready, Bang, next time" said Iva who always patiently makes Bang Ricky's heart sad.
"Sorry, Va..!!"
"Nothing Bang"
Bang Ricky glanced at his body that was completely unable to function like a man.
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"I was so ashamed of the pot. Why me?"
"The problem isn't in your hormone pot. You also say your body stays active at certain hours and reacts if you see something bothering you, but you can't**** your wife if you don't imagine Nindy. Means your mentality isn't ready for your wedding Ric. Your psychics have to." Said Bang Adnan as a doctor in the army hospital.
"So I have to how to pot?"
"The key is in yourself..!!" Said doctor.
"I'm afraid to try again. Iva must be disappointed in me"
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