I Will Turn My Suffering Into Happiness
CHAPTERS 1. COME TO LIFE AGAIN

First episode (1)

For me that life is the cruelest and worst thing for me, the life that I have been living all this time continues to be bad without any joy or pleasure. There is only fear, hate and sadness in every life I live. I hate my bad life so much, I even feel like dying would make me feel better, although I always hated this life but why do I always try to survive.

Until at one point I had an accident and died, at that time my eyes felt very heavy and not strong for me to open again. My whole body was not powered either and at that moment I knew that I would soon die from the accident, I thought that after death I could feel calm and not have to feel the difficulty of my life but in fact not because after death I returned to life and reincarnated into another world. Despite being reincarnated and revived, my life remained the same as my previous life and from that moment on I thought that the gods hated me very much and wanted me to live a life of suffering and not feel happiness

After I died and reincarnated into another world, I felt back what was called the endless bitterness of life. I reincarnated into a girl named Emily, the life of the child I entered is very bad and even worse than my life

Emily lives in a very bad shack house and also the relationship between emily's parents is not good, either, because both parents did not get along so they often quarrel and even emily usually become an outlet from the tantrums of both parents. Even the economy in this family is very difficult and even difficult to be able to buy food, in order to survive emily was forced to beg so that she could stay alive

It seems that the gods hate me so much, in fact he wanted me to continue to suffer like this and from that moment on I hated what he called a god and would never believe what he called the miracle of a god. I also did not hesitate to choose the path opposite to the gods

"I never should have married you!!" Emily's mother screamed

"Who do you think you are who dares to scold me, you fucking wife!!" Reply to Emily's father

"I'm sorry to be with you and my life is ruined because of you"

That's how this family, every day must be both parents emily always quarrel and emily also affected by the quarrel. But after I found a paper with the writing of the black magic usage procedure, my life completely changed

In order to protect myself who was reincarnated into Emily's body and so that I would not be affected by the quarrel of the two old men again then I killed them both, and more precisely I made them as a collision to activate black magic. If anyone asks me if I will regret it or not after doing so, then the answer is no because I am fed up with this life

In the paper I found it written that I needed a collision to activate the black magic and I did not expect that Emily's body had the ability to use magic, when I first discovered the paper containing the procedure of activating the black magic I learned that I was reincarnated into a world where there was magic in it.

But strangely I did not feel any side effects from killing the two old men, unlike what was written in the paper. It is written, if I use my own family members to be used as a black magic activation will experience side effects that are quite heavy but I do not feel any side effects

At that moment I found out that the two old men were probably not emily's biological parents, and then after the black magic was activated. Then after the black magic I activated, I succeeded, I was confused about what else to do after this because my life was only alone now so I thought about finishing off this me who had reincarnated into emily's body

But just as I was about to end my life, suddenly a grown man in very neat and good clothes came up to me and stopped me from killing the miri

"Are you crazy!! How can a child as small as you think of eliminating yourself" said the man who stopped suicide with the black magic I just got, after saying that he looked at me and the things around me as if he was understanding what had just happened here