I'm the Forgotten One
Agatha Return.

Agatha looked at the guy for a while with a look of kangen. The guy frowned in his car, he got out. More and more rain drops, wetting the faces of both. The man's clothes, which were originally dry, were now drenched due to the rain.

“Aa...Agatha...?!” terka that guy. Agatha immediately cried, for some reason she was so happy.

“Zi..Zio...” Agatha can hardly say anything after seeing her cousin.

“Praise God! Thank God, meet you here, Cupit..,” said Alzio cheerfully. “Where are you going now? I miss you, you know! Basic likes to really make people difficult.” Alzio nagging and immediately hugged his cousin.

“Meong..!” Pitha meows once. It seems that he also wanted to be known by Alzio.

“Haii, funny! Thank you for taking care of my cousin!!” Alzio stroked the Pitha. “Let's go home with us. You're lucky to meet this naughty Cupit, because he's an animal lover.” Alzio seems to complain to Pitha that his cousin is naughty.

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Alzio brought Agatha to the restaurant because he saw Agatha was like a man who had not eaten for a week. At first he wanted to bring Agatha home, but he did not want her to die of hunger on the way.

“What do you want to eat?” asked Alzio while focusing on driving, but Agatha just shook her head.

“Be quick to fill your stomach! You're like a man out of steam and I'll take you to your favorite restaurant if you want.”

“One likes to force! Alright if you force me to eat, we go to the famous Chinese restaurant in this city.”

“I'm not forcing you, but I just don't want my naughty cousin to starve to death,” Alzio replied casually.

“Huhhh! It was the same name forced indirectly,” snorted Agatha annoyed. Just met, Agatha was already pissed off by her cousin. “But I am a laper, anyway, hehehe..”.

“Tuh, ngaku also finally. Okay, we're sliding..!” At moderate speed, Alzio drove his car through the crowded city streets. Even though the weather is raining, it seems that the drivers are not tired. Alzio felt grateful that finally his cousin was found also accidentally, because he had just bought his personal equipment in the mall.

To accompany the trip to the Chinese restaurant, Alzio played a song. The song was When You Believe by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston. But what he played is now a cover by One Voice Children's Choir. This song has a meaning of hope that illustrates that there will be “miracle” that will happen behind what we believe or believe. Describing the conditions in which many nights we use to pray conveys all hope without any evidence anyone can hear or know it.

He chose the song because he thought it fit the circumstances in which he could find Agatha by chance. There had been many nights that he had prayed for a miracle so that his cousin would return soon, and the prayer was answered already.

“Many nights we prayed, with no proof, anyone could hear. In our hearts a hopeful song, we are completely understood. Now we are not afraid, though we know there's much to fear, we were moving mountains, long before we know we could..” (The night we prayed, no one heard it. Our hearts are humming hope, a hum that we do not understand. Now we are no longer afraid, even though we know many are scary. We can move mountains long before we know we can).

Both seemed to enjoy the song. Agatha had shed her tears because she was washed away by the atmosphere of lyrics for the sake of lyrics.

“There can be miracles, when you believe. Though hope is frail, It's hard to kill. Who knows what miracles, you can achieve. When you believe, somehow you will. You will when you believe..” (Miracle may happen, when you believe. Though despair is so fragile, it is not easy to kill. No one knows what miracle might happen. When you believe, somehow. When you'll believe.).

A few minutes later, the two arrived at a Chinese restaurant. “We have arrived. Come..”

Long enough Agatha stared at the form of a restaurant that she had not visited for a long time when she left home. Fortunately, his cousin who was beautiful could understand his wishes.

“Fruit, ahhh. Don't worry about it, later on!”

With makeup still showing that he was an impromptu punk for a few days, he stepped in with Alzio entering the restaurant area. Many eyes looked at him with strange looks. Beautiful looks, but her appearance is like a mess, unkempt. Coupled with his gray hair color, increasingly giving the impression of unsightly eyes. There was a little doubt in his heart. She is ashamed of her present self.

