Hijrah Love In A Third Night
Chapter 30's

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My alarm goes off, it's 02:30. I shook my blanket and got out of bed to take ablution.

After I finished taking ablution, I began to hold my prayer rug. On the last prostration I prayed because as far as I know from Kak Syakira, the prayer on the last prostration will be more mustajab.

Oh God, my God,

Doesn't this feel coming from you ?

Why do you let a servant fall at an inopportune time.

Are you wrathful?, so that you make the servant have to be broken this deep.

God, show me where it is.

God, show it to me. I have to wait for him or not.

Oh God, my God,

if he is best for me also for religion I close his heart to the servant. If he is not the best for me, my religion will keep him away from my servants.

Because it may be good according to the servant is not necessarily good according to you.

And vice versa, O Allah, who I consider not good, turns out to be good for me.

O Allah, You are the Knower of what is good for the servant.

O Allah, Do not let the servant drown in this love and make You jealous. Until you are angry and do not let us unite.

Allah, allow the servant to improve himself and be steadfast. Help the servant, O Allah, ease the way of the servant.

After praying I rubbed my wet cheeks. On this night the heavens and earth bear witness to the beginning of my new life. Yeah, my new life. A better life, a life on its way. And on this very day God is kind enough to give him guidance through my brother. There is no doubt that the way Allah knocks on the hearts of his servants. I am so grateful that I have become one of his most fortunate servants because he has been given his guidance.

I know I'm not a good servant. Even far from being obedient, I often slip in prostitution. Walking on the sins I always considered favourable. I often go the wrong way. The path I thought was right was keeping me away from the light. I've walked away from him. However, he generously accepted me to walk back towards him. Thank God for kindly sending down human angels to bring me back home on your path.

Thank God for giving me a point of guidance.

Now I realize again in every incident there must be a silver lining. Yeah, losing Ardan made me lose my mind.

But behind all this, God kindly restored the light of my heart.

I know Ardan doesn't belong to me, he's entirely His. From today I will no longer wish on his creation, I will expect him through his creator. Thank you God.

From this moment on I decided to move. I began to wear the robe and khimar given by Mother who had long been given. But I never wear it. I looked at myself through the mirror. It turns out that putting on a robe isn't as bad as it was in my mind.

These clothes are more comfortable to use, wider and not at all complicated as I had in mind before.

***

They were surprised by my new appearance. " Ehhemm, do not have to be distracted so dong see it ". My speech.

" Mashaa Allah the Mother's child is very beautiful ". Mother praised me.

" Father until you see Syha, thank you son ". Dad said, I'm confused why did you say thank you to me ?

Dad smiled, when I reached his seat, he stood up and stroked the top of my head full of love. " Good thanks, I'd like to lighten my father's hymn in the afterlife ". Said Dad while peeping my forehead. My heart felt like I was shocked to hear my father's words just now. Was it true that I had been evil to her all this time ?. To let him take away my sins. Oh God, forgive me. Don't let my father take away my sins.

" Breakfast-breakfast mellow scene later again yes, the most handsome brother here is sparingly. Later if tekat in temurin patient ". Said Bang Iyan to end this mellow event.

" Bang, don't dong ". Said Sister Syakira intruding.

" Yes deck, if not so until later that afternoon the mellow scene of the son and father ". Said Bang Iyan while grinning the horse, feeling without sin.

" Isshhh, Brother, please. Bgt's handsome guy anyway. Daddy's also ". I said annoyed.

" Snake the deck ? ". Asked Bang Iyan to Kak Syakira who was taking rice for him while blinking one eye. Sister Syakira just nodded while blushing in embarrassment, making Bang Iyan win over me.

" Huh ? What did you say too ! ".

" Kak Syakira wanted to be with Brother also because in the pellet ". My original speech.

" Husst, I can't say that Syha isn't good ". Said Mother advising, I only showed my two fingers the sign of peach.

" In addition to the way his clothes are repaired, morals as well as the war should also be repaired dear ". Father Message.

" God willing Yah, Alishha will learn again. Guide Alisyha yes brother ". Pinta ku to Sis Syakira, he nodded.

" Syakira just help Syha. Let me find a husband to guide you ". Bang Iyan. Huh, what was that ?. I didn't listen wrong ?.

" Apaan the Bang ". I was upset when we had breakfast together and went to work. I mean Dad and Bang Iyan work, I go to college. Mother and Sister Syakira at home.

As usual, I went to college. But this other day with the usual day, my new appearance became the spotlight of the people. I don't know what it's because of. Is something wrong ?. My heart wondered, when I usually wear a hijab. It's just that the hijab is twisted with superiors and subordinates are fashioneble. I kept walking all the way to Karin's class. The rest of the class was no different looking at me from the people outside.

I sat next to Karin who was busy reading her book until she didn't notice my arrival.

To pat his shoulders. Karin turned her head towards me, with a look like a dazed person. " Oath to what do you do Alisyha ? ". The stupid question Karin asked made me turn my eyeballs.

" Lo dapet ilham what Syha, Oath lo more beautiful if you use gini. I'm staying with Elma. Duh, the more beautiful I'm the more competitive ". Said Karin with a grin.

I ignored all Karin said just now. " Tumben lo learn ? ". Ask me.

" Today I have a quiz, I forgot to study semalem. Hehe "'s ".

" Dssr ! ".