I Call Your Name
First gray night.

Happy sadness happy nervous and afraid now all fulfill the feelings of sani. A feeling that describes his current state..

He was sad at a young age to have to get married to a new life in an unusual way. Married a man who didn't expect it. Even Sani could not imagine with the state of his marriage that was like a tangled thread. Like whether the continuation of this marriage Sani also does not know.

He is not happy and also happy. Happy to have the man she wants . The man who was his first love. Maybe Bizar doesn't know about it at all . Only Sani, the brother and owner of His life knows. It's nice to be married and tie her to a marriage relationship, but I want to see when this can last. Because Sana knows that Bizar's heart is not himself but Husna the future wife who fled.

Nervousness is also present in the feelings. Nervous waiting for how Bizar will behave and accept it or not. Until the nervousness becomes fear. Fear of leaving fear unwanted fear of being betrayed fear of not knowing anything else. What is certain is that all these feelings have now filled Sani.

Now Sani can only sit on the bed with his hands holding his two knees bent. Waiting for Bizar to arrive patiently. Sani still seems to be wearing the same clothes that he was wearing at the wedding.

A visit to attend the wedding made Sani turn into a bride. Bride who does not want at all. What should they behave like now?.

Czech....

The door opened and Ana came in after greeting and Sani answered.

In his eyes the new brother-in-law became a bride with pity. Ana comes to help Sani change clothes.

"Where is Mas Bizar?"

"Don't know brother..."

"Here sister help change clothes"

"Good. .."

Sani get off the bed. Sitting in front of the dresser facing the glass. There was panic and sadness there. Ana sees the look on Sani's face that is not as usual. There was a sense of pity in his heart seeing his spoiled little sister having to go through this miserable day.

When she finished, she went back to her room. Sani who started sleepy in the bathroom to take wudu. Establish how many sunah prayers in order to calm himself. Tomorrow Sani must also return to the pesantren because he is only permission for 2 days.

After the prayer Sani tadarus for a while. Complain to the owner of the Love that Khaqiqi. Expressing all his angst, he sat down and begged for forgiveness from the owner of His life.

"Astagfirullahal.... O Allah.. Forgive your servant for hurting him" Guman Bizar regretted

But it cannot be denied that he has not been able to accept Sani as part of him now.

"Sane....Human"

"Heemmmm...."

"Wake up. .. Your body will hurt if you sleep here!"

"Ah... Sis.. Abi...."

"Sleep in bed"

"It's dawn. .. I'm a sub"

"Serah. ..."

Sani went ablution and established dawn. Bizar was sleeping on the sofa after waking up Sani.

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