Alzio brought his cousin to choose a place that was slightly empty by visitors. “Sit! Don't mind people's views on you!” alzio reprimanded as if he could feel the feelings of his recently discovered cousin. Agatha immediately sat down with a downcast face.

“What do you want to eat?” alzio asked after the waiter handed him the menu book. “Eat what you want to eat. I'll pay for it!”

After mentioning the menu he chose, the waiter repeated the order and left them both. “You definitely don't know if Memey just grieved...” Alzio looked at his cousin who was still bowed. “His brother Memey died yesterday.”

Agatha showed no response other than her eyes that were emitting clear liquid. Alzio had hoped that his cousin would be surprised by everything that happened, but Agatha kept quiet and cried.

“Why crying? Is there something wrong with my words?”

Agatha shook her head slowly and replied, “I already know. And, I'm the one who first saw Brother Carlos gone.”.

“You mean?” ask Alzio curiously.

“We are one group. And Brother Carlos was very kind to me. He protected me like a big brother,” replied Agatha. “Then one day, he decided to end his life because of being hit with the departure of one of our group members, he died of an overdose.”

“Don't you..” said Alzio was cut off because Agatha had prevented it.

“I told you that Brother Carlos takes good care of me. You do not think strange, we can check if you do not believe.”

“Good. I'm just testing you, anyway I might not believe in my ugly cousin,” nosy Alzio. Agatha wanted to avenge her cousin's ridicule, which always upset her, but stopped when the waiter placed their order on the table.

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Finished enjoying the meal, Alzio brought his cousin to return home immediately. Alzio was horrified to see the appearance and condition of his cousin, thinner and thinner than usual. At home, Bi Momon was already waiting for the arrival of his little master with haru and joy.

“Non... This is really Non Agatha, Den Zio?” bi Momon asked for Alzio's explanation. Alzio nodded and gave his sweet smile.

“Iya, this is Agatha, Bi.” Agatha hugged Bi Momon in tears. “I'm sorry, Bi, you've been freaking out and looking for me all day.”

“What matters now, Non has returned home. His room was taken every night. Yes already, now immediately clean up, let's not muddy and kuel like this.”

“Cupit, let's go upstairs,” timpal Alzio.

After Agatha took a clean bath, they sat on the long sofa in her room for a few minutes. Not talking to each other, not looking at each other. Agatha still looked at the entire contents of her room which was always clean and tidy, which signified that Bi Momon was indeed cleaning it every day and wished himself back.

Alzio was confused as to what to do. There were too many things that Alzio wanted to ask his cousin at the moment. They were silent for a moment. The silence brought Agatha back into her grief. Alzio saw Agatha's tears and it felt like it was quite representative of everything. Alzio could guess that everything was not okay.

“As you can see,” replied Agatha. “Zio, how should I do now? I want to die..”.

“You always say that! Are there any words you can say other than death? Forever, it can never solve the problem. Grown up a little!”

“It's easy for you to say that, because you're not me. You never understand what I feel.” Agatha's tears continue to flow profusely like rainwater. “I actually feel happy life and have a new family.., but I have to accept the situation. I had to lose them so fast. My new friends are all gone..”

“Your friends, everyone is worried about you,” explains Alzio. “Yes already, I'm sorry. Now how do you want? What happened?” alzio continued gently.

After Alzio was sweet and managed to take Agatha's heart, Agatha was willing to tell everything that happened as long as she roamed the streets. All his life stories he told, the most tragic though. Starting from he entered the punk community, had a new name – Loury, a deadly race that killed Bernard, Cath and Carlos who died of OD, until the arrest of Andrew. Including the pregnancy of Nadine because her former lover is no longer hidden Agatha. He was disappointed, very disappointed and very disappointed.

Alzio closed his eyes for a moment. I can't believe her cousin lived a life like this. It must have been very painful to experience such a lot of disappointment. Alzio didn't know what to say.

“I don't know what good I live for.” Agatha said as she stared at the ceiling of her room. “No one loves me...”.

