Her.. My soul mate
Chapter 9

>>still Ocha<<

"I think we'll hopefully be Cha." said Doni. After we then moved the seat to a quieter table, in the corner of the room, leaving Nisa who was sitting alone at the middle table of the canteen.

It was like a knife sticking straight into my heart. The pain..!

"Decided you? Why Don?" I half held back the emotion in my throat.

"Yes broken! I'm tired of you. I'm bored!" he said lightly. There was no guilt on his face.

"Bored you say?" I said restraining the mounting anger. Really I was already at the level of wanting to vent my anger on his insolent face.

"Yes bored.. I'm tired of going out with you so there's no progress at all" he said, sighing and then continuing.

"The same relationship you don't feel!" said it.

Sadistic! What sadistic words in my ears.

"You mean?" without me noticing a single tear falling from my eye. I hurriedly erased it before Doni saw me.

"It used to be possible that I could still accept your indifferent attitude when dating me. You don't want to hold her hand, don't want me to hug you even refuse a kiss on my cheek. I can accept that maybe because we're still in the norm of schoolchildren. But now we're different Cha! We're not kids anymore! We went to college and we were together in the last semester, but your attitude towards me hasn't changed! It's the same as in school! You are still putting up the bastion of your school's colossal norms! I'm tired of dating you!" doni said, it hurts.

I was really surprised by the reason Doni dumped me, I didn't think so narrow-minded about the meaning of love in our relationship. I don't know who I'm dealing with right now, like it's not Doni I know, or is it really Doni's true nature that he managed to hide from me for so long. It was amazing how he tricked me for so many years. The mask he put on was very professional.

"I have your replacement! She understands more what I want than you. He fulfilled all my pent-up desires for you Cha. I was satisfied by him" he said as if he had no brain at all. There really is no brain! Base ********!

As soon as my love evaporated, carried away by the heat this afternoon, it was replaced by hatred that began to fill my chest cavity.

I try to think logically, not want to get carried away in a mood that has really been broken into pieces. As much as I can muster my wits to deal with this jerk!

"I think you're different from most guys around me. I thought you were the one who could appreciate and respect a woman by not ruining her, but it turns out that you are the same as those demons that roam around in broad daylight! I hate you Doni!" I cursed right in front of his face, I had intended to leave that jerk in front of me, but then I paused my intentions, not satisfied it felt like I was scolding him.

"And oh yes, one more thing. I thought you were no different from your father! Like father like son! Same cheating guy! You don't want to be teacher Don!! Enjoy your depravity jerk!!" my Maki in front of his face.

I hurried to leave the silent Doni hearing my last words. Get out of his view. My heart is broken unceremoniously. What a disgusting first love!

I ran out of the canteen. I saw Nisa coming over to me and hugging me tightly. I cried in Nisa's arms. The anger that I was holding back, the disappointment that I was holding back, all my feelings of sadness. Until this body felt lifeless, all my bones felt bolted from their place. I hate myself! Hate to have been fascinated by Doni's bright brown eyes. I hate first sight love! Love is bullshit!! Goddamn bum!!!

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"Thank you, Nis, I'm glad you're always there for me" I hugged Nisa when I got to my door.

"Yes Cha, just calm down, I'm always there for you, anytime anywhere, I'm always there for you, you have to be strong!" nisa held my hand tightly.

"Siang aunty." said Nisa when she met her mother on the porch of the house. I rushed in half to go inside. I don't want my mom to see me like this. I went into the room, threw away my backpack carelessly. I got into the blanket on my bed. Crying again.

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I blinked my eyes. I saw my doraemon wall clock. At 5pm. I fell asleep after crying alone in my blanket.

Tok.tok.tok.tok the sound of the door being knocked.

"Darling..mom can come in, son?" apparently mama. I kept quiet, not answering my mother's words.

"Mama came in, baby, "and then she opened my door and went straight into my room. He sat on my bedside. While I lay pretending to sleep on my back, I was ashamed to show my face to my mother.

"Darling.get up yuk. It's late afternoon, you haven't had lunch, have you? Yuk got up, ate first" said mama while rubbing my cheek gently trying to wake me up. I squirm, turning my body towards my mother. I opened my eyes slowly, then inched leaning on my lap.

"So Nisa's been telling me a little bit, but Mama wants to hear straight from Ocha's mouth. So that Ocha can also release the sadness of Ocha on mama" mama rubbed my head gently, a warm feeling enveloped me because of the touch of love mama.

"Ocha want to tell Mama the same story? hm.?" uh..?" I only gave an answer by nodding, although there was a reluctance to bring up the disgusting incident with the jerk.

"Ma but Ocha laper, the story later can not ma? Ocha want to eat first" I said. Besides my stomach is hungry, I deliberately buy time to tell stories. I'm still in mood mode. Mama nodded then helped me get up from my bed.

"Mama go down first, Ocha will go to the dining table. Ocha want to take a shower first, not feel good Ocha sticky all" persuaded me not to wrestle on my arm. Mama nodded and then came out of my room.