I Give Up, MAS !!
CHAPTER 1

Brak Bracks .....

Mas caka kicked the table right in front of me. One sentence slid from his mouth "If not for pity I have divorced you from the past Ajeng " ..

Elan ..

Like being hit by lightning in his sentence was able to shed my race for him. My heart was like a sizzle when I heard her words just now. How not, 6thn I have run my household ark with mas caka, difficult or happy we have passed together. But in fact it is different from mas caka , who like tormented is in this bond .

I steadied my heart with his words earlier, looking at the wry mas with a fluffy smile I said "Okay mas , while looking into his eyes I said , Just divorce me " yep the sacred sentence that I have for a lifetime abstained from calling it .

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I was walking down the park this afternoon with my little girl, the encouragement of my life, when my sanity was tested again and again . I chose to sit while babysitting my little daughter named "Dew " .

" Dewunnn, do not run away son, will fall " .

call me when the dew is happy to run around here and there when I blow the bubble balloons.

I looked straight ahead with an ungodly mind, a raging mind . " What's my fault, God" I said softly, one tear escaped without me preventing it. Quickly I wiped away my tears to be invisible to dew, for there would be many questions from him for me, without which I could answer . Yes I was always weak when in front of my daughter .

It was getting late in the afternoon when I saw the clock in my hand, I got up and called dew to go home . We walk to go home 'cause the park with my house is not far only 5 houses .

Arriving at the gate of the house, I did not find a car mas caka parked in the yard of our house, usually at this hour he was already at home. Ever since he spoke like that this morning, I don't know how reluctant to look at him, the love that once burned slowly faded replaced the disappointment that was present .

I took the keys to the house in my slingbag and opened the door by saying "Assalamualaikum" I said and dewed together when opening the door of the house .

" Beautiful Dew, Enter the room yes to wash your feet and hands do not forget yes, later mommy followed dew to room , mommy want to enter the room mommy first can nak ?" My word to dew .

" Good mother "say dew with her anxiety .

I entered my room on the bed, I looked around this room, many memories attached here. Again my tears escaped without being prevented ' 'it hurt my heart when she said pity for this marriage . " Why, why ? What's wrong I'm the same mas caka , so that arrived mas caka can smoothly talk like that to me "my words in the middle of my sobs that never subsided while hitting my chest .

I rubbed my tears, walked towards the bathroom to wash my face so that these scars of crying were not visible to the dew . Immediately I washed my face because I remembered the dew alone in her room because the nurse who kept the dew was on leave because her mother was sick in the village.

I opened the door of the dew room with my heart while approaching the dew kissed the tip of her head "What beauty is this mother ? " ask me to dew "I am again a doll mother's toy " said dew . " Bun , father has not come home , the clock is not here yet at home." said dew .

I took a slow breath, I looked into the eyes of dew "Maybe dad still have a lot of work that has not been done dear, gapapa ya play with mother first while waiting for father want ? " i said by stroking his head .

The clock has shown the time of magrib, I stand in tandem with the dew and take the mukena along with me and the small sikecil, then walk towards the bathroom to take ablution .

I fulfilled my duty as a Muslim, wearing a mukena held a prayer and beside me there was dew that used my face to pray even if just following me, I also began to pray with solemn prayer .

" God, my Lord, give me Your guidance, for only You have I complained about all this, I have given all to You, O God, "my heart says . And repeatedly my lips call the word istigfar ceaseless, so that this heart is always calm .

I folded back the face I was wearing with dew and its contents and put it back in its original place .

" Dew dear mother kedapur first yes want to make a meal malem for dew same father, "my word to my girl . " Is there something to eat, baby ? Want to be cooked what's the same mother malem this ?" My word to dew . " Smouthed broccoli same shrimp can mother? " say dew . " can dong, mama makein first yes dear, who knows very soon our dateng father ate the same yes, if so mother stay cook gapapa ya beautiful , dew wait in the tv room can son ?" I said softly .

I entered the kitchen area, which is usually the mbok who help me, but this morning the mbok tbtb bamit want to go to the hospital because his son had a traffic accident .

I spent almost 15 minutes in the kitchen cooking dinner and serving it at the dinner table . Already all neatly arranged on the dining table I opened my apron and washed my hands in the sink. Then I sat down with the dew that was busy watching children's series on tv .

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The sound of the roar of the car engine parked in the courtyard yard of the house, and of course the owner of the car and others and not is not mas caka ..

" Assalamualaikum" said mas caka after opening the door .

" Waalaikum salam" I said with dew together, yak because we are now in the tv room waiting for the arrival of mas caka .

I took his hand and I kissed the back of his hand . " Want to take a shower now ?" I asked mas caka who was joking with dew .

" may "answer flat mas caka .

I turned around while stroking the chest "Strengthen my heart, O God, "I said in my heart . I walked to the room preparing a change of clothes for the mas caka and preparing warm water for him. After finishing ', I walked to the tv room ', calling mas caka "Mas , the warm water is ready with a change of clothes" I said gently .

Mas caka stood up and kissed the head of the dew "Dad took a shower for a while yes dear " said mas caka, then on the nod of the head of dew in response .

" Mother followed father for a while yes dear "my word to dew, again just a nod of the head I got, ' he said , yap dew is busy watching his tv series which is none other than can not be bothered .

I followed mas caka to room , took his dirty clothes , I took a pesartu mas caka clothes , I brought it down to the washing machine . " I smell the aroma in the clothes mas caka slowly land, like not a perfume mas caka "my word slowly, while returning to smell the clothes mas caka , I'm more sure this is not a perfume mas caka, I'm more sure, It's like a woman's perfume .

Deg

My heart is beating hard..

Who is he ? are you cheating behind my back ? Who is this woman .

" God what trials are these "my words with a word .

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