I Give Up, MAS !!
Chapter 4

I thought I was the only one in your heart . It turns out that your heart has been divided into him without my knowledge . Establish an improper relationship . A man may marry more than once . But if there is an agreement from the first wife . If there is no agreement, the fall will be adultery and can be made a criminal charge . That's what I heard and I read.

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" Stop, don't go near the mas" I said as I retreated backward by wiping away the falling tears . This hurt when I heard the conversation . Trying to neutralize this raging feeling, to see his face.

" Ajeng, I beg you to listen to the explanation of the first "my answer as I go forward to calm her down . I see a look of disappointment emanating from her beautiful face . Curse my stupidity that has been waiting for our marriage . But what is the power of rice has become porridge, regret remains regret .

" How long has it been ? " i asked in a whimpering tone, I took a slow breath, trying to stay firm .

Caka bit her lower lip to channel the nervousness that was in her heart. By exhaling slowly slowly we try to vent to get closer to the ajeng .

" I said stop mas don't come near me, what's my word less clear for you to hear ? . I asked once again how long have you been betraying me, oh no more, how long have you been cheating on me until you are a child named Arka ? " .

Heart racing fast .

" ajeng knows everything, so silent earlier he heard my conversation with mamah, ah stupid stupid fool you are like " . Brought in the heart .

" please talk about it tomorrow, baby. See the clock has shown almost early in the morning "sahut caka while taking a step forward .

it is true that the clock shows at half two in the morning . I am tired of body and soul, inevitably turning around to go to the room of dew . When it had walked a few steps arrived the hand of the mas caka gripped tightly my hand.

" sorry mas ajeng "sahut caka .

How many times has he said an apology that I can somehow forgive or not . I turned to look at his eyes . Eyes that always make me shady, now create deep wounds . I saw the look in his eyes that signified regret . Regrets always come too late .

I touched the hand of the mas caka who was holding my hand, "I was tired mas , so hurt the wound you tore , whether or not I can forgive you "my sahut .

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By walking limped, I climbed the stairs to go to the dew room, I noticed the mas caka who stood still sculpting . I don't know what he's thinking right now . Regrets ? Late , my heart aches .

I opened the door of the dew room slowly, I approached the dew bed, I kissed her forehead for so long, without feeling these tears escaped again and again . Quickly I wipe away these tears so as not to hit the forehead of dew .

" stay by your side dear no matter what happens, we face together ." I said as I stroked her forehead .

I stared at the sky of the room while closing my eyes . otaku was dead-end to think about all this . The connection of my mother-in-law, becomes the greatest tantrum of this heart .

" cih , their successor said ? " . What kind of reason are they thinking .

The clock shows two o'clock in the morning . I tried to close my eyes but I couldn't . I decided to pray a third of the night . get out of bed to go to the bathroom to take ablution water . With all the remaining energy I had, I strengthened my heart and mind. My sanity must be kept awake, however it may be .

I take mukena, I put as fast as , I continue to pray, complain to the ruler of the face of the earth, to the owner of the heart . With tears flowing constantly, I will give do'a to those who persecute me .

I am reminded of the words of the mother of the house, "pray those who persecute you and betray you with good prayers, never hold a grudge even if they have hurt you " .

I continue with much remembrance for my heart to be calm and peaceful, however in the future, only dew is on my mind at this time .

" Astagfirullah " while rubbing the chest, I felt the tightness that whipped my heart . Fold it all up and put it back in its place .

I walked towards the bed, to immediately lay down . I embrace the dew in my arms . Yeah right now it just takes her hug, to get me to dreamland immediately. Because this self is very tired of everything . Slowly I tried to close my eyes following the dew that was still in the dreamland .

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" astagfirullah, so dizzy my head ", I said while twitching the head that felt dizzy . I just remembered that last night I only slept 2 hours, deserved to feel dizzy .

Immediately I performed the dawn prayer without a second thought . After the dawn prayer, I rushed to the kitchen to make breakfast . How surprised I was when I was in the kitchen there was already a mbok well who was preparing everything .

" Loh mbok this morning already here , who is the guard at the hospital , indeed the child mbok already healthy ? I asked the mbok.

" Alhamdulillah already ma'am, there is anita who take care of ma'am, the first child mbok, gaenak mbok ninggalin house "answer mbok .

" justi mbok, gausah gaenak everything, the important thing is that healthy children used to be here again . Mbok can ask for help the room near the tv, semalem vasnya not deliberately nudity same Ajeng, can you please clean the mbok ? Fear of dew or mas caka later passing . "tanyaku to mbok .

" Can bu , after this Mbok will settle "say mbok .

I spent almost an hour in the kitchen preparing breakfast with the mbok . I resigned to retreat to mbok to wake up the dew and prepare the mas caka clothes .

" i stay gapapa ya mbok, want ready to wear mas caka work clothes, and wake up dew " .

" not ma'am, gapapa " .

I walked up the stairs to the mas caka room, I also continued to carry out the task as it should . Preparing all his needs . I opened the door of the mas caka room slowly, saw him who was still coiled on the blanket . I approached mas caka's bed while waking him up .

" Wake up in the morning, "I pat her arm to wake her up .

getting out of bed, I opened the window curtain so that the sunlight could shine through the room .

I saw the mas caka who started to open his eyes slowly, immediately I went into the bathroom to prepare warm water for the mas caka bath .

While still preparing the water for the bath , tbtb just his burly arms hugged me from behind , I can already guess who did it .

" morning dear" while kissing the cheek ajeng, said caka with a distinctive sound of waking up.

" morning mas "my answer is .

I let go of mas caka embrace, when about to walk towards the bathroom door arrived just mas caka back hugged me .

" gausah readyin work clothes, mas enter his office rather unfortunate today, we discuss the problem of semalem, mas gamau there is a misunderstanding for everything " it sounded from his tone of voice that would be so desperate .

I just nodded my head .

" i go out first mas , want to wake up dew , let's be ready for school "I replied.

I immediately closed the door of the mas caka room when it was outside .

" Astagfirullah, strengthen this heart, when you know the truth ".

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