“You're wrong! Me, your cousin and the others love you very much. If I don't love you, I won't take you back home,” Alzio replied. “What is certain is that God exists and loves you too. He will surely hug you if you come to Him.”

“Really?” Agatha crying. Why does he always feel that God is far from him. “Now, Where is he?”

“Here,” Alzio directs his hand to the chest. “He wants to enter your heart if you invite Him.”

“Become a new human?” Agatha guessed what her cousin meant.

“Iya. I've almost never talked about that before, have I? Do you want to be horrified now?”

Agatha nodded slowly. “Tell me, if it can take me to heaven.”

Alzio smiling. He then took the Bible at Agatha's study table which seemed to have not touched Agatha for a long time. “Gini, yes. Being a new human being or being born spiritually is the time when a person accepts the Lord Jesus as a personal savior, confessing, turning, turning, and forsake all his sins and invite God into his heart forever. Being a new human means that the person is spiritually resurrected,” Alzio explained at length. “Neither understand, huh? Okay, we'll learn slowly.”

“Ooo...,” says Agatha briefly.

“The essence of man at first or from the beginning is sinful. Since birth we have brought the name of sin derived from Adam and Eve. Not to mention the sins we commit ourselves, whether done consciously or unconsciously.”

“Then?” agatha asked with a serious expression. He seems interested in this topic.

“While all sinners cannot enter heaven. Because what? The wages of sin is death. All sinners are destined to perish. The condition of being able to enter heaven is perfect, sinless, and blameless. The standard of God must be one hundred. A Mother Theresa also sinned.”

“Why is God so cruel?”

“Wait first. There's a solution, really. All humans know that to reach heaven must be perfect, but they do not know how to be perfect. So, they began to seek heaven in their own way. There are many charitable people..”.

“Wah, Very Mommy,” by Agatha.

“Doing good deeds, some are devoutly worshiping, seeking the highest knowledge and knowledge. Mmm, anyway a lot of effort done by humans, but all that still can not save. It is all in vain before God. But there is a tapiainya. Because God loves us so much, He can forgive and try to save us.”

“So?”

“So, salvation is a gift from God, a gift given for free, free. Not that if free continues we can conclude it is a cheap item. It's wrong! Quite the contrary. Safety is expensive. To the point of not being able to be paid for anything! No man in the world can afford salvation with money, or even his life! For salvation has been paid for with His holy blood. Not enough with silver or just diamond gold. Remember, do not underestimate God's mercy!”

“Ooo so...” Agatha nodded.

“Iya. Do you want to believe in Jesus?”

“Will He accept me?” ask the weak Agatha.

“Why not?” Alzio asked back.

Agatha laughed forcefully. “But he doesn't know who I am, doesn't know how I am.”

“He must know!”

Agatha fell silent. He cannot speak. “What does the Lord Jesus love me so deeply?”

“Yes, He loves you. Loving us who believe in Him.”

“Neveryone in the world loves me again,” Agatha said. He started crying. “I'm worthless to anyone!”

“You're wrong! You are not alone. You must think no one cares and feels your heartache, right? From now on you must remember, yes, there is one person who loves you indefinitely. You and all of us are precious in His eyes. Don't just miss your life. Your life has value to Him.”

“I'm a sinful man. I am not worthy…. There are sins I have committed and no one knows. I am not holy before God. I've been..” I don't know why Agatha would love to admit what she's done with Welson, but she's so embarrassed. He wants someone to help him. Something was pushing him, and he hoped his cousin wouldn't judge him.

“Udah, just admit it before God. He will forgive you if you are willing to come to Him. Did you forget? The Lord Jesus also came in disgrace, He was born in the sheepfold even though He was a king. He died also in the most despicable, cruelest way. He was crucified when He did not sin. Why do you think the Lord Jesus always takes the lowest and most despicable places?”

Agatha was only able to look at her cousin with a face filled with tears.

“So that those who feel the most unworthy like us, the least of whom can come to Him,” continued Alzio.

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To be continued…