Heaven In The Eye Pelupuk
Beginning or End?

..."If it is because of the likeness that makes you fall in love, then how do you love your God who has no likeness?" ...

..._Jalaluddin Maulana Rumi...

"Drink." The girl sitting glued to her eyes looked up as the baritone voice seized her daydream. Aida glanced from the corner of her eyes, the familiar hand of the man thrusting her a glass of warm water. However, Aida did not get it. He only looked at her with a pushy look, but the look was really sad and withered. Yes, he let the blue glass float in the air long enough.

The trembling and sweaty hand slowly grabbed him. Maybe with a sip of warm water can restore his mood. But can it be with the heart of her husband?

"Why is Bima so good to Aida?" Silent. Gus Bima did not look at his wife's face even if only for a moment. How many times did Aida ask the same question? Was he not satisfied with Gus Bima's answer before? Realized it? Where can he have the courage to ask such a question? With what happened a few minutes ago certainly made Gus Bima's heart shattered into pieces. The girl who is thought to have succeeded in anchoring love to him is still unable to forget her ex-boyfriend.

"Aida wants to split up." Telak. The sentence struck right in the recesses of Gus Bima's heart. Is the girl aware of what she just said? Be separated? Has he lost his mind? Again and again Aida made a mistake. Did she not think about her husband's feelings before saying anything?

Hi, it's not that easy Aida. Does he think by choosing to separate can restore the broken jar? Does choosing a green table as a middle ground bring him together with Kenzo?

"parted?" ask him softly.

"Aida no longer deserves to be the wife of Mas Bima. It should be Hamida's brother who deserves to be-"

"No Aida, I don't want to separate from you."

"It's better I don't get your love back than to lose a precious piece of diamond." Aida looked at her husband's face with a twinkle that filled her net. God, what is the heart of her husband made of? What prayer has he been offering so that he can survive to this point?

"A woman who moves away from her husband without good reason. So a hellish paradise for him, he'll never get into heaven." Aida held back tears as much as possible so that she could not be heard by her husband. Although, the clear still continues to pour. Do you know how it hurts to hold back tears?

"Do you not want to one day be reunited in the jannah that God has promised?" Aida wiped the trace of her tears.

"Are you not happy to marry me? Am I giving you less dzohir?" cercah Gus Bima shortly after the sudden atmosphere of silence.

"Splitting is not the only way. There are still many other ways, Aida. Don't you believe my words?" Aida began to dare to look up. Words?

"When Kenzo is ready to marry you, I will sincerely release you Aida." The end of the sentence sounded hanging. It feels so hard to say. But how else, this was the promise he had made. As a man, he abstained for him to retract the words that had been spoken, right?

The girl could no longer hold back the crying. Aida is back. The crying sounded so deep. Oh God, now she feels like the most despicable woman. If he hadn't said the confession, it wouldn't have been this complicated.

Gus Bima took over the glass that Aida held and put it not far from their sitting position. Gus Bima again brought Aida in his warm embrace. His heart was broken if he saw his wife grieving like this. By stroking Aida's arm, the man hoped to calm her down for a moment. Never mind. All he asked for was one, able to forget all the events of today. He realized, turning the human heart is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand. He believes that a soul mate will never be changed. About being loved, Gus Bima gave everything to the Giver of Love.

Is not the promise of Allah manifest in the Quran? The human soul is guaranteed by God. Allah guarantees to create all things together with their partners. Allah says in the Qur'an, Surat al-Zariyat verse 49:

"And of all things we have created in pairs that you may remember the greatness of God." (Q.S A-Zariyat: 49).

The clock perched on the wall showed the number twelve, the man standing not far from the bed that Aida was seen sleeping on. The girl fell asleep after being calmed by Gus Bima. The ablution water still stuck on his face made the man's charm increase. The long prayer it stretches. Yes, this time it was his schedule to complain to the Khaliq.

Allah akbar. He began to perform two rakaat sunnah prayers. Although only befriending the moonlight that entered from the window of his room, Gus Bima looks very solemn. The gripping atmosphere and the cold of the night wind did not shake his faith. When he finished, the man remained in his original position. Both palms looked up and prayers began to be offered.

The girl who was still lying with the blanket covering her body suddenly woke up. I don't know what woke him up. Ah, maybe the faint sound of Gus Bima is able to evoke his slumber. That room is still in complete darkness. Her net was still closed, the girl began to grope to her right side, where her husband was sleeping. Only the bolster that restricts between her and Gus Bima, her husband's burly body is not on the bed. Aida opened her eyes and tried to grab the switch. However, his activity came to a halt when he heard a verse that was able to make his heart tremble again.

"O Allah, forgive Aida for all her sins, past to future, which she committed secretly and openly."

"Allahumma inni as'aluka min khairiha wa khairi ma jabaltaha a'laihi wa'audzubika min syarriha wa syarri ma jabaltaha a'laihi."

His fingers accidentally pressed the switch and made the lights in his room light up. He found a man sitting in a row with both palms looking right in front of his face. Tears that trickle signify he loves a figure of a name that is tucked in his prayer. Aida just froze. Dead lice. The man he had broken was still praying for him. In fact, Aida never once prayed or mentioned her husband's name in any of her prayers. Aida's shy, really shy.

Gus Bima opened his eyelids and shifted the attention to a figure who was sitting on the bed. "Aida, are you awake?"

The knot smile that characterizes Gus Bima rises. Ah, it seems like both joy and sorrow approached, he never absent to smile. Gus Bima folded and put his alphabet on the nightstand. The man approached the girl who was still sitting glued with a pushy look towards the front.

"Why did Bima pray for Aida? Why did Mas Bima ask for forgiveness for my sins?" Gus Bima just fell silent while staring at Aida's face. Actually, that girl was very nice. He knew that Aida didn't really mean to hurt him. The girl only revealed what her true heart was. It's not wrong if he's telling the truth? Being honest is better than lying. Aida couldn't lie to her feelings either. Do you love someone under the guise of lies?

"Aida, do you know if you cry like this. Your face is changing like a granny." Gus Bima's answer was accompanied by a rarity. No. gabe. The man was just trying to divert the conversation. It could be, Gus Bima is not good at lying. The proof, the hardness sounds like a compulsion.

"Mas Bima ...."

"Stop crying, Aida. Seeing you shed tears, I felt sinful. I feel like I'm the worst man because I can't make you feel good"

"I am happy .. very happy, but does Mas Bima himself also feel happy to have married me?" Telak. The man is petrified. His tongue suddenly fell. The girl turned things around. How is this, what should he answer? To honestly? But Gus Bima also did not know whether he was happy or not with the marriage he lived.

"If you're happy, I'm happy too, Aida."

"Now you are my responsibility, so is your happiness. I don't want to disappoint Dad, I don't want to break my promise to him."

"If loving you can make me happy, then I am willing to endure even though this love is unrequited." Aida blinked her eyes, the clear dripping along with the decay and collapse of her feelings. The girl immediately crucified the palm of her husband's hand. Really am. By kissing the palm of Gus Bima, heaven felt so close. The heaven he had originally destroyed, he was now awake again.

Seriate....

Pasuruan, March 18, 2023