JUMPING HIGHER
INCREASINGLY

I went home sooner than usual. If the previous nights had run until twelvepm, now I'd be home by eleven. After hanging out at Starbuck, Kenia invited me to eat at Merdeka Walk, where we met for a few weeks. It is delicious at MW, there are many outlets to eat there. So if the child is not considered like me, not eating at home is also not a problem. There are plenty of places to eat out, as long as there is money.

"So Aunt asked you" Mediana said as I passed her in the living room.

It seems that Mediana was deliberately waiting. Though I entered the house with a way to settle down so that no one in the house knows.

"Now you're not asleep?" I asked Mediana.

”No idea, but Auntie has been in the room since then," said Mediana slowly.

The atmosphere of the house is already quiet. I went into the room, but Mediana followed. He stood outside as if asking me not to close the door.

"What's Mediana?" many wonder.

We need to talk, Mediana's voice is slow.

"About what?"

"You."

"Me?"

"Yes." Yeah."

I'm speechless. Mediana.

"Come in," ask me.

Mediana went into the room and sat in a chair near the study table, while I chose to sit on the side of the bed. The door to the room was deliberately left wide open.

"Speak, what's wrong?" I break the silence.

"I feel sorry to see Auntie. He was so hit with your attitude. How come you can do that to someone as good as Auntie?" Mediana looked at me.

”Not turned upside down, you don't care about everyone in this house anymore?"

I'm silent. Listen to Mediana who has dared to blame me. Even he blatantly accused the cause of all my attitude change because of Sarah. He said again I was a loser man, not daring to accept reality. Just because of the problem of breaking up with a boyfriend, parents are hostile, school lazy and so like to wander the night. Hhh! You're a big loser, Bono! Those are the words of Mediana.

In my heart I confirmed what Mediana said. It's free to argue, because that's the truth. Although now I can remove a little shadow of Sarah from my mind, but still in Mediana's eyes I'm just a loser. The man who lost the war. Whatever people say. Not those who feel, but me. Who the hell, who can not be disappointed and hurt if they break up with someone they love? I dare to answer, no one!

"If you decide how Bawon, can it still be tough and not be a loser like me?"

Mediana was silent for a moment.

"Love to that lover isn't everything, Bono."

I laughed cynically.

"Oh, huh?"

Mediana looked me in the eye. Deeply.

“I am a child of the poor.My job is just to learn to be smart and get a good job, so that someday I can help my sisters and take care of my mother if she is elderly and can no longer work. You know the cost of my living and school is all borne by your mother. I won't waste anyone's trust as good as Auntie's. He wants me to study hard and I will. Even if Bawon were to be left behind and cut off, I would not be a fool by destroying my future lamenting about it. Didn't you ask me to accept Bawon as my girlfriend? At that time I had no choice but to accept your request that I be willing to be Bawon's girlfriend, because I felt indebted to your Mama, that's all."

This time I was silent. Hearing Mediana's straightforward words, I was like I was thrown in the past. When Bawon asked me to seduce Mediana to be courted by him. That's a requirement put forward by Bawon, so I can date Sarah, his sister who is just a puppet. We call it a barter program!

"If you don't love Bawon and feel compelled because of my request, just leave him" I said slowly. Feeling guilty about Mediana.

Mediana shook her head.

“No, I already love him. He's a nice guy and understands my situation."

"I don't want you to be forced because of me" I said to make sure.

Mediana just shook her head. She smiled at me.